fiNaLLy i gOt tO mEEt my lOveLies on sAturday!! yay!! cAtch ups wif em bOth & it waS really keCoh lar!! in thE train n aLL! NOnstOp crApping & teases!! hahah!! fuN lar! u cAn juS forgEt all ur trOubLes wen ur with thEsE loveLies! i lOve u bOth ziLAh & nik!!! :D aS usuaL, SAt Morn wAs fuN wif tHE dx BAbEs! or shall i say.. the SOYA babeS?? hahah! gonna upLoad thE sOya21 vidEo if it's pErmissibLe by aLL! hahah!!
iM gOna changE my skin!! i meAn my bLogskin! hahah! yes yEs... i wiLL sOoon! reaL soOn! :D
oUhhhh daaaa...mmnnnnn! iM like sOOoo sunbUrnt! ouh yes, all commented that i'be bcOmE darkk.. n thAt is sOooo true la ppL... iM in sOOo many aCtivities in sCh & mOst r conduCted unda the sUn,... hmMm.. no chOice do i? hMm...
anywys.. iM tired & siCk of PI & LIT ASSiGNMENT! ouh yes! :( im havin a cold n sO unable to cOncEntrate.. bUt nO choIce, haf tO complEtE by tOnite 12am sAt 18apr... shhhiittttzz! hMm
ouh weLL, i gUEss i bEtter gEt on it n complEte it ASAP! yuCks.
hMm.. suMonE jus caLLed mE on my mObiLe whiLe i waS doin suM bUsinEss in the tOiLet, & hencE, it becaMe a miSs caLL. whEn i cheCked, it's a privAte nO. sO, i juS igNored it. sO, off tO chAt wif my frEn in mSn while wAitin fOr anOthEr koL frm that priv. nO. bUt it nevEr rings. Instead, my frEn koL mE via hEr hp & wEn i aSk hEr if shE had kol mE via any pRiv. nO. shE said nO. & i nOe hEr hsE nO. tHoug. sO, it wASnt hEr. & it's aLwAys like dis. wheNever iM FREE & bored, NO onE bOtHEr tO ring mE uP & whiLE iM BuSy dOin suM bUsiness or oN a koL wif my fREn, priv. nO. kols comEs in. I tried tO ansWer but it waS hUng uP sOon afta it's 3rd ringing. CRAPSHIT! Hu caLLed mE?? cAn u wAit lOngEr & give mE suM timE tO ansWer ur koL? or u cAn stArt to koL mE at thE right tiMe instEad at the usUaL wrong tiMe whiLe i waS doin suM wOrk?? IrritAting Shiiitz! Eeuurrgh. Better stiLL, juS SMS. life's eaSier thAt wAy, dun u agrEe? haiyO.
anyways.. i kip bUmping intO Mr SaD... hMmm... & iM now MiSs HappY! haha! Mazuin dUn jEalOus okAyy!! LOL... sOrwie! :D
& i miSs Toh tUCk caMpus! yes oUh yes! it has a mEmOrabLe & histOricaL values in it. I miSs TT!! & i mISs cOnsuMing MUSHROOM CHEESE PRATA @ aL-aMeEn / aL-azhAr!! yay!! hohoOhHOho! hU's gOnna bLanja mE thEre????!! hEehEeE... u Noe i NOe...evryOne duNno.. :D
hEehEe.. i LOve mYseLf! hahaha.. iM juS bEwildered by my own abiLity... haha.. frM bOth tHE gOod & the bad side of mE... i Love myseLf! yay! :D
anyways, tO Mr F, u r HISTORY.. hahhaAhA.. :D
hAppieSt 24 hr adVanCE 18th bdAy tO SAN! May u & aNgeLina lASt long tOgathA! :D
yUpp! i skip sCh! HAH! & i miSs dOin it... fOr thE vEry firSt tiMe in my MI life, i skip sCh! hahah! wOoohOoo!!
U never wAnna gUEss wat i did wEn i skip sCh,... haha... & hEY, thE beSt pArt is, i've gOt mEMbErs tO skip sCh wif mE! haha!! i Loike! yay!!... Okayy. enuff abt the 'baddie BAd' sidE of mE.. hUrhUr..
