It's hArd. But i'll just PERSEVERE.
* 2/23/2009 04:38:00 PM
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Ok, iM sOoooo.... bLaNk right nOww.
i dOn't kNow wAt i shud dO.
WORK
Ok, DK is gOOd lOokin & iM not SS-ing hERe bUt he really tOok gLimpses of me at wOrk as soMehow you cAn just sense it when someone is lOokin at yOu & we eyE-contActed each othEr lOts of tiMes but we didnt sMiLe. And the othEr tiMe, bLood rush tru my whole bOdy the 1st time he stoOd beside me, reAlly nEar. My whole body feLt wArm & Za saW my rEd faced. L.O.L. And the other tiMe i passed him the mOneyy for him to kEep inside the bAnker's compartment, he tOuched my hand by accident. But well, stiL, aLthough he is gd lOoking havin that cOoL Jap hAirstyle, sO whAT? i dOn't gif a damn. reaLLy. And Ah Beng is acting lyke a fine bugger by calling me Ah LiAn. I wonder which part of me lOoks lyke Ah LiAn, u chOow Ah BEng! But he's ok lar, can clique one. (Again, i cAnt get to be frens wif the dEcEnt lOokin onEs whiLe i attract an Ah bEng tO bE my colleague instead! *sigh*) And Raj, he can meLt me wif his smiLe. But is hE mArried? i gueSs sO. LoLness ShAi! And i haf 5 nights left in Cow Is Shit Crap Oink. couNting dOwn like heLL.
SCHOOL
6th March, A LeveL rEsuLt wiL be reLeased. fEelin the jitters yet peopLe?? iM lOokin forwArd to neAr MI-mknshOk auntie bubbLetea. OrEoChoc pLs Auntie!
18-20 March, Im gOnna be a camp inStrUctOr for my jUniors in MI SiLAt. I reAlly miSs trAining & crAppin wif them aLL.
GIRLFRENZ
1st March, finally miting up afta such a lOng tiMe. Missing my strEetsoccer bAbes like heLL.
Missing my MI Mates like heLL.
And To deArest Sardine: hAppieSt 10th yeAr tO us! A decade worth of frEnship. Love yA lots.
And To deArest BawAngz: hAppiest 8th yeAr tO uS! it's bEen a wild ride for uS but we kip our frEnshiP alive by adApting to chAnges bUt unsUccumbing tO circumstances thAt brings us into dire consEQuences. Love yA lOts tOo.
FAMILY
i Love my fAthEr & my siStaz heLL of aLOt. The reST dOn't mAtter tO me.
BOYFRENZ
i used tO haf pLenty. Now everyone rAn far away frm me coz they cAnt stAnd my sArcasm & cynical remArks. How good am i? LoL. And im vExed. pLease gEt mE soMe dEcent ppL to bE frenz wif & nOt thosE stREet boYs! But the beSt is my Buddy. He's bEen dEr for mE since A LvL tiL nOw. appreciate & treAsure hiM alOt. Thanks Buddy!
NEW MEMBERS
My Tante & BabyShaik is thE beSt gift ever tO brighten up my lyfe. ALhamduLiLLah, prAises tO ALLAH for evErything he has given me.
MYSELF
My thrEshoLd for physical pain & emOtiOnal pain is very high. But my thrEshoLd for psychological pain is reAlly low. i just reaLised it. after 19 yeArs of living. And i doN't nEed heLp. Don't worry, the worst is i just admit myself into I.M.H one dAyy to gEt my mEntaL repAired.
And i dOn't like myseLf. Coz thEr's nothin to like abOut. iM a BORIng persOn. And i knEw thAt long time agO. WTC. Crapshits.
iMMortaL MystiQ
* 2/23/2009 03:52:00 AM
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NOT FAIR!!!
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* 2/19/2009 11:42:00 AM
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I GiVE uP!
No, im nOt quitting my jOb. I gif up from being in a deeper confusion abt thE pAy. tHe mAnagement suCccks BIG BIG BIG tiMe i teL yOu! *****!
And another thing, teLL me this ppL, dO i lOok stuck up or dO i lOok scAry enUff thAt mOst hUman bEing dOn't dAre tO approAch me or taLk tO mE?? iM NOT ALIEN larr! BiTTch siA! iM oSo lyke u aLL whAt. whAt the heLL is wrOng??? I dOn't gEt it lAr.
