@!No_rulez!@

happy

2010-10-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

wow. its been sOo long since i went missing frm here. hahaa!

well well, yesterday i felt really satisfied and proud of myself & happy. it was a worry to anxiety to nervousness to delighted to happy to cheerful and to thankful. aLhamduLiLLah. sYukran yA ALLaH for the bLessings yesterday. i aM stiL happy today. :D

nothing is iMposSibLe. -MysTiQ-

different us

2010-08-25T16:08:00.003+08:00

we're not serious abt each other, there is a deEp shEet issUe that i cant accept abt yOu and yoUr sincerity is not felt constantly. thou yoU ar honest, sometimes, beiNg too hoNest is disgusting. and u must realised that i aM mE. and yOu ar yOu. sO here's my final verdict, iM nOt dating yOu aH HuAt. Yes. Final decision. FullsTOp.

i did it

2010-08-25T02:39:00.006+08:00

I just diD iT. Bravo tO MyStiQ!

since you ar UNSURE abt things, why cOnfuse ourselves further? And u know that yOu ar not my cuppa tea just as how im nOt ur cup of coffee. its a fact that we are nOt serious abt each other. and yOu shud knOw that all this while, im not taking you seriously. i appreciate ur confession and thanks for likiNg an impErfect souL like me. iM sOrry to have to do this in this RaMadhan. this is when i guess, i can think most clearly w/O any SatAN's influence and since u asked, might as well i tell you now before i chg my mind due to whatever baseless reasons. i appreciate your honesty and ur presence. and im sure i enjoyed ur company much. well, im sOrry that u have to miss my sarcasm and direct talks during our conversations. Let's eNd it here & stOp all the confusion in us. May this month changes you to be better and may u find someone better than me who can tolerate yOur teases and someone who is more lovely to match ur cUte countenance. Farewell AbDuL H. aka Ah HuAt.

Sincerely,
Miss NoruLez

decisions

2010-08-21T01:15:00.005+08:00

there is alot of things goin on in my mind right now.
Well, now that exam for trimester 3 of year 2 has ended, it marks the end of the hectic,stressful and dead and re-alived back yr 2 and the start of yr 3 in a week's time! yes, my final year! InsyAllah, will be a smooth ride. Amin. Looking forward! i guess, UniverSity studies is my escape.

From academic papers and notes, my mind now has diffused those and filled with the worldly affairs now that is pending and need to be settled.

1stly, i was contemplating and having doubts on my actions and feelings but after alot of reasonings and my evaluation and analysis of the situation and yOu, i've decided. :)

2ndly, i wanna make nice to a person. just forgive and forget. and its up to you how u wanna make amends. but i am sincere in my apology for my part and im not hoping for anything more. this i tell you giRL, i am fine with us nOw as strangers. my purpose is not to bear grudges and have a clean heart to start a new yr after raMadhAn this yr, iNsyAllah. FullsTOp.

3rdly, i've managed to see the differences. and i applaud myself fOr not ruining a friendship or any relation in the making. i guess, it was a momentarily flashback of the sweet memories. sometimes,things are inevitable. but its how u perceive the familiarity and differences is what matters. im cOoL now. FullsTOp.

Now, there ar 2 last things that i need to settle. and this particular major isSue requires higher order thinking and biGtiMe consideration. another issue needs an intact and risky decision. I dont want any regrets following my decisions on any of these two situations. So give me some time, to think abt this.

Ciaos.

MysTiQ

move on

2010-08-01T15:10:00.002+08:00

*Appear*

i gathered all the courage i have, to say all that. and the last phrase i have for you, is the one difficult thing that i had to say. i will, say it, if u ask me. i will, gather all the strength again, just so, you will be happy.

p/s: dont believe what u see. its all buLL. Nowadays, SiLeNce is the truth.

*VaNish*

_MysTiQ_

sacrificeagain?

2010-07-09T13:11:00.002+08:00

andai nya tak mungkin ku miliki keayuan kasih impian ku, lepaskan asmara di jiwaku, setia ku korbankan..

in english: looks like its impossible for me to get that affection that i longed for, hence, let my feelings flow and i shall be readily sacrificing it..

Laokong

2010-05-06T23:35:00.002+08:00

AttentiOn tO aLL!

I LoVe MY LAOKONG VERY MUCH! hahaaaa!

Ouh yes, i've yet to do any introduction abt my Laokong. hahaa. its ok, sOoon i guess! but for now, i just wanna shOut it oUt, I LOVE MY LAOKONG!!! woohoOoo!! :D

cant stop thinking of ya even for a sec. LOL. im crazy. Laokong!

MystiQ

next sem!

2010-04-25T00:37:00.003+08:00

i doNt know why bLoGger dont let me chg the colour of my entry text. the colour button jus disappeared. and now im stuck with this color,orange. brrrrrrrrrrrr.

in any case, i gotta plan for next trimester.

1. I gotta be in campus 5mins b4 every lecture start. YES i MUST!
2. I need to read the chapter b4 evry lecture starts.
3. i gotta make a summary of the lecture every week for all 4 modules.

Thats it. Plan it, Do it, Achieve ur aiM. InsyAllah (God-willing), Improved! :)

MysTiQ

Sem 2 ends

2010-04-23T13:17:00.004+08:00

yEahhhhoooo!
Exams over, that means, Semester 2 ends! yAyy! :)

Been feeling like shit this week, partly coz of xm, partly coz of some other ppl. But no, i like studying and last week exam revision was good on my part. However this week is kinda.... soLemn.

In any case, i've deactivated my neRd mode & im getting back tO my GiLaaaa self! yayy! :)

And im fRee as a bee sOo book me sOoon! :)

MysTiQ

Exam

2010-04-11T15:51:00.002+08:00

hi aLL!!
wOw, its been quite awhile since i updated. hEhee. apologies to my dearest loyal readers (if i have any!). been cAught up with lotsa stuff. plus, was unwell for the couple of weeks. sOooo yeAh!

In any case, just a quick update:

- a boy who is actually a frriend of mine in my campus asked me if he can add me on facebOok. he goes like this:
Boy: 'Can i? hmm, can i add u on facebook..?'
Me: ' hahaa.. yeah suree.. :)'
And i find that kinda cute & respectful.

- And im gonna learn guitar after my exam, finally got a kind soul who is willing to teach me! yeAhoo!

- And i jus realised that i cant go study with the boy bestfriend when he's out frm camp nxt week onwards coz by the time, my exam is over. LoL.

- And i miss Luminorianz already. cant wait for a chillout with fellow warriors!

- And my bestfriends are awesome, & my legs itch for soccer already! Dx! eh, i mean, Raphaelite!

- And i doNt have any bOyfriend now. sO stop asking. LoL. ( coz in 1 day i can get 3 diff ppl at 3 diff time asking me abt my boyfriend.) it's exaaam period for gOodness sake! LOL.

- And i made 1 new IndOnesian friend in campus thanks to PoV. His name is RoBby. :)

Alright! there goes.
And i will be on HiAtUs for 2 weeks! If u miss me, beep me some lovely words on my mobile yaw! till then, lOvee my readers lottts! *huggies* :P

MysTiQ

goatie

2010-03-30T23:58:00.002+08:00

mAn mAn mAn, i feel soOo confused. on 1 hand, i was irritated with somebody. on the other hand, im like anticipating his presence. and it just happened recently. And i cant resist that temptation... ouh my. Whats happening? that thing. i guess, that thing attracts my attention. brrrrrrrrrrr. im in need for a pill of sanity to keep myself sane. oh mAn oh man oh man!

MysTiQ

hectic week done

2010-03-27T00:05:00.004+08:00

Ooooooooh weLL!
Hectic weeks has finally ended. apOlogies to my dearest loyal readers who had been waiting for my updates. It was a disaster these few weeks for me as there was alot gOin on in sch, assignments, projects, meetings and tests all at once. i hAve been coming to lectures n tutorials late lately and blame it on my sleep. this week i overslept everysingle day. yes. not coz of stayin up late, but coz of drowsy pills i consumed this whole week to cure my high fever n runny nose. it was really bad. was bedridden on sUnday, a day before my birthday and when monday came, i forced myself out to do research while studying with someone. was sickly on my birthday! hoW cud that happened? i nvr get sick during my bbirthdays! maybe it's the 21st nOtion. ouh well. whatever with being 21. i feel 19 always!

And sO, tuesday, the girls suprised me with a blackcurrant chocolate cake! was nice! oUh, on monday itself, had a good celebration with my beloved famm! dinner was yUmmmylicious, thanks tO my stepmom who cooked tOmyuM fried rice for me with some sweet treats! And my Abah's meaningful prayers which made me feel blessed, my sisters surprised me with clues n a gift and Shaik's trying to take all the attention on the dinner table when his birthday is already over. LoLOL! And thAnk yOu sOo much tO Kakak whO bought for me the netbOok! i Love yOuuu sooo much! yAyy! :)
And then on wed, the dude and the girls suprise me again with some gifts and i received wonderful gifts frm the mates! i loVe it all! and most of the gift was the headcover! hahaaa. but all different types! sOo it was cOoL! ;)

ThaNk yOu sOo much to aLL my friends who wished me at midnight! Sorry cuDnt reply cOz i was bedridden n was sOoo weak aNd half conscious. And to all who wished me on faceboOks, calls and smses, in this blog and even msns and fAce tO fAce, and also for those who prayed for my wellbeing, THANK yOOouu! i lOve u all! yayy :)

Project was done and completed with patience & cooperation with hardwork frm everyone. And for the 1st time ever, im doin a grp project without an assigned leader. so Me & this other girl take turns to bcoMe unofficial leaders. Basicly, we both took initiatives n take turns to take the lead. And we managed tO do it well, thanK GOd!

And ur message was the most precious, meaningful & lovely. i wonder how u do that, Hahaa. bUt pls, shave off tt misAi! doesnt loOk good on yOu! ouh well, i didnt know u have fB. LOL. u lOok really cUte. okay, stOp it. And that other yOu, the way u got my numbEr is nOt interesting enuff. brrrrrr.

MysTiQ

21ST BIRTHDAY!

2010-03-22T22:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPIEST 21ST BIRTHDAY TO SHAIKAH NURULAIN BTE SHAIK RAHIM!!
mAY ALLAH bLEsS yA WiTh eXCeLLeNt HEALTH, MaNy WEALTH, SUCCESS & LOVE & HAPPINESS ALWaYS, INSYALLAH.. ;)

THERE GOES MY TEENAGE YEaRS...OUH WELL! hAHAAHaA! LOLOLOLOL!!

innovators

2010-02-28T02:28:00.003+08:00

iNnovators, less brAnd loyaLty and dare to take the risk.

hAHaa. tt was a random thought on my mind frm my marketing moduLe. LOL.
anywayz, quiz were okay. bUt not a gOOd preparation on my side. hMmmm! next up, law test nxt week. gOtta read! ;)

and well! tdy went to Raghini's 21st bday party! she look gOrgeoUs like a princess! Amd the briYani was NICE! hEhee. and met ShobAnA, PavitrA, SiyA, Nir & JaMie SuSie ThoMas! hEhee. miss them lOts! 06A2-ians are very much missed, and the inDiAn gang was totally crazy jus now. LoL. we keep laughing and cAtchup on each other's life. sweeet! hope to see them all again very soOon :)

And the babes went to chill for awhile jus now, had some laugh, updates and momentarily teases. hAhaa! When MystiQ n Lady meets, Babe confirm kena bUllY! LOLOL!

Overall, i like tOday! and im really happy to meet my FrIeNds once again! Shobee's party next! ;)

ps: SorethrOat now. rocK songs up for recOrd! hAHahaa! LOLOLOL!

MystiQ

hes attach i guess

2010-02-24T21:01:00.003+08:00

brrrrr. I shall not harbour any feeling to anyone right now. coz i know, i will hate tt person in times to come. So, let us stay this way. YeAh. *knocks own head* hw can i like a stranger?? Ohmagoat. *knocks head twice* how cud i even think abt tt stranger everyday? *knocks head trice* how did i even do that in the 1st place? *faints* I guess, this is it. Im gonna let my fathEr choose for me my future husband. LOLoL! :)

hmm

2010-02-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

im waLking away from the trOubles in my life.

anD i wonder, why u kEep on running in my mind. can u just vanish? doNt trigger my ridiculOus behaviour. bUt i guess,, ur tOo sweet for that. ;)

I kEep seeing ReD tshirt tdy. thOu not many wore rEd tdy, bUT my eyes kept zOoming at any particular someone who wore red. anyone. weird.

And i wanna watch the mOvie.

MystiQ

termbreakover

2010-02-21T21:50:00.003+08:00

Mid Term bReAk is gOnna be over!
Back tO campus tMr! and iM gOnna start the race again. cOoL enuff! ;)

ANyway, my mind has been distracted lately by external influences. i gOtta keep myself sane. yes. sanity. anyone know of syArahan goin on or any events that can motivate ppL, dO beep mE immediately! i need it sO much. coz im easily distracted. brrrrrr.

And someone chAtted with me today.. the way he says the things.. he seems unhappy with me. i've explained to him bUt, well, i guess, im being MISUndERSToOD. aNd as much as i want tO, i cAnt make him understand.

And iM gonna catch a mOvie very sOon. mYnaMeisKhAn. yes. that one! ;)

MystiQ

healthy..nOt

2010-02-17T21:58:00.002+08:00

Today... i feel lifeless again.
And when i thought im gOod enuff, it turns oUt, im nOt.
it seems like im healthy, but i still feel the strain on my heart.
And when im happy, my happiness cant be shared. and thus, i dont feel happy anymore.
it seems like everything is perfectly normal with my current family, bUt i still feel thE anomalies of a brOken family.

What aM i? Who aM i? Why aM i experiencing all these? Where do i stAnd? How aM i gonna resolve everythin? How do i react?

these ar the questions that ar left unanswered.

MysTiQ

soccer

2010-02-16T23:44:00.003+08:00

Soccer on SuNday was GREAT capital G! i lOve my Raphaelite girls. Ernie was superb as always, Twin was tOp sCorer of the day, Faley was pOised, Bana was lOud, and the new babes are gOod. Overall, i enjoyed kicking altogether ;) bUt im thinking, shall we recruit a coach or we gonna do self-trained? hMmmz. shall consider it again!