Move on tO my cCa tOday..hMm.. waS quitE fuN & hEArthrObing pracTicE i cAn sayy.. haha, oNLi fara,amy & haifa nOes why i say it's HEarThrobing.. kErkeR..... bUt thE reSt of it.. hMm.. it sAkz. hMm... waS quite disAppOinted... & i diSappoint hiM... & i did apOlogise.. & hE sAy it's okAyy...hE nOes thAt wE arE amAtEur & it's abit hard for us ... i fELt bEtta afta hEaring him sAid thAt.. but stiLL.. im quitE disappOintEd wif myseLf.. haiz....
anywAys, i've gOt a confESsion tO makE. yEs. i nOe i've sAid dis in my prEvious entry... bUt i dunO if i shud lEt my confesSion knOwn tO evryOne...hMm.. i gUEss.. it's nOt the timE yEt fOr me to reveaL any confesSion ryte nOw.. sooOOo.. weLL.. fOrgEt it HAH.
HAH. was pissed off initially wif my sistaz cOz i cudnt get tO wAtch the 'double happiness' on chn8 at 5.30pm... hmmm.... but was okayy soon afta...
oUh welll. gOt back the 2nd draft of PI...( preliminary idea) .. and.. ouhkayy.. i did quite well..bOth drafts ARE meeting expectations.. BUT, im still nOt satisfied. Im not happy. at the mOment. nO. im NOT happy. i dunnoo why... hmm..bEen fEelin kinda.... lost dis few days... i kinda fEel tired n i dAydream aLot.. i dunno why.. i jus fEel thAt im kinda... a disappointment at times.. well at least tO my dad... and... im jUs nOt a goOd frEn at tiMes... i sumtimes encOurage ppl tO do thE wroNg thing, tt mAy deStroy thEir hapiness. But its nOt on purpose. really. i try to help bUt im afraid i cAnt be of any help. im jus fEelin lOw..n lost. yes. im lOst frm the real wOrld. i kip thinking hOw gOod my life will bE if i can sWitch tO live in my fAntaSy. it will be aLOt happier...bUt i nOe, it's only poSsible for me to dreaM, it's IMPOSSIBLE to make that a reality.
i miSss the gOod old dAys... & i miSs sum ppL... i miSs RaM, hE's the guy thAt always flOod my sMs inbox with stewpit patterns and kol me several times jus tO taLk crAp. i lOve talking tO him. oUr conversatiOn will start of wif oUr respective proBs n dEn tO sum jOkes n teAses & den crAp & den sum surprises.. iT's juS wondErfuL... hOw i wiSh... bUt evrythink's sO different Now... well.. juS reminiScing... thAt's all i cAn dOo... :(
aLso... i miSs my bEstie.. this bestie.. thAt i had... bUt bcoz of hEr majOr eGoism & hEr ova limitATiOns tO my highEst tOlerance leveL, i juS cAnt regArd her as my bEstie anymOre.. it's nOt that i wanna stOp it, i tried my vEry beSt tO save it, But it's gOne. and it's u hu causEd it tO happen. Not mE. really. & im sO disappoInted wif u.. well, jUs wanna say thAnks fOr thE frEnship these past short yrs .. i really treaSure 'em. :(
& tO thoSe GUYS are dEr, pLs, have sum cOntroL ova urself. contrOl ur desires & luSt. RESPECT. thAt's the word fOr u aLL tO remEmbEr. & thAt's wAt gaLs wants really. again, it's RESPECT.
i guEss, i better stop reminiScing & evaluating .. it wont bEnefit anyonE.. sori readers. but i've jUS waSted ur tiMe. :(
hEHee.. well well,.. my wEekEnd is bUrnt up with the sTewpiT P.I.!! haha.. thANks p.i.!!
anyways, i still exEcute my paSsion! yes ouh yes, on sAt mOrn, did sum kiCkabOuts in sCH & at yiShun! damn shiOk i tell u! i juS loVe my sATurdays now! it's sOOo muCh FUN! yEs! haha... hu say sAturdays will be bOring & lonely if u dun haf a bOyfrEn?? i can prove u WRONG!! haha!! i love spENdin my sAturdays wif the othER babEs N dudes! kErker...