BBBIIITTTCCCHHH siA!!!
oK uh,, now ppL all ATTITUDE sia. *****!
And i wANted to do soMething in reaL lyfe but was thinking of it thoroughly... then fell asleep. And ouhmagOat, i dreAmt thAT i DID it. When i wOke up, teArs kinda flowed on my cheeks. Now, dO i wAna dO it reaL lyfe? YEAAhz, i WANT. & i wiL dO it. sOOn. VEry sOOn. *****!
* 2/19/2009 11:07:00 AM
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Uhuhh!!
I spEnt my VaLentine wif suMone wondErfuL this yeAr! And shE is nOne othEr thAn.........
MiSs HAIFA!
hAhaa! ZiLah probably gOt a dAte sOo we didnt spent this yeAr togEther.. :(
But well, my UnExpEctEd V dAte is fUn tOo! wE wEre frm the uNi taLk @ SuntEc and dEn wE heAd dWn tO Bugis fOr a shOpping sprEe! It was cOoL! wE bOth wAntEd tO buy suMthink initiaLLy bUt enDed up, wE bOth bOught soMething eLse! hAHaa! BUt well, thAt ' something else' is aLso a nEcEssity of coUrse! wE dun sPLurgE anyhow okAyy! :D It's sOoo cOol mitin up wif Shikin & Nadiah & Aminah afta suCh a lOng 1 Month pLus tt wE didnt GEt to mit since we stArted wOrk. LoL. i Love hAngin oUt wif em! hOpE wE aLL cAn gEt dwn tO M.I. for soMe siLat snEek ins on wEd!
But well, my UnExpEctEd V dAte is fUn tOo! wE wEre frm the uNi taLk @ SuntEc and dEn wE heAd dWn tO Bugis fOr a shOpping sprEe! It was cOoL! wE bOth wAntEd tO buy suMthink initiaLLy bUt enDed up, wE bOth bOught soMething eLse! hAHaa! BUt well, thAt ' something else' is aLso a nEcEssity of coUrse! wE dun sPLurgE anyhow okAyy! :D It's sOoo cOol mitin up wif Shikin & Nadiah & Aminah afta suCh a lOng 1 Month pLus tt wE didnt GEt to mit since we stArted wOrk. LoL. i Love hAngin oUt wif em! hOpE wE aLL cAn gEt dwn tO M.I. for soMe siLat snEek ins on wEd!
And ouh yeAhh, b4 wE shOpp alot, wE hAd our lunCh aka dinner for mE @ PaStAMania! wOohoO! Haifa gOt to knOw it hAs HaLaL cErt 2 dAys b4 whiLe i gOt tO knOw a day bEfore 14th And sO, wE dEcided tO spLurgE on PaStaManiA afta a mOnth pLus of sCrimpin! hAhaa! wE both cudnt dEcide whEr to eAt actually and when we saw thAt outLet @ BuGis, wE hAd siMiLar reACtions! Both of us wEre like '' Ehhhh!! PaStAMania da haLaL tAuu! Let's sEe thE Menu..... ehh... dis lOoks dEliciOus! nOno, dis onE bEttEr... ehh, dis oNe oso nice.. okAyy, Let's dine in!'' LOLneSs!! It was iMpromptu & well, it wAs wOrth it! Me & Haifa wEre sAtisfied wif our meaL & thEn wE wEnt dAting. ;D
hEre ar soMe piCs tO mAke u drOoL!
ThE chEesy trEAt, HaM & MuShroom Pizza!
The chEesy trEAt, Ham & sAusage bAked riCe! (RECOMMENDED!)
Miss Gorgeous, My UnexpEcted ValEntine dAte, MiSs Horny Haifa! :P
MiSs BeLo, MystiQally Me! :D
ok, thE chEese wEre dangling frm my fork! vEry chEesy! woOho!
ThE END. :DTo Fa: HAppy X dAy! :D
To Amy: chEyyy romAntic larr tuuu nAik atAs bUiLding sumE.. LOL.
To Fara: aku tAu kAu jEalOus aku ngAn dAte aku pi PaStaManiA! :P
To Nadiah, ErniE, FaLey, Fee, Maman, Nirwani & Eein, FadzLynn : HopE u aLL hAd a WondErfuL dAyy on 14th fEb! :D
To Zu: MrS. **R** hOHohO!! amciAm, VdAy kErjE pEe?? oUh, dAting kAt kEje kAnn..hEehe...