Anyway, tdy's movie date with my best buddy was cancelled due tO some unwanted occurences. i knew it this gonna happen. bUt ouh well, its Fate that wont let us meet. nobody's fault. fate seems to play a joke on us both. hAhaa. fuNny uh fatE. brrrrr.

on another note, i feel that.... familiarity breeds excitement. however, pride comes in when it come to responsibility. hmm.. it's always after we lost tt something, only then we miss it. gaaaaaaaaaa. how should i react? really really, i doNt kNow how to react. teach me somebody. anybody. sigh.

And yes! Midterm bReak is here to stay! i am feeling goOod abt this hols! gOnna enjoy it as much as i cann! ;)

MystiQ

pash

2010-02-13T23:00:00.002+08:00

Tdy was good, went shOppin with Flea! ;)
The apek was fUnny. hAhaa. as i took a long time to decide which pash i wanna buy, he asked me, '' masih lama tak? '', i was like '' errm, jap eh..'' and he was '' oo.. saya mau kluar jap,.. tk bole tahan!'' and i was like " ooo! okayy! erm.. okay, go ahead.''. Then before he left his shOp, i said " eh! ok ok, saya mau byar skarang!''. LOL

Aand chendoL was niceeeeeeeeee! wOohooooo! and then bump into this dude who have a long sidebUrn, and i was whispering to Flea abt tt dude and we laughed. bUt sheeeep, he was Flea's friend! daaaamn. was it HakiM? is tt his name? gaaaahaha! and Flea hOpe u didnt tell ur friend abt wat i said abt his sideburn. hAhaaa!

And this bOy is stalking me onliNe. i jus feel like askin him, ''arent you tired of flirting?''. kinda gets irritating. brrrrrrrrrr.

And tmr is Sunday! gonna have reuNion lUnch! yayy! :D
And soccer on Monday! doUble yayy! :D :D

MystiQ

just better but nOt totally alright

2010-02-12T23:11:00.003+08:00

i live each day this week feeling lifeless. well, apart from the assignments and meetin datelines for project, its really a tiring mind boggling week. on top of that, i am really unwell. hit by flu bug again and now cough. and my voice is fading. and i did my assignment thinking i was on the right track but ended up, i realised that my sources though complements my topic issue, it does not directly talk about my issue. false hOpe! And sO submitted the freAking paper an hour late. plus xceeding the word limit as iF i usually doNt. haaaaaaaaaa. and the only complement i got this week is by my tutor tdy pointing at me while saying ''she is the only one i hear and its not fair coz u guys are not contributing and so, we dont learn much tdy. other classes i give alot, but this class, only 70% of my effort.'' i know its a gd thing for me tt she recognise my contributions, however, things are nt tt simple people. and i dont deserve any round of applause for that either. coz i didnt complete the work tt we all suppose to complete. thats my failure tdy.

and my results ar up. shall not comment on it. and well, i feel dejected. so dejected. coz it seems that every soul is busy with their own life that i feel neglected and abandoned. and no one is available and interested to share my happiness with me. ouh well, a lonely delight. u can say im childish, sensitive and whatever. bUt tht is what im feeling right now and yes, that's just it. craaaap. and i just wish that every single night, when i go home frm sch, there will be a chauffer waiting for me to carry my heavy bag and drive me hoMe peacefully. and i NEED a laptOp. and i WANT a crumpler. to facilitate my learning and lift the burden of my shoulders. ouh well, just IN MY DREAM. even if i grow beard, i wont be able to get all that. coz im living in an unfair world where sadly, im one of the worst off population. freAk.

And i shall stOp fantasising over anyboday. cOz noboday is fantasisng over me. truthfully.

MystiQ

fuccccck

2010-02-12T18:19:00.000+08:00

SHiTCrAPFaRk.

sicksicksick

2010-02-07T00:24:00.004+08:00

And sOoooo... i knOw his name! hAhaa. and we ar nOw officially FrieNds! LoLOL. he wOre green tOday.. nOt reAlly my fAvourite, but ouh well, rather than grey! haHahaa!

And soMehow, i feel bad tOwards someone. And i hAven seen tt persOn arnd. wOnder what is uP.. And that another soMeone.. i dOnt know if im dOin the right thing to tht persOn. hMmm.

And today was orAnge! and nOw, we ar playing sLaps bag! LOL. bUt he gOtta watch whEre he sLaps. hAhaaa!

oUh well, iM unweLL. yeAhhzz, been sOo healthy for sOo long, tiMe tO gEt this fLu bUg again. brrrrrr. And i didnt like tdy's tUtOriaL quEstiion, it kinda make me feel like it's intruding on my privacy n sEcrecy. And i didnt kNow what tO say in the class jus nw.. and for the 1st time ever, i didnt contribute much. brrrrrrrrrr. i hate this.
And i gOt a questiOn! cAn we believe in horoscoPe? *wonder wOnder*

MystiQ

weeepy

2010-02-04T00:53:00.004+08:00

i dont know why this week alone, my life is surrOunded by 4 diff gUys. yEs, just dis wEek alOne. all of them ar making me feel like shit. i doNt wAnna feel this way. gOod or bad, just dOnt enter my life this way. or at best, doNt even enter my liFe! just disappear n get lOst! i aM NOT like any other duMb girLs who weep for yOu evry single night nOr dO i think of any of u sharing my life challenges with Me. and i aM nOt the girl whO cheat or had the impuLse tO dO sO behind anyone's back. gEt that straight. i hAve MY OWN LIFE to lead and i aM sOoo VERY CAPABLE of leading it MYSELF. thE rest just get lOst of my sight! im very much disgusted just by the word 'GuYS'. yUCk.

gEt lOSt! gEt lOst! gEt lOst!

And anOther vEry frUstating extremely puKing parallel shit is thE M*****F***ERS whOm i desperately fEel like destrOying is anOthEr burden to my life in which it is literally making me dEpressed like freAk! gO to hEll and dOnt ever cross path wif me ever again! blOody sickening freAking aSsHOles! GET OUT OF MY LIFE bLoOody sAtaNS! i wiLL FIGHT with yOu with every little strEngth i have even up tO my laSt breAth and iM gOnna make sURe ure gOna eNtEr HeLL!!

whaaaaaaaaaaat

2010-02-02T21:36:00.002+08:00

whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat the hellllll???
what is wrong with YOU?! how come u Dots mE?? huhhh? i really really doNt understand this part. wasSuuuuuuuuuup with that???

*sigh sigh sigh*

aNd that Dude rigth there ar making lOts of effort while anOther dude is tryin gently. aiYoh! whY i always end up like this? am i cursed or something?? aiYoh!

And nOw, what? Dots? that's not sOoo nice isnt it? omg.

MystiQ

haizzz

2010-02-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

Bad bAd baD...
im just gotta feeling that something is gOnna be nOt right.. probably, disastrOus?

and well, last night, it was really unexpected coincidence... like... why did u text me that in the 1stplace? despite the fact that i actually shared it with someone else? funny but.. well.. unexplainable..hmmm.. hAhaa. well, i shant think abt it tOo much.. thOu it's really.. Funny. And today, when we met, it kinda...seems like we ar strangers.. u didnt even acknowledge me. all others except me. can i ask u why? *sigh*

And tO yOu there, sOrry i skipped the eye contact.. was busy and confused and... well.. i know, its just plain xcuses on my part. bUt really, didnt meant to be stucked up! well... sometimes.. i dont knw how i shud react. *sigh*

And i have a wiLd guess that u like her. hAhaa. jus a wild gUess.
aNd the other yOu, u tOo. maybe.

MystiQ

EXAMRESULTSEMESTER1

2010-01-28T22:36:00.001+08:00

ThanK GoD! ALHAMduLiLLAH!
iM thankfuL for everything Dear ALLAH. ;)

nExt up, it's mOvieee tiMe! :D

MystiQ

unnecessary noise

2010-01-25T11:29:00.003+08:00

This is the reason why i dont like stayin at hOme! Unnecessary noises! never ending arguments, baby's cry, asking me to do things that is not my responsibility. like whaaaaaaaaaaaaat! and i have nO time to be nice to everyone. if u all think im rude or rebellious or whatever, be it. im sick of compromising. when i say i doNt like someone, means i dont like! doNt try to use emotional blackmail on me. iit WONT work! ever! i really feel like goin back to my teenage years where i can dO stuffs that satisfies my desire although it harms me alot. i dOnt care what other ppl think, i doNt care abt other ppl. i was living in my own world at tt period. growing up reAlly sUcks! i dont like Now. i dont like everything. i wanna escape. from everyone around me. and i can dO what i want without worrying abt whoever. it is exhausting, really.

MystiQ

waitng

2010-01-25T00:21:00.001+08:00

it seems like...im lOoking forward to see someone. be it online or real life...im kinda anticipate the person's presence. hMmmm. what is wrong with me? *bangs wall*

MystiQ

forget it!

2010-01-24T01:40:00.002+08:00

I need tO forget this feeling. this thOughts. i need to forget it. No, i need to throw it away! how did it came abOut in the first place??? i doNt know! im nOt suppose to think like this. this is tOtally wroNg. tOtally. rararrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!hope, tmr when i wke up, i will have already thrown away the thoughts. its not right. how cud i even thot abt it? wAke up!!.

MystiQ

anticipation

2010-01-24T01:35:00.003+08:00

Somehow or rather, it is likeable, but on another angle, it seems irritating. it is playing in my mind.. images of....is this fantasy? or is this for real? cant be.... but... sure sure, i will stay wif my pledge. but in the corner somewhere, the urge to break it is culminating. Oh my, i need some breather.. *gasp*

MystiQ

soccer

2010-01-24T00:29:00.002+08:00

wOo! played streetsoccer jus now. was fun sweating out n match wif some kids tt persistently wanna challenge us. LoL. and they won. and we get to conquered the whole court. LoL. i know it doesnt make sense, but well, my teammates n myself dont really bother abt those kids. LoL. sO we kick arnd! ;)

sch is getting hectic. more assignments comin up! tt means, i will be bUsy wif research n what not. tiring but cOping.

aNd well, it's hard to keep ur thoughts and feelings at bay. sometimes, good things dont come easy. however the fact tt it is reachable, but it is beyond attainable, makes me feel useless. and pictures dont really tell any story. they ar just a common practice to denote wher u have been and what u were doing n with who. that is aLL. no interpretations needed. it is explicit as just that. boring? no? u decide. *sigh* and all i can dO now is stay true to my pledge and live wif any agony tt comes my way. yes, agony. *sigh*

MystiQ

his bday

2010-01-20T23:30:00.003+08:00

gOod day! i had an AWESOME day today. ;)
tired buT really happy! somehow.. i noticed the frequent looking even thou stOpped talking. then, at the makan shop, somehow... 'i lOve this!' just made me think twice.. and smiled. and the laugh,jump,shots.dance.drive,bball. LoLOL! i tOtally feel CrAzY today. like really crAzy. in a good way.. bUt well, i better knock my head hard n wake uP frm the fantasy of whatever and then, go to bed. goodnight! ;)

MystiQ

brrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2010-01-17T13:55:00.003+08:00

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. if im doing this, it doesnt mean tt im feeling cold ok. it means like... daaaaaaang. ouh well, im just feeling uneasy. about everything. from sch, work, friends, family myself. hmmmm. and soMehow, my body feels fatigue. and gonna be like sickly a lil. brrrrrrrrrrrr.

on a positive note, i like hangin out wif the Zs. ZU ZA ZI. hEhee. somehow, they ar my only Zs friends. huggies tO them! ;) and ZAAAAAAAA! where is tha pichas!! LOL!

And i miss Fara. she's a lil unwell. get wEll soOn! :)
And, soccer. yeAhz. Ernie n Faley has bugg me for some kick! i like! hAhaa. InsyAllah, cNy we go play streetsoccer! ;)
And Aminah, recover frm ur injuries soOn! treAt it with icE yaw! ;P
Thanks Raghini for tagging my blog. LoL. at least i know whO my readers ar. i haTe silent reAders. sO, ppl, tag my tAgbOard when u visit! i wanna know who kaypo abt me. hEHee.

And JanuaRy babies,
13 Jan- my babysistEr ShaiKah NuruL FaDhiLLah
17 Jan- my brOyAnkee CaptaiN JiB
19 Jan- my lectUremate FletcHEr
HAPPIEST 2010 BIRTHDAY ya'll! and to those i miss oUt, hAppy birthday tO u too! ;)

And i got lOts to dO todAy. SundAy. the only frEe day i can spare bondin with myself. saheLLu Shai! LoL.

MystiQ

wat was i thinking?

2010-01-12T23:10:00.002+08:00

OhmagOat. whAt wAs i thinking?? ignore the prev post! i shOuld slap myself. *slaps!Slaps!slaps!*

i think im just one cOnfused kid. i shouldnt be havin those delights. brrrrrrrrrrr. lEt's forget it. MeMory LoSs pLeAse! for that pleasure. *sigh

MystiQ*

hush hush

2010-01-12T19:09:00.002+08:00

2nd wEek of scHoOL! blast! hAhaa. tHou tired. LOL.

hMmm. wat im about to type here might be confusing n not friendly to any of ur eyes.. sOo... just... bear wif me. LoL.

its a twist of events.. just a lil funn here n there. apparently, i...was surprised at how yesterday went. i mean.. it was funn.. no doubt abOut it. just tt 1st oUting together and the eye contacts and freQuent telepathy... just... hMmm.. and it was only given tO me.. and well, for an eXchange of a slice of mine. and the part wher 3 of us had this instant laughter at another friend of ours.. LOL! and today itself, i was, literally, anticipating tt presence. since we ar unreachable, the anticipation bcomes more thrilling. anD vOiLa! sitting there, smiling.. & acknowledging both presence. and another telepathy happened tt my instinct told me to turn and lOok back and there you came walking tOwards jus seemingly with the look of curiosity & glad. as i managed tO convince, there next to each other, we sat and participate. and then the heavy pOur.. shared. some drenching .. but it's okAyy, coz i wont fall sick and u doNt need tO shOwer.