wellwel..went to Bugis NLB wif Nirwani & Fadil & Fara.. haha! crAp hEre & dEre... dEn went tO haf diner at LJS.. ouh well, i had milo... only... haha.. pAThetic i nOe.. but i jus dun fEel hungry la... soo. afta sum talking and jOkings... went hOme & kabOom! did sum reSearch again at home & finally close my eyes at 1.30AM...
tOday was good..sunday.. haha.. wOke up at 1-30pm.. haha!! yeAh.. i nOe tt's like realli late.. but heCk la! i've bEEn waking up at 6AM for gudness sake dis whole Week! sOO, sunday is my trEat to wake up late, wOOhOoo!!! haha! sOO.. today.. finish up my P.I. den EAT sum biscuits while chattin wif my pEeps..den off tO BANQUET cOzwwAy pOint wif my famm, eXcept my eLd sis... she wEnt Out wif hEr cuzzins.. haha.. ppl sAy, they are dOin sum CATCHUPS, sO dun intERfERe wif adults bUsiness.. hEehEE.. as if im still small huh.. kEkEr...
anyways, i miSs aDIt!! yes! hMm.. wondering how hE's doin nOw.. hMmm... hiS prEpAid is Low at the mOment... hMM... & nikki! i miSs u tOo!! oUh well.. wEn r u gona stOp wOrkin! haha!! we'll mit up sOoon okAyy!! yay!! & zilah! oh my gOat! i realli sympAthize wif hEr coz shE loSt hEr valuables in juS 1 sEc! ouh shits! i hOpe thE robber will injure both his arms badly & gEt them amputAted! sHitttttzz!!!! HAH. & zilah, i miSs u tOo! ouh well... i miSs my gilA gang! zilah adit & nikki! hmm.. sorii ppl if i sEems bUsy... but dO ring mE up soon okay! i'll make suRE i make time fOr u 3! yEs, i wiLL! :D
Hmmm... to my deArest Fara, i hOpe ur doin okAyy.. It's my plEaSUre to bE dEr for u in times of nEed... nOt to wOrry alright, hOpe evritink tuRns oUr fine betWeen FIDz & yOu.. insyAllah.. But for nOw, must foCus on REGU!! yes! IVP in JUNE! woOOhOoo! oUh yes, frEnly matCH in mAy! hahah!! gonna bE fun man! woOhOoo!! & tO the tUnggal & ganda ppl, u gUys can dO it!! woOhOo!! show the sCh wat u've gOt! hEehee... & to REGU ppl, WE CAN DO IT! yes!! to thOse hu r tanding -ing, teACH mE the faLLs tACtic! pls! hahah!! i really nid tO leArn on tt fOr IVP... hurhur...
oh ya.... hMm.. eRNie, i dunno wAT's wif u & iMann.. oUh well... we'll sEE hOw it gOes ya? hEehEe.. & Amy, hMmm r u havin prob wif Y? do inform me yeAh... dun wAnna affect DX future...hMm...
okAyla my lOvely reAders! thANks for reading! i shall blog mOre sOon!! yEs! for nOw, i wanna zOom tO zzzzzzzz! LALA land! hEre i coME! wHOoooOOshhh!! kErker....
tO thOSe hu jUS added mE in mSn, THANKS FOR ADDING! hahah! :D oUh, & i gOt a confession to make... But shall Not reveal it nOw.. wAit long long okAy! LOLz....!
hMm hMm... jus fEeling mOody dis 2 days... n i nOe why... haha.. it's my off days... hMm.. no woNder... oOops, sOrri tO thoSe whOm i might hUrt dis days... jus nt fEelin gOod n wEn tt happens, i'll thrOw a tAntrum.. sO sorry if i did that tO u... anyOne.. yUpp.
anywaYs... i gOt a cOnfeSsion tO make... hEehEe.. shall nOt reveaL it any sOOn in hERe.. hOho... juS kipit lOw first babeh..kip it lOw.. K.i.L. hUrhur...