To The reSt of my siLent reAders: THANKS FOR READING MY GILErBLoG! Do tAg! :D
* 2/16/2009 05:12:00 PM
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Quit? No!
sAy nO tO Quitting. hAhaa. yeAhh, i've clEared my mind & rE-think wAt my next mOve is & yeAhhz, i've dEcided tO stAy on. stay on untiL my contrAct ends. :D Thanks tO Faley for thAt cOol tAG u gave. It reAlly heLps tO boost my confidEnce & yet, encouraged me further tO stick wif my decisiOn dis time arnd. thAnk u sOo much FaLey! To my twin, broyAnkee & sistaz & fAther, thAnks for ur advice & listenin eAr to heAr my rAntings! appreciate u aLL alOt. :D & thAnks to Fara & Zu hu has bEen wif mE & in tHis jOurney. For Zu's case, i nEed tO cAtchup wif hEr whEreas to for Fara, shE gOt her own reason & babe, i suppOrt ur decisiOn. i saLute Fara for all thE hArdwork tt she've put in tO claim the justice for the teMp stAff! *SALUTE!* :D And bAbE, i reAlly wAnna thAnk ya for ur companionship & guidance & for the fun & laffter! it hAs bEen a grEAt 1 mOnth 7 dAys workin wif yA! HuggiEs tO Fara! :-*
And so, Thank God for his hints & pLans for me. Alhamdulillah! And now, Zu is reconsiderating her decision while ZaHira & FaRiz are putting their decision on impending. For PatRick & ClarisSa & Mr CutEdiMpLe EyepOwer Ken, i guess they ar stayin on wif me just the exception that we ar in diff dept nOw. :( For Mr CrAb & Mr I-wAnt-to-sWitch-line-from-AcCOuntAncy , aLL thE wAyy guyzz! :D
To Cow Is Shit Crap Oink, ''kiSs my big cuTe aSs!'' :P
iMMortaL MystiQ
* 2/13/2009 02:15:00 AM
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Heart BrOken. Broken heArted.
hMmm, lEts sEe.. the abOve is the common fEeling thAt we all hAve in us. it is innAte. every person tt lives in this world wiL feel thAt way, inevitable. BUT, let me clArify something here, u feel heartbroken not ONLY SOLELY when ur hurt in ur love lyfe. Nope, doesnt work tt way. u cAn also feel heartbroken by other factors such as, when ur own family members said harsh words & treAt u badly or ur friends ignore u, breAk their frenship wif u or just hAvin something against u. So, get this, when some states that HE/SHE is HEARTbRoKEn, its widen ur mind cApacity and figure oUt wAt the cAuses ar & noT immediately bE nArrow & jump to concLusion tt thAt somEone is hurt in the lovelyfe onLy! GET THAT! :)
So, whAt does it feel to bE H.B? yeAhh, here's how u'll feEL :
>crAshed.
>crushed.
>brOken into piEces, shattered.
>hurt, really hurt.
>utterly disappointed wif the person.
>DEprEssed. ( if nOt controlled or alleviated)
But u hAf to remember, now, im talkin in gEneral coz dis is the truth, the fact, the reality of lyfe.
If u feel H.B, & all of the above by that certain someone, & fEel thAt u hAte tt persOn for whAt he/she had done tO u , ask urself, WHY?. Why do i fEel this hEavy weight of hAtred & rEvenge in me? let me tell u the answer. It is because, u lOve them. LOVE. We usually hear this : The amount of love u haf = to the amnt of hatred u haf for the person. And it is kinda true. At 1st, i think it's crAp like, how come ur love equals to the hate? Nonsense! But after some consideration & referring to real lyfe examples.... i stArts to agree wif thAt phrAse. hMm..
So, lEt me offa u some suggestions when u feel H.B. :
1. Lock urself in the room, cry it all out! dun lEAve any piece of pain left in ur heArt. ( Note: Crying doesnt mean tht ur weAk. NEVER! Crying means, to let go of ur frustration in a sensible way. So, cry ur best!)
2. Don't taLk to the person tt hurt u for the day. Don't. The more u talk, the more things will get heated up & it hence may result in dire conseQuences. So, jus ignore tt pErson for thE whole day!