OhmAgoat! i received another sUrprise! it was my naMe first to be commented. like hMmm? hahAa.. and well, my cheeks now feel hoT.. i mean, warm.... okAy okay, i shall stOp right here right now. PoSt! ;)

MystiQ

twins

2010-01-09T01:55:00.002+08:00

HellO!
hang out wif twin jus now. LOL. watch the awesomest movie ever! Avatar 3D. LOL. thE jAkE guy is mAchO laaa. wOohOo! EyWa...sahEllu! hEhee. after tt went to shOpp for some scarves.. hehee.. Pashmina twins comin ur way ya'll! LoL. and the funny highlight was this nyOnya at jrgeaSt mRt, askin AmiNah 'kOmenti? this go kOmenti? then Aminah blur faced & look at me and i nod my head n said ' yes yes' aNd the nyOnya boarded the trAin. AmiNah wif her blur face came to me and i said, '' she ask u if this train go cLEmeNti! LOL!' AmiNah replied '' laa! kau faham eh ape die tanye! aku ingat ape koMEnti kOmenti!'' LoL! and we both enDed up laUghing our heAd off! hAhahAaa! lOoks like i understand nyOnyA's language aye! LOLOL!

And yeAhzza! SunDay's mArathOn! been gyming wif dearest bestfriend NoRaZiLah! hahAaa. sOo funn sweating out! and well, thOu im not really prepAred, but im lOokin forward to the marathon! it's the 1st evEr musLim woMen run in spOre okayy! credits to herhIjAb for organising! :D

1st week of lectures has been quite alright. was glad tt my lecturers ar okayy and nOt boring. LoLoL. and my dearest KoReaN friend LuCy, bought me a gift for kOreAaaaa! yayy! thanks for the beautifuL heart my kOReAn girL! :) and my other friEnd AngeLes is not comin back this sem due to some prob. i miss her! :( Hidayah n JoEy ar as usual crazy n like to laugh along wif me. LoL. the others, thou i dont really know their names, i feel glad to see them back. LoL. however, there is this annoying guy whO kept stretchin infront of me. distracting! hope he wont sit infront of me again in nxt lectures. brrr.

And i feel better abt my friEnds. i mean, the prev pOSt, was kinda sad.. but im hAppy to know tt some of my close friends still care abt me. Thanks babes! lovess! :)

MystiQ

friendslove

2010-01-05T01:57:00.003+08:00

SoMehow.. i feel that.. my friends doNt love me as much as i love them. i just dont feel it. even like some friends tt i chatted in mSn n stuff, when i said hI and all, some of then only replied a few words and others.. doNt bother to reply. :(
i guess, it's alright. coz, friEnds, they come and they go. it's expected. ouh well, whAtever. that means i haf a fren lesser to care abOut. positive note. brrrrrrrr.

And well, on a darker note, i feel that swEetalkers shud kill thEmselves by drinking pOisOn or burn their tongue off till they bcuM aShes. You know, when someone said to u something and u feel touched n swayed n feeling feeling and all, in actual fact, when u think about what he/she said logically, it doesnt make sense. TaK LogiC! ( i used to say that phrase evryday! LOL.) Really really. and promiSes nowadays is just a way to get ur momentarily trust and hOpe but in the end, it is broken, forgotten, or even, denied of making those promises. sO ppl! wAke up to ur senses! esp to those who ar crazily in love n blinded from logic and those who haf crushes and ar in cloud 9 or 90 or watever, tHinK lOgic! woRds ar easily spoken. actions determine it's truth and fulfilment. in business terms, words ar like accruals. but actions are those that are actually realised. ok, shall stop my iNsanity from pOuring out in here. brrrrrrrrrrr.

MystiQ

cheesy fries

2010-01-05T01:14:00.003+08:00

hOLa!
how haf u been my reAders?? hope things ar all good gOod gOod on ur 4th day of 2010! for me, things have been cool so far. hAhaa. well, anticipating Wednesday soo much coz i wanna start sch! theres this module tt i cant wait to xplore! it's called PriNcipLes oF MarkEting! yeAhhhhaa! well, comments frm my friends ar that this module is bbboring n hard n stuff. I'll see if what they said is true! but im excited for it! hAaa. i know, im alil bit siow here n there and im anticipating school whereas all of u dread to sch n work. sometimes, i dont understand myself either. but just bear with me! coz u got no choice. LoLOL! ;P

On another note, i am impatiently waiting for my dearest LadyFara to get an 8to5 work coz by then, she will enrol in Uni too! faster faster babe! then i got friend for serious study! hoHOhO! And my dearest twin is carving out her career slowly but steadily. tiring n challenging no doubt, what's more dealing wif kids, and their motheRs n the structure of narrow span of control of reporting officers, it's a huge responsibility man. Nowadays, teachers ar not only teaChing, they ar also responsible for shaping the kids' morality and behaviours as well as instilling creativity in them. Tough one twin, but i am very sure that once u put ur tOtal FOCUSs in it, u cAn make it! sOo jiayOu! tO my other friends who ar working, if u see an opportunity for growth and development of ur skill/talent/interest, GO FOR IT! dun hesitate aNd nevEr procrAstinate! cOz Opportunities comes only once and when they're gOne, they ar gone forever! sO babes! JusT dO it! hEez :D

Amidst of the excitement, comes the pain..again. it's coming back i guess. the strain. like freAk. nonetheless, i shall ignore it. coz.. WONT DIE ONE! hAHaa!

MystiQ

1St of 2010

2010-01-02T15:10:00.003+08:00

MErry Merry 2010!
Soooo.. im gOnna list the 1st of 2010s! Lets seee..

1. 1st girl i met: ErNie YusNita!
2. 1st place i went: PayALEbaR CitYpLaza!
3. 1st coLour i wear: Green & BlaCK!
4. 1st happening: Live Gig by IMPROMPTU! (wOohOo!! rOCkk oN!!)
5. 1st Pyjamas i wear: o6A2 class jErsey! (LOL)
6. 1st person i see when i wake up: BiMbO DiLzz! (my younger sister!)
7.1st song i played on my list: Lady Gaga's 'Bad Romance'!
8. 1st song i sing to: Daughtry's 'Call Your Name'!
9. 1st homefood i ate: Queen's (my kAkak) sPicy tOmatO Fried Macaroni!
10. 1st fastfood i had: LjS 2pc chiCken wif coLesLaw!
11. 1st healthy snack: 2 cups of Cupcorn!
12. 1st unhealthy snack: MiLoMcflurry!
13. 1st person to tag my blog: BestfriEnd NoraZiLah!

LOLOL! And yesterday, 1st jaN 2010. i spent the wholE day wif deArest Ernie! she did her hair xtension which was sOoo beaUtifuL long wavy hair! i kinda feel like doing it tOo! and thEn we head to marina sq, had late lunch at lOngjOhn's and guess wat, at 6.10pm sharp, there lights at LjS suddenly sWitch off! evrything was sOo dark in that min! LOL! there was a blackout apparently but it lasted like.. less than a minute. Bbbborrrinng! HAaa. then went tO esplaNade and we went to watch a livE gig by this band called ImPromPtu. And they reAlly very randomly select sOngs to sing n play. i lOve their imPromptness! gAhaaa! And they made me like rOCk for some reAson! hAhaa! then gOt this ApeK who has a crOwn on his head, wif a red shrt printed his face wif 2 other person wif his crown on. i think, it was a selfmade croWn. LoL. then he took out a plastic cup wif the neon lights on it, waving it during the gig. LOL. funny guy. then got anOther druNken oLd Lady or UNcle God kNows what the gEnder of the oLd folk is, dancing n roCking on the stEps on the Esplanade wAterfront! Weirdos. And while Ernie had a thing for this Basist whos name is Nazar or NaZak or something like tt who apparently is a HAPPILY MARRIED man, i was sOo shiOked at the drummer's skill and the other electronic guitarist superb skill! hAaaha. and the songs they played were AWESOME! like bIG tiME! ireally enjOyed the night! Thanks Ernie for the coMpany! *huggies!*

YEAaaaahzzaaaaa! iM ecstatic! hOhOHO! Merry Merry 2010! ;D

MystiQ

bye 09, hi 10!

2009-12-31T14:35:00.004+08:00

AwaL Muharram & weLcoMe 2010!

yUUuup! im anticipating hard for the year 2009 to end. like seriOusLy. END NOW! i say NOW! well, all the past years thou not realli good for me, i must say, 20o9 is the worst year ever! lets see..

i was in sOoo many countless dilemmas frm beginning of the yr to the end. even right now. haf to make decisions, one after another. and these decisions are very important decisions that determine my future. it IS VERY crucial. in other words, yes, it is lyFe & death matters. well, for me at least. i was bombarded wif lOtsa questions, opinions, endless anxiety and continUous dilemmas that i myself haf to solve. i was on a continuous run for resolution to the extent that i ignored the surrounding ppl like God knows wat, and i felt soo emotional and even felt tired of living this lyfe. it has always been dark for me. but this year isnt any better. the period of transition is the cause. the main cause of my endless cOnfusion. the transition of a girl to an adult, a graduate fitting in the working world, a mentor to those below me, a sister to my younger siblings, a daughter to my father, a friend to my close friends. it was really hard, enduring these shits. but i went thru it. and i dealt wif it. soo much sO that i felt, i have not done enuff. for everyone around me. and why? bcoz, i was rushing thru evrything. i was rushing thru all struggles that i lost track of myself, my roles and responsibility that i inadequately and hastily fulfilled. just to get over it, and complete it. In the end, i feel confused. like right now, i dont know what im doing, well yes, im furthering my studies in UoN. but besides that, i am totally not in the right mind. there ar things tht remained unsolved, unspoken. but the freaking fact that it is my weakness that im talking about, makes me hate myself at times. and the one person that i though was The One, in the end, impaired all hopes. and the ONE person that caused me soo much anguish truout my whole lyfe, wounded me times n again. and everybody else, afflicted harsh words to me. without me retaliating much, i tried my best to be rational in evry situation. and i felt that, i maintained my cool. the world is unfair, that is a universal truth. but i am always in an unjustifiable position which i feel deeply hurt. u might think that u haf had it worse than me. but im telling you, u ar not the one to judge what shits i've gone thru and faced since i was young right up till now.

while im expressing my freaking shits in here, i also wanna THANK all those who haf helped me & supported me in each n every single way, regardless of how much u've done for me. Thank You my father, my stepmother, my sisters n my babybrother. Thank yOu also to brotheryankee, my closest friends, my tutors and lecturers, my cousins, and my good friends as well as my contacts for keeping me sanE all this while. virtuaL insaNity, thanks to SezAiRi for tt song too. And Syukran Ya Allah, Alhamdulillah for evry breath u've given me to live evry single second, for evry bits of laughter, evry ounce of health & every single cents u've blessed me with. Thank YOu. ;)

And thanks for visiting my humble blog. and readin evry ramblings of mine.

Signin 2009 off,
ShaikAh N. aka Miss NoRulez aka MystiQ

brrr

2009-12-28T03:28:00.002+08:00

hMm.. curiousity. was curious abt something, but cudnt find out more. sOo, no sweat abt it.

anywayy, it has been 3 weeks. exactly. issit my fault for displaying cold shoulder? or issit just u being busy? well, u cant blame me either. coz the revelation is quite..unexpected. but ouh well, y making u a priority when u're just makin me an option. rright? blatantly expressed. ur inconspicuous actions and words allowed me to formulate subtle possibilities. thankfully, im prudent enuff to keep things at bay. and the fiasco will NOT repeat itself. at least, not with you.

and i ensconce myself by the seaside and by the river, with caraMeL fRappe for companion...

MystiQ

mense

2009-12-25T23:21:00.002+08:00

Hahaa. Ernie said, Red ChriStMas to me! LOL. tt's kind of funny. LoL!

In any case, tdy i dont feel that gOod actually. well, besides the 1st day 'OFF' chaos, i feel the effect of moodswings soo hard that tdy i teared. aLot. and this is soOo not me.

flaShbacks of the past keeps haUnting me back wherever i gO. it just doesnt feel right. a surge of sadness drowns me deep. deeper. a flood of childhood moments rushed through the cells of my mind. pierced right thru my heart. hit the tearbag, it burst flowin on my delicate cheeks. it is excruciating no doubt abt it. Indeed, im a frail little girl. my vitality are straining. but i know, i have to inevitably replenish the fuel in me to keep on driving tru this endless road junctions that had me stucked most of the times. i doNt haf the license yet, but i had tO take on the wheel still. poor child.

Ernie said this once, 'im a child living in an adult body'. i can relate with that. totally. but i guess, i haf to consider myself lucky. as Allah still loves me, regardless of wat i did, the sins i've committed, Allah still guides me and grant me my wishes. Alhamdulillah for all that he had given me. Dear Allah, give me more challenge if u see the strength in me to overcome it, but reduce the intensity if u see the feeble, incapacity in me to face it. Syukran Ya ALLAH.

MystiQ

daughtry

2009-12-23T21:15:00.008+08:00

i jus cried watching 'Daughtry's gives' video on UganDa's kids. touching. and i really really like ChRis DauGhtry!! omg omg! like omg! he sings 'have u ever really loved a woman' and ohmagoat! i melted like mad! awwwww. soOoo nice la his voice! woOohOo! saaaassssyyy! :D
im sOoo gonna wish for a partner wif his voice! so he can sing for me evry single day while i picture dauGhtry's face! AHhaa! well, he is the one and the ONLY botak gUy i like in this world! woOohhoO! my fav songs are now, '' Call yOur naMe'', '' yOu doNt bElonG'' and ''sEptember''. gO listen when u can! superbrilliantly sung! oOoo! my hEro! gO CD!! :D

And ChRis DauGhtRy made my day toDay! :D Thanks! *hUggies*

MystiQ

woOoohOo! 1st sem done!

2009-12-20T23:39:00.008+08:00

MErRY MeRry MeRry XmaSss!!!
and so, last xmas, i put up a song by MariAh Carey 'All i wAnt for xmAs'. sO this xmAS, i gif u a classic melodious cute christmas song to bright up ur day today! enjoy this lovely favourite xmas jingle of mine! :D

hAhaa! and yAyy! i've completed my 1st sem in University of Newcastle! the papers were generally do-able wif some difficult questions of course. InsyAllah i can score well... i hOpe!