hmM... btw, juS tryna kip on living deSpite suM unsUpportive pEoPle arnd mE that demanded me tO stOp doIn wAt i like tO dO.. it's CRAP & SHIttty iS'nt it? oUh well, & hEy, SHE saw baihakki tOday. sO wat? like wAtEver. u duN nid tO kol me for tt. u're jus fiNding exCuses. hu nOes, u might be lying abt it juS to hEar my voice agAin. HAH. get loSt. i dun nid u. AT ALL.
in faCt, i fEel aShamed of having hEr blood rUnning in my vEin. Disgusting. It really is. But wAt can i dO? if i haf the option tO cut my veins and seal em baCk, i wud haf let her blood flow oUt frm my whoLe body. bUt thAt is IMPOSSIBLE. sO, nO othEr chOice do i? gOtta live wif it den. NO CHOICE. EeUurrgh.
gUEss wAt pEoPLe!! guEss wAd!! i accuMuLated 4 injurieS dis wk! juSt within thiS wEek itself! 4 injUries! it incLudes bLuebLaCks & scRatChes! haha.. oUh well, im prOne tO injuries in wAtvEr iM doin rYte nOw in mA lyfe... cANt avOid. HAH!
anwAys, i lOve dis wEEk! yUpp. it enDed faSt n steaDy! haha.. tIMe sEems tO paSt very faSt in sCh. & nOt mAny tUtoriaLs and aSsignmENts Queing uP fOr me. HAH. thANk gOd! yAy! i Love it dis wAy! :D
bUt on the oTher side, iM dEpreSsed. yEs. abt my dad, my mOm & my tCha's xpectAtiOns. Its preSsurising. hMm. agAin, iT's INEVITABLE. hMm. iM dArn upsEt & disapOinted wif suM ppL. they r juS trynA ruin my life. i haf enuff OK. I HAD EnUFF! aaarrrggh! Y cANt dis ppL undErstAnd ME?? y cANt thEy suppOrt n encOugrAge wAt im doin? y cANt thEy stOp creAtin nUisAnce & haraSs mE?? wALaOo! freAkOs uh u ppL! wAt thE SHIT MAN! shitz! i hATe u! i really dO. really. periOd.
_-trynA pUt up a brave & strOng frOnt is nevEr eaSy-_
wAlAOo!! wAt de heLL mAnn! why iS shE trynA bE NICE tO mE??? like oUt of thE BLuE??? wAt, dun teLL mE ur trYna mAkE uP fOr thE paSt? HAH. if ur really tryna dO thAt, dEn let mE teLL U, U CAN FORGET ABT IT biAtChH! U are sOoo Soooo muChhh a FAILURE! shitz! i hatE u mAn, I HATE U!! get oUt of my lyfE! u duN meAn a shit tO mE. juS gO & lead ur oWn life. ur a STRANGER to me NOW. gEt it? fARk.
& hEre cOmE anOthEr onE. like wAt de hELLL! u wAn mE tO exCeL & be happy BUt u arE NOT even SUPPORTIVE of mE doin wAt i likE?? HEYLO??!!! are u oUt of ur miNd?? dO u even nOe hOw i feEL whEn u kip condEmning my iNteReSt?? my PaSSioN?? fArk.
i dUnoe why mAnn. the pEoPLe arnd mE is DRIVING ME insaNE! y cANt u juS let mE dO the thIngs i wAnt & support mE?? iT's nOt like iM tAkin drUgs or dO suMething siLLy or land my seLf in jaiL or suMtink. wAt iM doin nOw is sOOo soOo.. HARMLESS! like wAT thE heLL lar! oUh gOat, i guEss... iM juS complainin tOO muCh. nO nO.. i shudnt be EMO! bUt frEAk, i cAnt run aWay frm dis steWpit oCcurrEnces. iT's wif mE whERever i gO. 24/7. sHiTz! shittz!!!! i DUn wAna Suffer anyMore mAn. NO MORE. i had ENUFF. y cANt i jus livE happiLy nOw? wif da lOve frm my deAreSt onEs? y cANt it be thAt wAy? like a fAirytaLe? why?? why??? why?? y muz everyOne suffer? y muS we facE aLL theSE chAllenGes? y cAnt we live is thiS worLd w/o any worries? why?? ANSWER ME!! FREAK.