Besides that, i had family chalet over the weekend at dWntWn and well, BBQ was GREAT! yUmmmmmylicous! Thank You sOoo much to Abah & Tante! *LovEs & huggies!* And to my lovely nonsensical sisters, thanks for criticising me toO. gaaaaaahaaa! :D

And sOo, im available for bookings! hAaaha. sOo, wanna haf a date wif me, must book me early early okayy! hAhaa. *shok sEndiri* and my misses to aLot of ppl whom i cudnt spend time wif eversince i start school. sOo babes! u know who u are! book mee! NOW! hAhaaa! i siao already. :D till here, u will see me uodatin again very sOoon! :D

MystiQ

yay

2009-12-07T01:44:00.003+08:00

yAY! im sOooo glad to be able to meet Ernie again! hugggies!
And i felt relieved after sharin wif Ein to get some point of view frm a guy's perspective. thanks dude! and i wanna thank all my beloved girls for being there wif me and comfortin me wif kind words and emotional support! hahaa. lOve u babes! u know who u are yaw! huggies! :D

anyways, im happy to be able to get in touch wif someone ( my indonesia bf) via Fb! hAhaa. ok ok, besides that, i think TauFik BatiSah is really greAt! LoL. and i like Siti NurHaliza n MishA Omar alot. :D gReat balls of firE! aNd, tmr hopefully i getta meet my filipin boyfriend. LoL! till here, adiOs! :)

MysTiQ

brrr

2009-12-05T02:57:00.002+08:00

This lyric frm Mraz's Prettiest Friend, playing now in my blog. And this WAS what i felt for the whole 1yr plus for a particular someone. Just kinda suited him. brrrr. just chg all the 'her and she' to 'him and he'. u will get wat im tryna say frm my heart n my soul. And the italics, is just so right on. while the un-italics are those moments tt i FELT. usEd to feel. WAS.

This is what I look like today
And I'm trying not to pull out my hair
I'm trying hard to grow it but I'm far too shy to show it back there
That is probably why I like wearing hats
There's no denying I'm deferring the facts
Avoiding confrontation Lacks tact in a situation
Behind every line is a lesson yet to learn

But if you asked me
The feeling that I'm feeling is overwhelming
oh, it goes to show There's so much to know

I wrote this for my prettiest friend
But while trying not to prove that I care
I was trying not to make all my moves in one motion and scare her away
Well she can't see she's making me crazy now
I don't believe she knows she's amazing how
She has me holding my breath (Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com)
So I'll never guess that I'm a none such unsuitable, suited for her

And if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is complimentary
And oh, it goes to show
The moral of the story is boy loves girl
And so on, but the way it unfolds is yet to be told

I know that I should be brave
Even pretty can be seen by the blind
I know that I cannot wait
Until the day we finally learn how to find each other
Redefining open minds

And if you ask me
The feeling that I'm feeling is overjoyed
And it's golden, it goes to show then
The ending of this song should be left alone
And so on 'cause the way it unfolds is yet to be told

But i guess, the story has already been told. and so, this song shall not be left alonE. hMm..and the feeling? no more overjoyed nor overwhelming. its just disappointment and sadness.

sheeet

2009-12-02T23:56:00.001+08:00

sheeeEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

im not hurt im not hurt. im just disappOinted. and sad. tt's all.
bUt i will get over it sOOon. SOooOOooon.
*shoot herself*

MystiQ

clear now

2009-12-02T01:03:00.003+08:00

the water is clear nOw..
after confessiOns made..
revelations revealed. true enough, what twin said. it may follow a chain of events...

well, it all ended tdy. i woke up frm the beautifuL dream. it is beautiful... was beautiful.. WAS.

MystiQ

vday

2009-12-01T11:59:00.002+08:00

Ola! just a quick post here before i zoOoom off to campus!
well well, somehow.. somebody is up to something. and i feel the suspense ( quite bad!) but hey, i will maintain my cOoL and handle things wif care. hAhaa.

anyways, im uP for grabs on the next vdAy! errm, i mean, im avaiLable for dates! sOo aLL the single ladies! boOok me! hEhee. tO nOn single ladies, if ure sick wif ur same bf evry yr, u cAn boOk me tOo! LOL! :D

ooOooo kayy! i'll be back for updates again sOon sO just come back here for more of my crazy bits! hOpe my lovely readers stay gorgeous & handsOme & hOpefully YOU will have a gOod day! at least, hOpe soMeone will make ur day tOday! lOok afta urself well & adiOs! :D

MystiQ

newsongh

2009-11-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

Well, new sOngs up on the hOuse! :)
fell in lOve with bOth of these songs just after 1st time of listening to them. cOoL! :)
anyways.. exams coMing up in 2wks time! thAt means, muggg muggg muggging time! yAyness. LoL. im crAzy. bUt im a cOoL nErd. LOL. ok ok stOp it. *activates nerdy mode*

besides revision, there ar ppl who made me smile and conscious in campus. This good lOoking boy tt smiled and waved at me. well, we even taLked. made my heart jump up n dwn 100 times man! but the other one made me feel ackward n uneasy by his random glimpses & eye contacts wif me during the 2 hr lecture. i hOpe the next time i sign my attendance, he wont sEe it. brrrr. the girls are nicee and made fren wif PoV! he very funny and talkative and sometimes, try to be funny in tutorial classes. hAhaa. but he is very friendly. cooL stuff.

tt's all for now and tO those celebrating Raya Haji, hAppy hAppy celebrating n Korbaning! for those who doNt celebrate like myself, happy hOlidays! :)

MystiQ

i

2009-11-23T17:16:00.006+08:00

hMmm. i shudn haf done that. but i just wanna test. ok fine.
last wEek had been a usual week. just a normal one.. and tdy tOo. i just feel empty dis days. theres not much happenings. well, except the kAraoke outing which is really really fun n the day that the goOd looking boy talked to me, other than that, it's just plain bOring. and the movies showing in the cinema are just lame ones. oUh man, when boredoM just strikes!

on a brighter note, exams coming up very sOon! sO studying time again. *activating my NErDy mode* hEhee. i like studying. makes me feel smart. :)
in any case, i foUnd u new coMpanion. MiLo away, here coMes CappuCinO. My NeW coMpanion. :)

anyway, hMmm.. i know im single n im free tO flirt arOund. However, the pleasure of flirting n crushing is totally different frm liking someone. really, liking someone sincerely, frm deep bottom of ur heart. ouh man, i guess, i like someone already. and that' s gonna take me another yr to like any other person. again, i knw im single and im free to like anyone i want, it's my right. however again, it shudnt be this way. i shudnt like him. im not the oNe for him coz, i know, he is looking for other girls that is nOt like me. and it shall never be me. sO i must wake up frm this beautiful dream and i gotta seriously stOp myself now before it's too, too late... *sigh*

MystiQ

cold

2009-11-17T00:29:00.002+08:00

im havin coLd again. My feet are Cc-cold. my arms are cc-cold. and i keep sneezing. daaaaaaamn. wAt the hell is wROng wif me. im nOt this weak. i usually get sick only during exam period. not normal periOd such as this! gaaaaaaah. in any case, it's just coLd. wont die. at least, i duN haf fever n other symptOns of the pig flu. sO no wOrries. thank God. :)

besides that point, im feeling invisible. no. really, i feel invisible. it's like, nO one can see me. no one can see what im up to, no one can see what's happening to me. i doNt know if its a good thing or bad. hmm. i guess, im an invisible woman. :)

anyways, im talking craaap here. so ignore watever i typed above. BBbbbbbOrrrring.

MystiQ

my dream bf

2009-11-12T00:20:00.003+08:00

While i was in lecture tdy, lost my focus, and start to dOodle dOo. And IntROducing, THIS is, my dream bOyfriend, cOol hairstyle, nice shades, charming smiLe & some gOatie to go with. Sweeeetz. :)

MystiQ

sick sick

2009-11-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

siCk sick SiCk. epidemic seAson, Armyboy's dad said. daaaamn.

iM havin a real bad coLd man. tdy after lecture, was quite bad. bUt i endured until after afternoon tutorial, coz im a strong girL! yeAhz. but wicked witch! coz of my mad coLd, i missed the chance to talk to someone. and that someone was sitting right behind me! daaaamn. its not always tt we can haf such grp discussion and when the chance is here, i had to gif it upp. all thanks to the daaaamn coLd. urrrgh. but i think he can see that im sick. haahA. some ppl thot i cried. LoL. swollen eyes, red nose. cLown me. brrrrr.

by the way, twin, i didnt gO doc. the 'Doctor' who said im strOng girl is Doctor Shai. hEHee! *hides*. And Zilah bestfren, got ur sms. ur no. is really unique. retain it in watever means u cann yeAh. hEhee. i miss Ernie & Faley. :( hOpe we really really can hang out b4 2010. :( And to Raghini, special thanks for ur nice calls n sweet smses! appreciate them lots u know? i feel so cared for! hEhee. Zu & Za, another starbuCks soOn? dis time wif Fariz along :) and Za owes me my murdEr snapshots! sCreaaaaamo! and 06A2 gonna have gathering soon.. end of this month? well, im having xms. sO we shall see if im free yaw. :)

ANyways, i like pLayin the name game! Benny is sO funny! wOo! really matched his cOunternance huh the name. LoL. to add on, i received a special applause today in tutorial coz of my job well done. thAnks to all who supported me! i was losing my motivation...until today when that applause came along. it helps a little. Thank God. :)

MystiQ

syed

2009-11-10T00:13:00.003+08:00

And sOo!
i managed tO chg BluE mOnday to orAnge mOnday! yAy! ;D
And dearest Armyboy is proud of me. LoL.

my uni mates n my tutor kept laughin when i shouted out my answers. for no apparent reasOn, they were soo happy when i say out something. Ahahaaa. but its a good thing la coz if nt the tutOrial will be a boriang one. sO, im the class clown for tOday! hoHoHO!

Tutor: '' sO, we haf IntrOvert and ExtrovErt... ''
Shai: '' and..PervErt...''
Classmates: (all laUgh!) ''hAhahhaa!''
Shai: '' hEheh!''
Tutor: '' yes? why? ''
Shai: '' Nah nOthing.. *smiLe*''

LOLNess!

then met twin and hang ouT syEd. bEen suchhaa lOoong time since we sat there! hAhaa. had a good warming talk.. alot. until my throat crave for water again! hAhaa. missed her. thought its only a week since we last met. hOhoHO! kalah coUple! hEhee.

And tmr is a new dAy! smiLe! ur on candid camera!

MystiQ

hmmm

2009-11-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

hMm.. it seems like.. 1 by 1..are sinking into the deep ocean pAciFic. or mayb.. iNdiAn ocEan. LoL. gEogrAphy lesson. :)

oooo well. the shaking of the force that tickles , the proximity that creates the pheromones flying , the smiling wrinkle that deliver candy to the eyes, the hold that creates the pink blush sensation. LoL. LitErature lesson. :)

liku liku hidup kita yg penuh dgn halangan tidak dapat ditolak. tetapi, ada hikmah di sebalik setiap tragedi yg terjadi. juga, ade yg menunggu di hadapan untuk di cari sahaja. jadi, tabah dan sabar lah kita untuk jalani hidup kita ini. LoL. Malay language lesson. :)

and soO, u must be wondering, wats wif me and these lessons. LoL. i miss MiLLennia InStitute. thats why. HAhahaaa. siOw.

MystiQ

thE date

2009-11-05T13:55:00.002+08:00

1stly, i wouLd like to wish ERNIE & FALEY

HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY MY BABES!!

May Allah bless you both with peace & serenity, happiness & love! :D

And so, yesterday i had funn! note the double 'nn'. hAhaa. met up with my 2 best friends and Masli, my bestfriend's boyfriend! we had soOo much funn joking n teasing n well, crapping as usual. and Masli is indeed funny n amiable. we celebrated Nikki's belated birthday and me n zilah ganged up with Masli to surprise Nikki! And indeed, it works! hAhaa. Nikki soo cutely blurrrr. LOL. hoPe u love the chEesecake & the card n the gift! *hugs!* :D

After that, i went to meet my closefriend, the armyboy. hAhaa. we had a good dinner n a good time. Miss Conqueror joined in for dinner ( aLamaaak..dekni...ade je nak conquer 1st date akuu!) hAhaahAa! bUt i was surprised that Fara n my closefriend can get along well, i mean, can like talk n stuff. sOo, not bad for a start. after dinner, we went on to take on some games n rides.. i shall not tell u where we went, hAHaha. but it was spontaneous and it was worth it. we got 1 free ride in which we were soo happy about. LOL. after the activities, we decided to chill and grab some frappe at mccAfe. and then, we shared some story... blablabla.. and tick tock tick tock, its already 10 plus. sO we decided to head home coz soMeone gotta report to work the next day while i can sleeeep peacefully in the rainy weather! hAhaa. eviL me. and before we departed, we took some pics at which we both agreed that we look tired. LOL. And sO, maybe next time, he will bring his camera along n we snaps some shots before the end of the day. so we dont loook tired. :D

After that, reach home, showered (whoa..nice hot & cold shower) then watched ' the mOmEnt of truth' alone on the couch. hAhaa. evryone else was sleeping. then i listened to Mystery 12 at ria, but it was boring. sO i turned it off & go to slEep. LoL. was a nice slEep after soo long of disturbing slEeps. And today, gonna play badminton wif the new mates! but its raining, soO gonna wait for awhile n then go out to join them at wdlnd stAdium! yeeEhaa. :)

And i hope, tdy n tmr n da days coming up will be a better day for me, for you, for all of us.. :D

MystiQ

TAFSIR MIMPI

2009-11-03T13:05:00.002+08:00

hEyy everyone.. it has been a very tough 2 weeks for me. been caught up with endless projects, essay and tutoril assigments, online quiz.. really draining me oUt. feel nausea n head felt heavy for few days already. last fri night had a suddent fever in which i was bed ridden for half a day. but now, no more fever and havin a term break now, so can at least take a breather like finally. however, my head still spins n im losing my appetite due to my nausea for the past days up till now. im ailing and this is too much really.

to add on, have not been havin a good sleep. been havin weird dreams evryday or so.
1. few days back, i dreamt of my one of my upper teeth being soo painful and then plucked out by itself.
2. last night, dreamt of the dooms day, saw some disaster coming my way frm my home window.
3. on the same night last night too, dreamt of being stuck in the train, with sOo many snakes around the train everywhere, and then suddenly i fall flat on my chest and one heavy snake lie on top of the lower part of my back.

gOogled 'Tafsir mimpi' on the net, and got some interpretations of my dreams. some sounds good while mostly, sounds disturbing.
here are some possible interpretations of my 3 dreams in bahasa indoneSia:

ULAR (http://www.kamusmimpi.com/page137202453.aspx)
- bermimpi melihat ular tetapi anda merasa takut karena binatang itu memandangnya artinya anda akan dicekam ketakutan
- bermimpi melihat ular berlari mendekati artinya anda sedang dicintai atau dirindukan orang lain secara diam-diam
- bermimpi melihat ular dalam jumlah banyak dan bermacam-macam artinya anda akan mendapatkan kebahagiaan
Other sources
-Jika bermimpi melihat ular yang banyak, maka pertanda akan mendapatkan kebahagiaan yang tak terduga.
-Jika bermimpi dikejar ular, maka pertanda ada seseorang yang mencintai Anda.
Other sources
-Jika anda seorang jejaka atau seorang gadis bermimpi melihat ular, bermakna akan segera mendapat pasangan atau jodoh.
- Melihat ular berwarna-warni, bersirat kebahagiaan segera terbayang pada anda. Mimpi melihat ular yang banyak sekali, bermakna akan panjang umur.
-Mimpi dikelilingi banyak ular, bermakna firasat akan banyak orang yang memusuhi anda.

GiGi (http://www.kamusmimpi.com/page137202453.aspx
-bermimpi ada salah satu gigi yang copot merupakan firasat buruk, mung salah satu keluarga atau famili anda ada yang meninggal dunia;
- bermimpi sakit gigi dan menangis karena kesakitan, artinya bahwa anda akan mendapat rintangan dan kesulitan hidup;
- bermimpi gigi taring tanggal, artinya bahwa kepala rumah tangga di dalam rumah anda ada yang meninggal dunia

http://www.kamusmimpi.com/page13711459.aspx
Kiamat
- bermimpi melihat hari kiamat telah tiba, berarti tempat yang terjadi dalam mimpi itu ditegakkan kedadilan. jika tempat terjadinya kiamat dalam mimpi itu terdapat orang-orang jahat, maka Tuhan akan memberi peringatan (adzab) bagi mereka. sebab hari kiamat adalah putusan pengadilan; 2) bermimpi merasa berada di pengadilan Allah, maka berarti anda akan melakukan urusan yang berat dan merupakan mimpi yang paling tepat.

well, now i feel confused. why soo many dreams, in this short time and my health is ailing as well? is there any link to all this or is it pure coincidence? and i miss my friends real bad. i better meet up with my friends soOn. and i better treat evryone in my family better now b4 its too late. im pretty worried abt any association of my nightmares with the ppl around me that i love & treasure the most. scary entry, i know. :(

MystiQ

OLa!

2009-10-22T01:40:00.003+08:00

oLa!
sOooooooooo my buSy dAys are ovEr! yAy! well, for now la. hAHaa. in any case, i hadnt get a good sleep since last week. sO this week im gona sleep early everyday! (yeAh right. look at the time of this entry.) LOL.

So whats next? Lets sEe...
=Accounts tutorial & online quiz due on this Fri
-Stats Revision
-IrhR Essay next next Mon
- Individual Account project on nxt Fri
- FInal WR submission on Wk 12

HahAaa. crAzy? yeAh totaLLy. :) And tick tOck tick tOck, i didnt know that there is 1 wEek study break coming up soOn until all my frens told me and they were like,
'' Ouh i cAnt wAit for the 1 wEek holiday!''
Me: '' err.. holiday? 1 weEk? when?
Them:'' *all shocked fAces* whAt? u mean u didnt know theres a holiday coming up?? wE are all lOoking forwArd to it and u didnt know abt it??it's in 3 wks times! only left 2 wks for sch!''
Me: '' Really?? oh my gOd. i reAlly didnt know!
Them: * lOok at Shaikah wif a horror shocking face *
Me: '' Ok okayy! iM a NErd ok?? i didnt look at the schedule much. brrrr. ''

hAHaa! sO tHAt's it! Blur Me. LOL! ppl anticipating holiday while i didnt even know one is coming up.

ANd today i received another surprise. hAHaa. There is this boy who works at LjS ccK. i aLways order frm him and he is very polite n smiley. And sO my surprise, this aftenoon, my frens wanted to eat Long jOhn for lunch sOo i dragged my feet there at tiong bAhru LjohnSilv. then that Familiar face greeted me and i was like..... isnt he????? sO i happily oredered frm him.

Him: *smile* 'hi mam can i haf ur order?'
Me: '' hi, urm, give me that cheese chips..bla bla blac...'
Him: ''ok total is $$$' * paid him and he prepares my food.*
Me:'' urm, u ar frm ccK brAnch right?''
Him: *smile* '' yeah... haf to come here.... ''
Me: '' ouh.. coz not enuff ppl here isit?''
Him: '' yeah... but only for today la... coz later haf to go back to cck...in the afternoon.. hahaa.. *smiles*
Me: '' ouhh.. okayy.. hahaa. ''

sOo.. it was a weird but interesting conversation and imust it was a nice surprise and it made my day! coz, the whole day tdy i was feeling slEepy. hAHaa. Thanks boy! ( i dont know his name.) :D And to add on, My younger sister made me proud as she hAd scored excellently in her final yr geoG pAper! (which i tutored) hhEe! Smart girl! im vEry proud of you babysister! :)

Misses:
And i miss Ernie & Faley alOt!
Followed by Fara.
Annd i bumpd into Zilah tdy in the bus 300 going home. hEhee. :)
And tO Shobana: apologies, cudnt go to ur place for DeepavaLi celebration! but i reAlly reAlly thAnk ya for the invitation! thAnks! ( can i haf some laddu & muruku pls pls pls?? hEHee)
And to Raghini: thAnk u soO much girL for the tag! hEhee. dOnt worry, im coPing & surviving well here.. dont get stressed by my craps here yaw.. hehEe. chEers to you! :D

chEers to everyone! words of wisdom by Shaikah N: '' Happy days cant be everyday, coz if it is everyday, then it is not a life. Life is defined by mundane routine as well as surprises and changes or alterations and adjustments of our actions. U cAn choose tO be hAppy or sAd. However, the amount of the workloAd is the same everyday. sO, why not choose to be happy? hAHa! Shaikah being OPTIMISTIC here.. ZU! sEE this ok! iM being an OPtimist! LOL. :D
till here dearest readers, *huggies!*

MystiQ

taLked tO Andre!

2009-10-15T18:08:00.002+08:00

phEw! This week has been hectic. hAd Economics test yesterday and STatistic teSt tOday just a few hrs agO. And im gOnna aNNounce this tO the whOle world man, ''STAtS is my biggEst ENEMY for nOW!!'' craaaaap. *sigh*

On a brighter note, i talked tO him today.. for the 1st time ever.. hAhaa!
Me: '' hEy, how was the test?''
Him: '' heyy.. so -So... hAhaa!''
Me: '' it is CRAP right? hAha.''
Him: '' yeAh.. hAhaaa!''
Me: '' *smiles* ok,ayy,, byebye..''
HiM: ''*smiles* byebyee..''
And we parted, he wif his clique, im wif mine. :)

On the grey area,
- IrhR essay 2 plan due on Monday
-Econs Assignment due on Monday
-StAts grp presentation and 1st written report on Tuesday
- AccoUnts iNdividual projEct on Friday

And sO, my wEekend gonna be burned to ashes. LoL! bEsides that, on sAturday morning, gonna practice siLat with Marini for our 1 day coaching at Zhenghua Pri at the end of this month! phEw phew! busy busy time!

Special thanks tO:
ERNIE & FALEY for the very encOuraging words at my tagboard! Now i know that im not alone facing this kinda sheeets. U both had it worse and yet, u both manage to survive! *salutes* u both will be my living example of a survivor! hOhoHO!
Also tO FARA for the kind advises and always cheering me up till i cant stOp laughing abt our in-jokes! hEhee! And to TWiN, hopE ure dOin oKayy there :)

And sO, tdy Zilah wentto interview at tiOng and thot i didnt have lesson when i actually exceptionally haf lecture today! n sO we didnt get tO mit, :( but nvrmind cOz we ar meeting sOOon! :) till hEre, i'll update again soOn! :D

MystiQ

daMn

2009-10-08T00:25:00.003+08:00

dAMn. iM nOt hAppy since last weEk. things kEep on hAppening as days passed. im lOsing my grip on things. its irritating bUT i cANt controL it. evErynight, i will sit on my bed n stare into space for i doNt know hw loNg. tHinking of stUpeed things. its reAlly tiring. And ive nOt bEen productive in sCh. tOld ya thAt i cANt foCuz. evrything just distract me. or is it me distracting myself? i doNt kNow. In anycase, jus wanna post my complaints here.

i usEd to think that laptOps are just for display and it is more of a hassle to carry it arnd n stuff like that. i used to think tt it is nOt any gOod an iNvestment. However, nOw, right nOw, i cAn safely say thAt I NEED A LAPTOP. iNdeed, it is a neccessity for mE. I nEEd one tO assist me in sch stuff. i reAlly cAnt rely on my half dEad pC and the crOwd in the lib waiting to use the coMp. its reAlly freAking piss me oUt. 2ndly, i nEed a wAtch. sAw this one wAtch at bUgis junction, cost arnd 30bucks and i kinda like it. But again, nO means to purchase it. And i just bOught myself a shOe to sustain me for now coz my favourite shoe has worn out real bad. yeAhz, i only haf 1 pair of shOe for walking arnd n for sch. i nEed another shoe, watch, laptop & money for transport. like reAlly reAlly. i just feel sOo pOor. nO NO, im nt asking anyone to sympathise wif me, i just wanna share my agOny of bEing pOor. it sucks all the time when u cant get the things u need. And the pressure of weAring brAnded gOods is still oN toP of my head. cant get rid of it. ppl arnd me ar all rich or shall i say cAn afford to buy the necessities they need. good for u all. bAd for me.
And i guess, making new friEnds everyday is nt a gOod idea. but i dun wana appear stUck up. it's hard to adApt. bUt i will try.

Besides that, my twin's revelation is coming up soOn. I will just pray for the best for her. As for my confrOntation, i guess, i wil haf to put it off first. Not now. Having tests soon and i dun wann distractions. Howver, i must admit, i feel the cringe EVERYDAY. To do wat im suppose to do and coNfroNt it all. but, its not the time yet. yUpp.

MystiQ

BISING!

2009-09-30T21:33:00.003+08:00

EH BISING UH!!!
seriOusly man, i reAlly cAnt study at hoMe! AGAIN! it's reAlly bLoody nOisy sia! just like during my a levels, i hAd tO stay in sch to study, nOw i hAf to stay out more oftentO study oUtside. bUT thE freAking problem is that, my sCh assignments test & quizzez are all ONLiNE!! this mEans that disgustingly, i nEed a coMputer for me tO work on thOse papers. and i cAnt bE stUDying in my campus's complab till night right? and thE freAking crowd in the librAry is aLso anOthEr nuisance that made me wanna pukE! FREAKING IRRIrtAnting siaaaaaaaaaa!

iM reAlly reALLy pissed right nOw. i wAnna stay in hOstel. BYe.

MystiQ

FARKED UP DAy

2009-09-30T18:27:00.004+08:00

FARKED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tdy is a very stUpid dAy! shit! while i was in lecture, this girl come n sit nxt to me and then fine. i thot its ok. bUt hell, truoUt the lecture she was being very irritating. She disturb me and diostract me frm listenin to lecture. i was really mad at her that i chg my tone n expression tO being a serious one and nO giggling n such coz there is a limit dUde. If u wanna play, can play, but afta lecture la! doNt disturb me like stupid shit la!

Then the blardy toot kips commenting on watever i eat. My like la i want to eat this or that! i fat already i can eat whatever Fats i want! stOp being particular abt this and that la! blardy S! u bLoody lOok like soMe bloody anorexic shit. stOp being irritating get it?? And then i went to campus lib tO studyafter tutorial classes but i just feel sO dejected. And sO i asked ppl out tO eat but evryone is just sO sicK. and sO i went to buy whatever i feel like having n brought those snacks home. I reached hm, cleanse myself, cudnt find a decent nailclipper. likE fARrrrrrrK! it was always there when i dont need them but now tt i need one, there isnt any in sight. Disgusting! And thEn i carried my bubblteadrink to the computer table to drink while surf. BUT, bLOody fArked up, the drink fall by itself slipping off my hand and burst on the floor. luckily it was in the plastic and sO, i hAd tO blOody wipe the floor and drink my bubbltea frm the plastic. How pAthetic is that!

Like hell. im reAlly nOt i a good mood today. onLy during the 1st hr of my lecture in the morning that i feel like i have make a good use of my day. And the new guy that made fren with me is a good companion for that 2 hr lecture coz besides havin to deal with the irritating girl, he was there tO pay attention to the lecturer wif me and compete with me on the correct answers to the quizzes. that is what i call a university student. and the lunch i had was nice. bUt other than these 2 things, i really hate my day today. bLoody ShiT! stupid drink, stuPid nailclipper, irritating ppL. And i hAd a test coming up oN friday and i feel really worried. cOz i doNt kNow the answers and i dontknow if im styduing the right way. and the fAct tht shits hAppened, i am reAlly nOt in any studious moOd. FarKep up post. And thE asswhOles tuTOr cAn gO and die. stupid zoMbie. hAlf dead and hAlf senile. might as well go die right? bLArdy shit! and disgustingly, i need mONEy. i nEed lOts of thEm. i nEed 2 new pairs of shOe coz my shOe is wOrn oUT like hell. aNd i nEed tO buy a watch coz i dont haf a watch sadly. And i wAnt a lAptop with the wireless modem attached cOz i feel that i can study & revise bEtter that way instEAd of just depending oN the pC and the sch lab. yes. i doNt haf laptOp coz im a pOor bLoke. buT thE blardy fact is that i cAnt buy any coZ i doNt hAf mOney! And hAving a mOther fEels like having nO mothEr. miGht as well i treAt it as shes deAd right? i juSt wished that im rich and haf the means tO purchase all these necessities. YEs. its not a luxury in the present era, those things are a nEcEssity. and the stuPid woMan who was in the retaiL storE is bloody stUpid. i wAs lOokin tru some clothes and then this asswhOle keep looking at the same section tt i was at and grabbing the pieces of clothes that i was lOoking at. bLOody Shit! fArkep up larrr!!