I hatE u Bi.tCH & mOthAfARkiN BUztARds! iM diSappOinted wif U, u hOt tempEred hUman. iM juS SiCk of aLL thiS shitz thAt u aLL are putting on mE! LET ME LIVE ON MY OWN. I'll bE HAPPIER THAT WAY. and tO aLL hu sEEs mE aS a STRANGER wHEreby u duN even acknOwLedge mE as ur EXclaSsmAte, U CAN GO & DIE. DIE A TERRIBLE DEATH! SHitz!!
hEy hey! sOO sOorrii fOr nt UPDATING dis paSt few dAys! waS really cAught uP wif lOts of aSsignmEnts! aaarrgghh! haha.. juS done wif my lit esSay n p.i.! and fOr gudneSs sAke, i dunO hOw tO do the p.i.! hMm.. heCk lar, we'll sEe how it gOes............. bLAh blAh bLAh.....!
hUrray! yeStErday's trAinin wAs quitE gOod if nOt for the sCorching SUN! hUrhur... & thANk yOu tO the whOle LOT hu vOted for mE aS the CAPt! THANKs! haha.. hU wAns my trEAt?? haha.. wAit lOng lOng eh bUSh! hAha! u anyhOw oni sAy it's my treAt! haha! wEiSh wEish! And ouh ya, congrAtz fOr being my vicE capt BushrA! & also tO ErniE fOr being my sEcretAry! yAyy!! i lOve u gurLs lOts! & tO my treAsurEr.. u hAve bEen dOin a gOOOd jOb..haha.. kip it up! & makE suRe u hUnt thOSe hu hvn pAy okay! hEe.. :D
sOo.. afta the trAinin, wEnt for a shOrt lEpaks wif zilah,amy & ernie...haha.. cAnt forgEt amy's bLundErs tRUoUt thE lepAk mOment! haha! the ' gRoup of pErson', 'cukOr thingy' and ermm.. wAt else huh.. haha.. i fOrgOt larh! hAhah! alot of bLundErs mAnn! amy Amy.. i tiNk it's becAusE of thE mEtAl spinner thAt actUali cruCket ur brAin! haha! oUh yes ernie, we shall gO for thAt head spin agAin! hahah! frEe of chArge! and amy, do tAke carE mAnn...hOpe ur pEning is okAyy redi.. hEehEe..
anyways, i realli miSs my midnite lEPaks wif ziLah & adit! aWwww... i wAnna dO it all ova agAin! i wannn! haha! mayb..wif sAn? LOL! okok...anyways, i miSs my strAight hAir Nikki! whEre arE uuuu! tAke caRE kay nikki! i nOe ur siCk.. hAf a gud rest ok! hMm...
the CIP waS fun..well..althoUgh cudnt communicAte muCh wif the fOLks but im surE we did a gd jOb in entErtaining 'em wif the muLtiraCiaL songs rytE 06A2??? wAhahah!! yay! :D
hMm hMm.. i lOve gUd fridAy! haha! wEnt oUt wif my siStAz n stEpmom to JP for dinnEr! yay! miSs the hOkkien mEe actually... ok..gOnna drOp by dEr onE of dis dAys for hokkiEn mEe! sSHhhh.. dun teLL my stEpmOm & abah.. latEr tHEy biSing siA..haha! alryte lar pEEps & pumpkins, gotta chiOw nOw! i wAnna wAtCh ugLy bEtty! i wAnna lEarnt hOw tO bE prEtty by bEing ugLy! yeS.. it's an irOnic stAtemENt i've jus mAdE.. hEehEe.. dah dah.. iM doNE! wiLL bLog for thE uPcomin wEek aCtivitiEs! hEehE.. oUt fOr nOw! oUtz! :D
=_ STOp ur LiEs dEar, iT wiLL gEt u nOwhEre.Not even my sYmpAthy_=
okok, bEen rEally really EXTREMELY BUSY lately, wOw... cudnt take a breath man..
anyways, yeAh, tMr is thE resuLt for the new ELeCted CaptAin & Vice CaptAin for DX21! yay! i wAnna wiSh all the nOminAted babEs BEst oF LUCK!! *chEers! *