MystiQ

Phew

2009-09-26T15:30:00.003+08:00

Phew! thE essAy is doNe! and sOo.. it has been 4 wEeks of sCh. thAt is equivalent to 1 month in Uni! well, things has been gOin on smOoth, adapting well in the new environment, great bunch of new ppL i met and lecturers & tutors are nice. Alhamdulillah. :) despite my bad cough for 3 wks, i managed to do my assignments well and pay attention in classes. i really Thank God for watchuing over me in the new campus. :D

However, there ar some things tt bothers me eversince the anticipation of Hari rAya and nOw, post hari raya. I cAnt hekp thinking abt my misery. sTupid things happened like ppl giving me pathetic peanuts for rAya collection ( i doNt cAre if its anyone else coz i dont even hope to get any hongbAo frm the visits as my purpose to eat the raya coOkies they make! hEhe) bUt, it is frm someone that ....... fine, i shall say no more. i doNt wAnt to be mistaken as being petty. alsO, im beginning to detect someone copying me! cOpying the way i react, the way i speak, the kind of language i use.. Urggh. haf some sense of originality will u?? In anycase, the trAinrides in the morning especially yesterday's was such an irritating ride. ppl acting disgustingly, being stupid here n there. Why cAnt u just obey the etiquettes of a trainride? evryone's life will be a better one then! duMbos!

In addition, i doNt know why my neW friends are sO bothered abt me nt having attached. They were surprised when i answered to them ' no, i doNt haf any bOyfriend now. nOt anytime sOon.' I mean, isnt that a norm? hAhaa. maybe, my face spells oUt ' i shOud be attached'. LOL. In any case, i doNt need 1 or 2 right now.

The reason?
Coz 1. I can manage my life on my own, without any 1 'special' person around. ( except for my woNderfuLbabes who keep me going! u know who u are!)

2. Boyfriend/Girlfriend adds tO ur burden. reAlly. i hAve eNuff probLems as it is & judging frm my babe's rship wif their boys, i can see that the guys nowadays expect tOo much frm the girls. i hAte expectations & commitment in things i dO. i prefer to be independent and i am used to make my life decisions by myself withOut anyone's influence to hinder me or such. i doNt like ppl telling me wat to dO or expect me to dO things i doNt agree with. ( and im speaking frm personal experiences yaw. hAhaa.)

3. I think that the boys in sIngApOre are very much hopeless. ( no offense to anyone). They are all sOo skinny ( they looked anorexic, yes.) and their brains are stucked in their S.( they give baseless opinions and expect credits for that. How duMb is that!) Plus, they are very disrespectful towards the female population. And the ideal reAl mAn species are very very rare in the current context. Hence, u tell me, hOw to depent on anyone like that? Might as well i depend on myself coz i know i can do things way better than those so called 'dominant' homosapiens!

And sO, im better left alone anyway. at least, there is nObody to irritate me and annoy me and i can enjoy my life freely without feeling any 1 person dangling on me all the time even when they ar nt there. hAhahaa!

hOhohO! Merry chrismas! (k, random.)

MystiQ

broken promise

2009-09-21T16:59:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA 2009!
Eid MubaRak 20O9 to aLL!

And sO, i've broken my promise to ipdate before raya. gRrRrRrr! *kNocks forehead 100 times against the walls and the doors, the windows, the floor* Apologies to my faithful readers! well, buSy prepAratIon of rAya & aLso studies. My first UnivErsity essay to be submitted on 210909 and of course, there is alot of research and information inquiring need to be done of how the essay is to be written and formatted. *sigh* plus, there was a last minute grp projectwork meeting held on last saturday that made me n my grp members headache coz the instructions n questions were sOoo dumb that whoever crafted them deserves a 1000 knocks on the head by me and my other 3 teammates. So now u know what i've vbeen up tO yeAh?? hEhee. well, i've not completed the essay that is due tdy. shheeeeeet. i bEtter gO finish it up nOw! and oh, the 'period' period is here. geeeeesh. having that excruciating moment of the contraction of the walls and the red substance aligning it. aaarrhh! sOo painfuL! ok oK, i gOtta rush! adiOs amigos!

To my bAbes!: *HUGS* tO yOu whO reads this! :D
-MystiQ-

LALALALa

2009-08-25T01:53:00.004+08:00

Nowadays, i feel emOtiOnless. Like feelingless. U knOw? u doNt kNow. hAhaa. NevErmind la.
In any case, my oRientatiOn coMing up on wEds! yEAhh! i cAnt wAIt tO start scHOOL! hAHaa! my sistEr whO is in secondary sch and the other kids on the block whO are stiLL schOoLin might think thAt iM thE duMbest persOn on eArth as i cUd actually anNOunce my iMpatience tO start schOOl bUt hEy, u doNt kNow hOw i t fEels like hAvin tO sLACK FULL TIME for 6 mOnths fLat! LOL.

Besides that upDate, i haf nOthing much tO update.. well except if u wUd like tO reAd my complaints, i tell u i haf thAt crAaap aLot! LOLOL! But i guess,bEtter nOt. Hmm.. coz im trying tO learn tO be OptiMistic. hAhaaa!! ME?? OPTImistIC?? ok, laUgh everyone! hAHAaa. Well, just now in MUkEBuKu, i saw variety of emotions displayed. soMe ar sad, angry, remorseful, think positive, complainin. aLL sOrts of fEelings. and then, i decided tO change my spOngebOb mOod tO '' beAchy ''. LoL. nO link. okAy. im bEin random coz im emOtionless and that means i am feelingless and it feels like nothing and tOtally blank as there is no expressions that needs to be expressed at the moment and the fact that u are still reading this long sentence shows that u are as feelingless & emotionless and in other words being bored to deAth and that u just fEels like u want to stOp reAding this long sentence by finding the full stOp sign but coz u cant see any dot yet and now u are starting to get irritated and before u get all furious with this meaningless sentence then i think i shall stOp it here and let u click on other peOple's blog as their posts are more interesting & meaningful to read and now ur still trying ur best tO tolerate my nonsense and trying hard to find that stewpit full stOp and i can imagine u are breathing hard and gasping for air as u had to unwillingly read this sentence continuously without any pauses as there is no comas and now ur face is turning red while ur ears are emitting hot gas that comes frm ur bOiling blood and damn it u still cant find that blardy full stOp and now u feel like kiLLing Shai for writing craaaaps but u just cant coz Shai is sOo nice & crazy that u cant find someone like her exactly no matter how far u search and i feel that i better end it here before u start cursing me like hell full stOp.

hEeehAaahAahahahhahahahaahahahahah!! u're PUNKED! :P :P :P

इ मिस उर स्मिले मर स :)

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How ppl stay happy?

2009-08-14T02:14:00.001+08:00

Im wondering. How can a persOn be happy & stay chEerfuL all the time? like, 24/7? I mean, i know some peOple who ar like CHEERFUL and HAPPY GO LUCKY type of persOn. They can actually portray that Optimism wherever they gO. In classroOm, during lessOns, during breaks, even while stUdying in the library, outside of sch & at hOme. It's like wherever they are, they feel happy. it's crAaaap isnt it? I believe that this kinda persOn is faking it big time. How can anyone on eArth stay hAppy tt way everytime & everywhere? bUllfaeces iSnt it?

Well, i just... im nt really mad anyone in particular. it's jjust that, i dOnt get it. How ppl manage tO stay optimistic all the time while for me, im always Moody & tEmperamental & pessismistic & furiOus & revEngeful & depressed & rebelliOus and sHits like that. It's reAlly reAlly tiring u knoW, tO be labelled as such & experience that kinda lyfe EVERYDAY. sO tell mE, hOw can i enrol in anger management courses? or maybe soMe incuLcating ''oPtismic perspective in evrything u do'' kinda courses? I need some REAL resurrectiOn. have u heard of im sick of being sick of something that is sickly sick? if yeahz, then gOod, lemme know where u heard tt frm & i wana befriend tht persOn. If nO, then sad for you & its sadder for me cOz nObody experience the same siCk shIt thAt i am experiencing. *sigh* and did i mentiOn i've been getting WEIRD dreams these days?

In any case, something good & bad happened today. the gOod thing is, gOtta know a boy who shares similar interest with me on facebOok. well, nO no, not some random boy of coUrse not. It's someone whom i haf met before, chit chat abit, did a demo of fighting moves together, and my friend's friend. :) on thE other hand, the bad thing is that, a close friend of mine, somehow, after a few weeks of nOt contactin, has become a stranger tO me. I mean, i feel likE we ar strangers. i dont kNow wat to say tO that persOn & i am uncertain abt our friendship status now.

Misses!
My misses tO LumiNorianz! ( in which tMr will b havin a mini gathering! )
My misses tO Dearest Ernie & Faley! ( in which im desperate tO meet up with! )
My misses tO Zu & Zilah & Nikki! ( in which i guess we ar gOnna mit up soOn!)

To my silent readers, thAnk u sOo much fOr bOthering tO read my crAps in bubbletea-freako.blogspot.com!

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GETawayyyy

2009-08-08T22:03:00.003+08:00

Im sOooo sick. NO, not that weak sickly sick. It's that SICK of bEing SICk oF soMething tt bOthers.

Dearest Ernie is aWay on a shOrt getaway to the resOrt. Hope yOu enjoy urself as mUch as u cann & hopefully there's some pics foe me tO kayPo on! :P And the LuminOr friends ar all busy wOrking their ass off. hAhaa. In fact, mOney matters. hMmmm.

And sO, i wAtched a mOvie few days ago at the cinema.. Alone. yeAh, some might say this is weiRd. But, i must sAy, it was a good ExpErience! Enjoyed the whOle poPcOrn with CarameL Fraappe all by myself and of couz, the mOvie was greAt tOo. In case u're wOndering wat movie i caught, it was HarrYPottEr & the 1/2 bLood pRiNce.

My younger sister was right, the mOvie was awesome! i dOnt get why the reviews ar bad. I guess, tHose who actually gave the thumbs dOwn reviEw were those whO ar duMb and only goot at seeing actions. Come on, the i must say it has less actions bcoz there ar no 'casting of spells' lessons gOin on in this seasOn's HarryPottEr bUt hEy, if u watch & listen tO the mOvie attentively, then u will realise that they are dOin soMe INVESTIGATIVE wOrk on the siLEnt. And thAt is soMEthing NEW! And thE BGR pArt was really funny bUt nicee! Come on, they ar grOwing up, BGR is inevitaBle. And i doNt get why SOME review-ers state that the BGR part was redUndant & stUff like that. And some others actually criticised hAving the love relationships scenes included in HarryPotter Movie. These ppL must be bLind & again dUMb for some reasOn that they didnt kNow the lOve part was related tO the whole stOry! iT has connection & related tO the lOve pOtiOn! And thAt lOve pOtion was introduced as a nEw lessON in the Hogwards sch of magic! Everything is linked! DuMbass. only gOod at making unconstrUctive & duMb comments likE that without any appreciation of the stOryline & situAtion. Might as well, doNt wAtch the movie! foOoLs.

AnywAys, iM off!

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bbad

2009-08-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

Bad bad bad.
Everything is in a disorder. A big mess.

My mind is goin berserk. cant run anywhere. stucked. in a worLd full of drAmas. full of hatred. full of vengeance. everyone asked me to be more optimistic. but how cOuld i be when dark memories keep on coming back, sad & hurtful events haunting me time & again? sHitS like this.

iM nOt gOnna smile anymore. im returning back to my world. the world i once lived in. yeAhz, THAT world. the dark one. yeah.

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PUKING

2009-08-02T03:54:00.000+08:00

i fEel like PUKING! i saw soMe diSGUSTing fACEs & i ReAlly fEEL likE pUKING! BLOOOOOD!

i nEed a breATher. iM sOo stuFFed up right nOw. YeS. i aM emOtiOnally distraught,mentally deranged, physically pumped, psychologically demented. FArkEd uP!

I wish murDering is legaL. I WISH!

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isLam

2009-07-29T00:05:00.003+08:00

Hi tO aLL!

Im fEeling abit sickly tOdayy. snEezing the whole day. and as usual, the heArt stARts making its presence kNown too. Dont kNow why. Didnt i tOok good care of myseLf? hAHaa! frEt nOt, it's nt the pig flU. hOhO :O

Anyways, i just foUnd oUt thAt quite a big nO. of huMan bEings listening tO RiA's MystEry tales! bUt moSt of em i know, is as usuaL, scAred. hEehe :P pEople, it takes tiMe tO gEt numbed with thE nOnsense soUnd effects n the dj's nOnsensical voice. :P if u ask me, evErynight w/o faiL, i lOok forward tO 12 am and thEn sWitch ON my rAdiO! GiLa? i kNow. (cAnt bE heLped! iM addiCted!) :D

Besides thE crAps abOve, i wAnna tOuch on a seriOus issue Now. I feel thAt, i wanna learn more about IsLam. The sTories of PropHet MuhaMMad and his 'bRothErs' (Sahabats) hAs cAptivated me in someway that it has cAptured my attentiOn for the past few days. Indeed, i am a muslim. However, my knOwledge is stiL as shallow as the water accumulating on the pathway. And someone said this, people see Islam nOt from what is written in the books only BUT, they see Islam thru the MusLiMs. Hence, we represent our religion. As such, this is applicable to ALL religions. If u carry a religion, good fOr yOu. But do mAke sure that u dO abide by the laws & principles of ur religiOn accordingly fOr whAt u dO, shOws to the othEr humanbeings what ur religion is abt and how it is being carried out. HopE i make some sensE here. :)

Okayy! tiLL hEre, kEeping myselF saNe! :)

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SOCCER RECRUITS

2009-07-20T03:07:00.002+08:00

WE ARE RECRUITING!
YeAhz! An all-girLs teAm fuLL of passiOn for strEetsOccer.
Training Days: Every Saturday
Time: 4pm -6pm OR 5pm - 7pm
Official Coach: Coach F
If yOu are intErested, give us a shOut at our official bLog http://dx21islove.blogspot.com/ OR just leave a tAg at my tAGbOard!

aNyways,
SOccEr on 18th juLy was a BLAsT!! hAd tOtaL fUnn! hAhaa. Tseala was distracted by the 'the white guy digging graves' while Faley was filled with full admiration for 'JO'! hEhEh! FeLey, Dont be envious, Starz & Tseala was just tAckling JO, nOthing mOre than that. :D But JO was polite thou... when i slapped his arms, he said sOrry to me. I was the one who banged him u kNow? hAHaa! Anyways, We chAnged our teAm nAme! I hOpe RaphaeLite / MiCaSa will bE as gOod as Dx21! Love the soccababes much!

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sigh HS married

2009-07-20T01:29:00.006+08:00

And sO, HasSan Sunny (HS) is married. sigh.. hOpe u haf a blissfuL marriage. Aidah is lucky to haf you, a kind friEndly good looking souL..

Anyways, bEen spendin time with my dEar Nirwani aka Ms N*RDy. hAhaa. actually, we accOmpany each other in 2 separate ways. She accOmpany me settle my sch stUffs while i accOmpany her go shOppin!

NirWani with her yummyliciOus bRownie!

And tO add on, i saw my yr 1 crUsh at mariNa sQ twice while hanging arnd there wif my deAr Nir! hAhaa. And he recognised me! I look at him, he lOoked at me, hE smiled slowly.. and then wideLy! and i waved him as we walked past each other.. sOo cute! Then we met again at McCaFe, this time, his gf (yeAhz, he was wif his gf) saw me and smiled. hAhaa. she doNt kNow me but i think she saw me before la coz she was in the same institutiOn as him & me.. kinda familiar faces. :D He lOok dashing! though a lil decent...gOod good bOy.. hEehe! Anyways, lEts just drOp it. He is my ex-crush now. Like, 3 yrs agO? hAha!

And not fOrgetting, i wAnna thAnk thAt girl in puRple for bringing me tO places tt i cAn get good deaLs in! i lOve thAt bAggg & evrytime i use it, i wil feel happy & it all thAnks tO yOu Miss Tipah, i meAn, Miss Falihin! Lovvee yaaa! :D

ShaiBroWnie & FalihinPuRpLey! :D

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memoryLane

2009-07-17T13:31:00.003+08:00

TitLe: TOday, I walked dOwn the Memory Lane..Alone..

Haaaa!

I waLked down the memory lane a week agO... as sOo many BEAUTIFUL memories flash tru mymind. It was those beAutifuL, fUn, jOyous mOments tt I shared wif my lOvely lovable fRiendz that i reminisced. :D

This hall re-lived the most fittest period of my life! ( And iM sure to my other cCamates, they hAf their most sweAts here tOo. Remember night trAinings?) Was fUun & fitt! :D

Auntie BubbLeTEa! yeAhz, she's remembered me. And she asked:

Auntie: '' eh, why u not in uniform? ''

Me: ''Auntie, i fiNish school already..! hAha! ''

Auntie: '' oUhh.. eh, then why u here? ''

Me: '' i come all the way here just for aUntie's bubbletea la! hAa! ''

Auntie: '' awww..waah.. *addsmorechOcolatePowder!*

And this is the Auntie's bubbletEa BEST OREoChOcOLatE.iCebLended im taLking abOut! :D

VoiLa! and i mAde my way home satisfied & hAppily eva afta! :D :D :D

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4cs

2009-07-16T13:16:00.002+08:00

Let's taLk about my dream prince.

He must pOssess the 4 Cs. What ar those 4 Cs? Here it gOes!

He mUst bE as CooL as ChAnning TatUm, as Charming as DaNny GokEy, as Creative as KriS AlleN & as Charismatic as MichaeL BubLe. :D :D :D

There it gOesss... hAhaa! :)

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dead broke

2009-07-15T02:44:00.002+08:00

iM dEAd bROkE nOw!

aNd iM nOt fEeling gOod eithEr!

aNd dArk mEmories kept fLashing on my mind like nObody's bUsiness!

Resurrect me, soMebody, anyBody. Please... :(

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JuLy Bdays

2009-07-08T02:03:00.002+08:00

It's juLy!
Lets sEeee...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO!!!

My bAbe aka Lady of Conqueror, NoR FaRa! - 4th JuLy

Maman RidzMan! - 25th JuLy

KakAk Queen aka ShAiKaH Kh. - 27th JuLy!

And To my fAv siNgapore gK, HasSan SuNny, HAve a bLissfuLL mArriage! - 18th JuLy!

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dilemma solved

2009-07-06T13:38:00.001+08:00

yEAhhzza! FiNaLLY...

DILEMMA SOLVED!

:) :)

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BIG DILEMMA

2009-06-30T00:18:00.005+08:00

iM iN a BIG DILEMMA!!!

AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!

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blogshOp

2009-06-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

hEllO!

DeAr reaDers, dO visit this blOgshOp fOr soMe beaUtifuL frEsh MaXi DresseS! Also there ar bags & beAch slippers! Not forgetting a woodEn sEt furniture (gO ask ur mOm!) up for grAbs at affOrdable prices! The bLog is my sistEr's bUt u can get back tO me tOo for any enquiries yaw. Go gO now! GO! :D :D :D

http://jomgipasarmalam.blogspot.com/

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twin and lady F

2009-06-24T23:43:00.002+08:00

hi!

wEnt window shOpping wif twin & meet lady F todAy for dinner! tWin lOoks sOoo good with that new eyeshadOw while lAdy F has bcome tougher than before! ( shE's a 1st cLass shOoter mind yOu!) hEez. nOw i miss the other 2 luminOrian girLs. :(

And well, regARding the guy whO only look at the lOoks ( the one i posted abt in previous entries), tht is just an expressiOn of my thOughts. sO, dont need tO take it so seriOusly. it dOEsnt haf anythink tO do with me anyway. But i dO feel sOrry for the girls whO are crAzy over hAndsOme guys, only tO bE criticised or looKed dWn upon by thAt vEry guy himself. GiRLs! Listen up, gOod lOoks nvr stAys. sO, his lOoks is just tempOrary & no use gEtting sOo crAzy over him. yeAhz! So, whAt ar u wAitin nOw? duMp all the hAndsoMe guys u kNow and gEtta know more decent ppL whose heArt is sincere & whom u can depend on to guide u in ur life! yeAhhhzzaaa! :P
To twin & Fara: correction, the guy DONT really like ppl wearing sLack bUt he likEs ppl weAring mAke up. sOrry i was a lil confused just noW when talking abt it. :)

ANd heyy, i just fEel like... *sigh* Ok, wHAtever it is, tMr im gOnna call up the thing and ask em abt my status and then, i can decide on my next step. i just feel a lil nervous at times coz i dont know if im doin the right thing & yet, i doNt wAnna haf any regret. *sigh* its reAlly hArd bEing ME. im vexed.

And well, expecting 2 dates this week. We'll see how it gOes. hMm.. but i guess, being MiSs ShAi Norulez, i will just cancel both dates. aNd nt gettin attach anytime soon. LoL.

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throat

2009-06-19T01:34:00.004+08:00

Hii!

My throAt hurts! ReAlly reAlly hurt. It feels like a needle poking at the side of my throAt. ouch! and its the 3rd day now. And plain water dont really help much. :(

hOHoHO! anyway, lastnight, i kinda haf a split second of happiness! LoL. Just felt uN-lonely for the 1st time. Ever. :)

And, i dOnt like it when this happens. And it happened. Again. hmm. This whole week, i just feel... like how i felt last time. All come at once. hMm. And dont tell me i hAd to be my evil self again. Thou its fUn to be da real ME, i dO feel a lil sympathetic. And i bumped into him at the mRt platform tOday. UnexpEctedly. Felt ackward a little. And he asked, '' sO wat ar u doin here?''. And i answered, '' Im waiting for..soMeone.'' And his face changed. and i just smiled. And his trAin came & we said byee. And this week itself, 2 of my old friends, well, nt tt old but both of them i knew for quite awhile now, asked me abt boyfriend. 1 of em asked: '' So.. u still haf a bf?'' while another asked: '' No bf meh?''. hAhaa. i lAugh when i reAd those qns. And yeAh, i told em simply, ''nOo, no bf.'' and ''im nOt a lesb but i dont like bOys''. hOhOHO :O ouh well, but i treAt both of them as my friEnds. yeAhz, u guys ar in my good Friends list. dont worry. :)

And i jus feel like letting someone know this. Dear *whOever*, i've rejected 2 boys & 1 girL only because of you. yeAhz, coz i WAS head over heels over yoU. bUt now, i dOnt know if it's worth hurting others coz of you. And since we ar on good terms & i've stOpped my childish moments, i feel thAt, i shoUld learn to stOp hurting others bt instead, accept them considerably. and yeAhz, tt's why im keeping my options open now. And having done that, maybe soon enuff, i will be with someone who cares for me for quite some time now. And i hope, im doin the right thing here. And again, i wanna ask yOu to do me this favour, please stOp makin me puzzled by using that term on me. Thank yOu.

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p/s:

Ernie, thAnks for updating us readers with the escalating no. of bAbi flu caseS in our national cty. hEehe :D
Faley, lEts dig in BJ since u reAlly want it. hoHohO! :O
Fara: i miss yOu. And i really do.
Zilah: hEe, 1st time jOgged wif ya! cant believe it! and then the morning jog was fun tOo. yeah, 7am jog on our bEd. LoL. :D
To Forknose, Sprinter Rag & Sporty Chick Ash: E.c.p probably on nxt wEekend yaw! :D

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hmmm..

2009-06-17T14:52:00.002+08:00

Hmmm..

Does lOoks matter?
AnswEr 1: Nooo larr! wAt matter the most is the heArt! :)

Answer 2: Of course! I got image u kNow? The more handsome/pretty partner i haf, the better. lOoks compatible wif me! :)

CRraaaaaappppp! The 1st answer is sOoo typical. of coUrse u wud say as such lar but when it comes to reality, certainly u will chOose that PrEtty sWeet lovEly girL over thAt Simple avErAge-lOokin gOod girL. What? ur saying NO? come on man, ask urseLf, whO wud u ask oUt for ur company's D & D? And which one of the 2 girls wud u take lotsa pictures with and pOst on ur online fOto aLbum? ANSWER THAT. and dOnt gif me buLL***T if u cAnt give me a gOod reasOn.

Anyway, i dOnt understAnd why u asked me to do thAt when it dOnt really meAn anything. iM over thAt childish periOd now. well, 'childish'. i cAn take in whatever u wAnna give me. Meaning, i will not get sOo affected now than then. So, just shOot.

And iM gEtting attach sOon. hAa!

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hAPpyBday

2009-06-16T15:04:00.003+08:00

10th JUNE 09:

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BFF NORAZILAH TAIB aka SARDINE!

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO MY CFF SITI NIRWANI NGAPANI aka Ms NERDY!

12th JUNE 2009:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DX BABE FIFI aka FeeFReAk!

15th JUNE 09:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FA FARIZ RIZ aka MATReP!

Hope u guys hAd a woNderfuL celebration this yeAr! May God bless ya'll wif gd heaLth & may lOve surroUnds ya'll forever! Love u guys! :D
P/s: View thE bdAy vidEos on the left cOlumn! ENJOY! :)

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meetup wif S adn dream

2009-06-07T20:43:00.003+08:00

And sOo.. had a nice night oUt with my buddy on fRi and went tO hauNted hOspital -thelivingDeAd on sAturday! had sUshi & sWensEn with my sistaz & broyankee! yUmmmyliciOus! Enjoyed my wEekend! yay! :)

Well soMehow, i feEl different tdy. i had a dreAm, a weird dream tt kinda open my eyes as a girL. its aboUt... a mixture of... revenge, responsibility as a girl, friEnds,family with oUtsiders, hP & communicatiOn, and an unexpected loVe with a bAd guy. itS reAlly weird & oUt of imaginatiOn. And when i woke up, i found myself saying, '' thAnk GOD, it was a dreAm. It was only a dreAm.'' *sigh* and it got me thinking, wat does it mean? all those scenarios in my dream, wat do they tryna imply? im stiL thinking....

And now, i feeel like pampering myself. with everything. yeAH, eVerything. hMmm...

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mOoodLess

2009-06-01T03:44:00.002+08:00

teLL mE iM speciaL even thOugh whEn i knOw iM nOt.

i hAd rEcentLy fEel very demOtivated & dOwn. fEels hOpeless & useLess. jUst, what aM i living fOr? and whAt aM i reAlly? i kNow, i dont dEserve a chArming prince cOz im nt a princess & my lyfE is nOt, nOt evEn any neAr tO a fairytaLe. i kNow, im nOt a genius kid whO can aCE all her academic subjEcts. aNd iM not boRn intO a rich cEo family. iN othEr woRds, iM just a plAin ugLy kid living in a destructive enviroNment wherE evErything falls apArt and nOt sMart enuff tO qualify for higher stUdies tO makE her famiLy proUd and whEre mOney is thE rOot of all probLem and bElieve it or nOt, i aM a loner. yEs, soMethings diD chAnge for the bEtter. bUt ME? iM nOt any bEtter. the bruise may be gone and teARs may nt be shed. thAt's tO kip up with being BraVe & sTrONg. bUt aLthOugh i've provEn my strEngth & kip evRyonE happy, nO oNe kNows hOw tiring thE facAde cAn bE. aNd whEn i fEel reAlly reAlly weAk, i juST fall dEeper & pOssibly breAk intO pieces. stiL, i hAf tO gEt back up on my oWn and face thiS wickEd worLd alOne. and then i find myself sAying , "ShaiKah NuruLain, u hAf tO deaL with this, sO, just DEAL with it!'' aNd get uP tO cOntiNUe waLking. And then wAt happens? the cycle repeAt itseLf. and again,i find myseLf repeating the same line. '' DeaL With iT!''.

And aLL im dOin nOw is, im hoLding on. hoLding on nt for my duMb ugLy seLf, but fOr YOU. (whOever tt might be)

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berrylite

2009-06-01T03:23:00.002+08:00

YogUrt wif oReO! NicCcceeeeee! :D

*Pose*

MystiQ & Lady of ConquerOr

hAhaa! hAd a niCe tiMe wiF my deArest LadyF tdy! wEnt shOpping ( for hEr) and windOwshOpping (for mE) at buGiz! hAHaa. bEfore thAt we hAd a suMptuOus meal of Nasi BriYaNi DAM! yyUuummmyyliciOus! thEn shOp shOp shOP & finally, wE hAd some nice taLk abt bfs n suCh at BErrylite while enjOying a nicee sMMooth frEsh fAt frEe yOgUrt! hOhOHO! :O ok, gyM tMr! LOLOL! :)

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fATin's bday!

2009-05-30T14:37:00.003+08:00

oK! lEts blOg abT my girLfrEn's 20th bdAy, FatiN aka NiNi. :)

Shai~Fatin.

And now we're both 20! :D

The cAkes!

Fiz Shai Mid :D

SMiLe! :)

Shai: sponsoring stArbucKs bottled driNk.

Mid: wondErs when he can finish the cakes! :P

GRP fOtO!

HOHohO, bAsicly we hAd a small rEuniOn wif ex 2-6 cuM Fatin's bdAy at stArbucks esPlanade! wAs fUn cAtching up and taLk taLk n teAse the bdAygirL! LoLoL! tiL thEn, seE ya'll again yeAh! kip in tOuch! :O

aKubOred

2009-05-30T00:08:00.001+08:00

i aM bOred.

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miSs MI

2009-05-27T23:23:00.002+08:00

O6A1.

And when i say i miSs schOoling in M.I., i reAlly reAlly meAn it! hAh! sEe? thE fOto provE my misses & hUggs & kisses! Credits to FAna! thAnks! HohOhO! spOt my bUttt! i mean, my bAck! LoLoL! yeah, iM thE laid (at the) back persoN. LoL. With my bAg & swEAter on the tabLe, How tO write?? LoL. Even Nir's bag in on tHE table tOo! LoLoL! NauGhty nauGhty. And oh my my my, i shUd hAf a bEtter hAirstyLe thAn that. grrr. I recalled my 1st yr hairstyle, oUhh! sOOo coOoLicioUs! shOrt & wet & spikE lOok. woOhoO! And sEe thAt broWn stAircase/treehouse on the left? it's whEre i play hide & sEek wif my the rest of the O6a1-ians! LoL. sOo cooL right? and cUte. hOhoHo! i wanna shOut it lOud: I MISS SCHOOLING IN MiLLennia InSt!

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BeachOuting

2009-05-25T14:17:00.009+08:00

Ok! lEts bLog abt Beach!! LoL!

As a fareweLL oUting tO our deArest Fara, we held a beach outing and man, we had a blast! Lets tAke a lOok!

Mini Picnic : SNACKS! :P

AMy: sEdap Oh!

Nir: yeAh yeAh.

thAt tiMtaM is nice i teL yOo!

HantU Glamour ( rise of the deAd )

Sakit mAte.

An Ah Soh is foUnd to hAve dig her eyes out at the beaCh.

A babe capTured to be dOin her thing on the shore.

*poSe Pose*

Ah Soh , Babe & Antu were actually fRiends.

Ah Soh: wat to do..tMr go pasar must spend somemore. aiya, money money money!

Babe: oUh, camera is there! *pose*

AntuGLamour: ok, pUt on more sAnd! this wil surely scare more ppL!

CHeeers Teh TaRik! :P

Let's eAt Nasi AyAm GorEng! :P

HoHOhO! ANd hope thE pictures toLd the stOry! yAy! :) But sadLy, NadiAh cudnt jOin us the lastminute. :( but Nadiah, on behalf of Fara, SHE lOvE tHE cArd very muCh! And frm me, the skEtch is sOo cute! u cAn be our creAtive designer u kNow?? :)

To LadyFara: Bon Voyage! LoL. mcm nk gi maner je! wiSh u aLL the beSt in ur nEw jOb yeAh. And rEmember dis in wAtever u dO, dO NoT GiVe uP! Be prOud of urseLf & ur uNifOrm! :D

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videos

2009-05-21T01:54:00.004+08:00

LoLOL! i've uplOAded some videOs!

Ok, the 1st 2 vidEos BLoGpArt 1 & PaRt 2 was recorded tO iNform whOever who ar intrested in what im doin when im on the iNterNet. While the 3rd videO is called " Shai's uNglaM mOments caught on cAmera '', thAnks tO SOMeoNe whO recorded this on the sly. Hahaa! i reAlly hAf no idea tt he recorded what i said untiL he tOLd me awhile later. LoL. That's it, my ungLam fidgetings. aLL oUt. LoL. bUt it's aLright, im stiL cOOoooOoOL..... :D

Enjoy the viDs! hOhOhO :O

Alert:
1. There is nO soNg on this blog for now.
2.The 1st and 2nd viDeos ar quite sOft sO u might wAnna turn up the voLume!
3. The 3rd vIDeo is quite loud sO u might wAnna lower it a lil after wAtching the 1st & 2nd vids!

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hateee

2009-05-19T02:18:00.003+08:00

I hate fEeling this wAy. i wAnna get over it. just get over it. Put on the facade of happiness & hide these sorrows again. it's a MAD worLd out there. iM anguished by the injustice done.

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feeling

2009-05-18T01:32:00.003+08:00

sOmehow or rather, i feel like..................... nvr mind.

Anyways, sAturday's meet ups wif Adit Zilah Filz Wen Hao & Hamid was fUnn! Then met my deARest siLat juniors RiNi, KaMaruL & RizaL. Rini was super buzy whIle KamaruL was slurping onhis drink when i saw him. LoL. chatted wif him n fOund oUt more awfuL truths. arrrgh. heArtpAin. wHy is such happening?? hMm. And RizaL was being a security officer guarding his class area. LoL. hE is thE most sLack seCurity i've ever sEen! cAn taLk2 Laugh2. LoL. Then met alot of ppL! miSs the ex-DX babEs frm M.I! And hey, Wen Hao is nOt my boyfriEnd ok! hAhaa. dont get the wrong idea. :) And then, we go separate ways.... the 3 crazy peeps went to watch movies while Wen Hao went to town & me & Hamid went to meet our sec sch frens! LOL. it was sO impromptu. hAhaa. at last, we had a small 2-6 gathering. :) was funn mEeting & taLking wif em after soo long. hOhOhO! and wE tOok lOts of pictures tOo. tHanks tO the bLur Queen!(u kNw hu u ar!) :P And, taLking abt pictures, i reAlised that i didnt take any shots at all wif Adit and guess wat, fate brought us back. LoL. we actually met in the bus on our way back and guess wat! we tOok last minute pics! hOhOHO! i miss thAt bOy. :P And taLking abt pics, Mr Wen Hao, whRE is thE pictures tt ur spoSe to eMaiL mE?????? grr! i wAnt it nOw now now! hEez.

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wdLnd

2009-05-15T02:14:00.002+08:00

Ahahh!
wEnt tO jogg wif deArest Fara tdy at the stAdium & i feel gooood after thAT! Went to eat rice wif sweEt & sOur chICken wif rice aNd black pepper chickEn wif rice! it's nice. ANd then, we decided tO cAtch The UninviTed. LOL. Thot it was a hOrror movie bUt hey, thEre's a twist in the stOry! hOhOho. Lets dO a quick review!

tHe UniNviTEd
Get this, Me & LadyFara was thE 1st i say, the FiRsT couPle tO gEt in thE cinEma 4 and it was all dark.. and kinda... crEepy.. LoL. And LadyFara hAd tO remind me of coMing sOon gHost! LOL!! we MAde sOme jOkes & taLk loudly...jUSt bEing hopeful tt more ppl will streAm in as sOon as PossibLe! suddenly ' pssss ', we heArd some whsipering and a chinEse coUple came in. We bOth lOok behind and felt rElieved thAt, '' it's humAn, just another coUple''. LOLOL! then Moree ppl stREam in.. all couples.. i mean, 2 by 2 la.. some boygirl. some girlgirl. hEez. Ok! im suppose tO do a quick reviEw of the movie! hEre goes:

A thrilling mOvie with a clEver twist of stOryline. Very EngAging & nOt a typical horror mOvie. insteAd, i was shocked ONCE onLy. LoL. thE rest of the scenes.. i either smile or laUgh or just watch in silence, awaiting for more suspense to come! all in all, it's soMething outstAnding! Different & uncommon. Must wAtch! (reCOMMended for weAk heArted ppL! yEs, rEcoMmended!) :D
Overall Rating: 5 Popcorns! Ace! *crunch crunch crunch crunch crunch!*

And i wAnna apologise to my Abah coZ i disappOint him. iM reAlly reAlly sOrry Abah. Wont happen again. iM sO duMb! eeerryyeerr! *slAps own forehead*

And my fOne is givin me attitUdes. i hAf tO send it tO the heAdquatErs for some disciplanary actiOn. And whAt do i hAve to lose? soMe of My special sMses! grrr! but wAit, i can save 30 sMses into my siMcArd. oUh well, gOnna be real sElective on this one. :)

And i miss Ah BeNg. LoL. Miss our Ah BeNg & Ah LiAn fight. hOhOhO! And tO Ally, thAnk u sOo much for ur sMs! yay! And nt fOrgetting Za Zu & Fa! My CowIsShitCrApOink buddies! Whenn wAnna chill again?? hAaa.

(cAnt wait for M.I. CarnivaL dis sAturday! yahoOOo! :P)
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hmm

2009-05-14T03:06:00.003+08:00

Hmm..

AdaM LaMbErt is G,A,Y. yeAhz. but heck, his performance ar all GOOD. it's like he is doin his own concert u know? And DanNy, hE has a chaRming sMiLe! A voice thAt if i cOuld, i wOuld reQuest hiM to sing ' Dance with my Father ' by Luther Vandross for me! What abt KriS ALLen? He is hAndsOme, nO mAtter hOw hard he scrEAm, his face lOoks just as hAndsOme! He got this creAtivity in his sOng Arrangement & instruMEnts. GOod LoOking + TalEnted TOp 3 (juSt as i hAf expected!) Who wiNs? hMm.. a tOugh one indEed.

And i reAlly like these 2 contestants from ANtM. One is the winner of cycle 4, NaiMa MoRa while another is Elina Ivanova, a contestant tht was eliminated just an episode agO. I like thEir strong fAces & strOng chAracter. Go EliNa! i kNow u cAn gO fAr in ModeLLing right after aNtM! :)

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at Fara's

2009-05-12T14:55:00.004+08:00

StrAightened. LoL. sudDenLy my hAir bcame lOnger. :D

eMoPrincEss. LoL. PrinCess ur heAd! :D

A diFf Look. hohOhO! :D

BOoo! bLoOb bLoob! :D

And thE 'stEp' (asking for sLap) loOk. :D

And it aLL thAnks tO FARADILLA! hEez. She cOnQuered my whOle hEad ysterday and becaMe my persOnal hAir stylist! Fara SaLon is oPened! gO gO gO! :D
And thAt 'princess' hAirband is hErs, nOt mine. LoL. it lOoks goOd on her bUt not me. i LOok lyke some crAppy 'princess'. hOHO! And whAt hAppEned ytdy? well, Actually Nir & Me went for an interviEw for this retail oUtlet & then we went tO fill uP our hungry stOmachs wif the chEesy pizza & sausAge bAked rice at pIZzahUt! hOhO! yuMMylicious! thEn, wE thougt, why nOt, we gO hang oUt at Fara's Salon?? ANd thEn off we gO to get our hair dOne! hEe. And yeS, the qUote of the day : '' this is not metal, this is mAde of ceramic. it gives off moisture rather than absorb moisture,unlike metal!'' LoLoL! And then, we laUgh our ass off at some JOkes & hoLLOw mAn! LoL. hOllow girL ade jer nk check barang Fara if they still can be use w/o offending Fara. LoL!! adErrr jErrrr! AHahahaa! thEn wE snAck in some twiSties while wAtching prOject runwAy & laff at TiM & some of the fuNny conStestants. LoOL. Then off wE wEnt tO the park where my hairstylist went to jog 4oom x 4 while EmoMe & HollowGirL went tO play atthe kids corner & the fitness eQuipment. wEeee! sOo fun! hAhaa.. then we plan tO wOrkout tOgether 1 of these days to get ourselves physically & mentally ready for our next big thing, our futUre cAreer. hEee. dont wAnna disclose anything yet. U gUess! :D

And im stiL crAving for chEesecake!

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blogg

2009-05-07T01:23:00.003+08:00

i wAnt tO blog... bUt i dOnt kNow wAT tO taLk abT .

In anycase, iM stiL stiL stiL CRAVING fOr CHEESECAKE! wAnted to gO but lazy. hAaha!

CHEESECAKE! CHIcAgO CHEESECAKE!! yUUmmmyliCIous!!

And dis wEek, i doNt kNow if im lucky or what bUt, i gOt 2 boys offEring their services to me...well, shud i choose 1 only? or both? or none at all? LoL.. i feel gOod. hAaha. I feel so lady.for the 1st time. hAhaa!

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crAve

2009-05-02T15:39:00.004+08:00

OooOooo. iM crAving fOr chEese cakes again! wOohOo!

Anyways, i've clEAred things out in my mind. yUpp, was in a mEss. And now, i kNow exactly what tO dO & how to react. i gEt it nOw, it's clEAr..well, trAnslucent actually... bUt, i'll make do wif it. Rather than having it opaque, and thOugh i wUd appreciate to have it trAnsparent so as to see it very clEArly, at least, it is nOt thAt bad. i kNow who i am, i knOw where i stAnd & i wiL continue living aLthough not for myseLf at times but fOr the othErs whO loves me & treasure my existence. But definitely, the dilemma is, shUd i continUe living, fOr yOu?

And hey! im stArting tO put my fEet bAck on the field &the court! The sMell of the aura of yShn strEetsoccer cOurt & fiEld made nOt me alone bUt aLL of uS reminisce abt our daMMnn active dAys kicking asSes! wOohOo! i wAnt tO leArn playing sOccer all over again, cAnn i? :D

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