3. Take a drink. just a half cup of plain water wiL do. ( this is to calm ur self & ur hormones dwn)
4.Distract urself. Blast ur ears wif lOud music or on the tv wif ur loudest volume. the Decibel that u can tAhan tht is. Dun make urself deAf pls! Note : Biggest mistake ppl haf is, they wil on music BUT, wrong choice of songs! PLs ppL, NO SLOWSONGS/SENTIMENTAL/LOVESONGS. NO!)
5. gEt a good slEep afta ur eyes fEel slEepy. SlEep helps to sOothe ur hormones dwn.
6. Wake up nxt mornin, go oUt ALONE and hAng out at some nice place wher u can sit & reLax (beAches, viVorooftop..etc)
7. After spoendin some time alone, u might wanna call someone u can confide in & share ur woes & pain. after thAt, trust me, things will gEt bEtter, i wont guarantee tt it wil be soLved, but at the very leAst, u haf clEared ur thoughts & deaL wif it in a rational & cOoL way! sOo, lEts bE hAppy nOw! :)
ChEers! Don't frEt abt the whole incidence anymore okAyys? yeAh, it might leave somE scAr, probAbly quite dEeply inside of u! This is basic SciEnce, : we all hAf potential energy (PE) in us. If we do some actions, it wil convert into kinEtic energy (KE). if wE stAy rooted to one pLace, it wil just remAin as PE. And thEn, PE mAy accumulate & wE wiL just gEt ovErwEight by thE accumuklating PE inside of us & then, wE wiL compAlaint abt bEing FAT. LOLnESs!! So, lEts work our ass off & haf fun wif funn peopLe like ME! -----> sElf-procLaimed uhh ShAi! :P
To my dEarEst bAbes who fEels dOwn & H.B.: wAke up! Look up! chEer up! stAnd up! lEt ur hAir up! and listEn tO this music in my bLog! it is 'JUST STAND UP' by thE stRong ladies in the entertaiNment indUstry! ENJOYYYY! :D :D :D
MystiQ
* 2/09/2009 01:08:00 PM
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Just in case u all dOn't know, iM strEssed right nOw. About what? About work. i've nEvEr bEen this strEssed. ok, lOok, during A lvls, i dun reAlly complAint abt anything & i didnt even dare to say im stressed frm studying coz i absorbed evry confusion & pressure inTo my blood n mAke myself numbed. But for this cAse, it concerns my work, someting im not numbed tOo & cAnt even mAke myseLf immuned tO coz diff things hAppen evryday at a very fast paced. Im jus too shOcked. It al stArted wif the pAy gEttin deLayed. And thEn, thE reAsons behind it. And thEn, thE ppL working tHEre acting like selfless biAtch & buStedz, sAying different things to different ppL. And then now, after gettin trAnsferred into a new dEpt, it is not heLpin eithEr. the inchArges are stOink & bLur wif my presence, acting dumb and assigned me tAsks thAt even a pri sch kid cAn dO. ouh yeAhz, of courz i enjoyed gEttin pAid handsomely for hrs of doin a pri sch kid job but eventually, i fEel sO bored & useless. And then all my energetic pOtential forces wil convert into fAtigue and then lazyness & then demotivated. And then? nid i spell it ouT? ok, lets do it, Q.U.I.T. fEel like quitin. like heLL i dO. bUt a pArt of me, the angelic side of me is sayin im not a person who easily gif up. yeAhz, true enuff, im nOt a quitter. never. sO, the drives to work my ass off tiL the end pOurs over me. and thEn, when i think bck of the pAy and evrything associating wif it thE emotional rush gets over me & i became indecisive & fickle-minded. True enuff, i was resurrected from my curse when i get dis job initially. But now, this feels worse then being cursed. It is not only me, it affects other arnd me as well. this reAlly sucks. thE mAnagement is like tons of shitz. communication brkdwn + unprofessional work ethics = suCky shitty humAn reSource dEpartment & hence, a Tarnished (onced/ used to be Reputable) Company. COw Is Shit CrAp Oink! FREAK.
MystiQ
* 2/08/2009 09:24:00 PM
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The Bottom Line
You are loaded with energy right now -- so everything will be easy and fun today.
In Detail
You are loaded with energy right now -- and being so high-spirited, you'll have a lot of fun juggling all the tasks that other people might find too boring to deal with. This makes you very valuable, and very popular! Expect people to toss you some easy tasks that you can use to build up your expertise and your resume. They don't have the time to deal with them, but you do. Your usefulness will be rewarded and remembered, so don't think that you're doing other people's work for no reason.
LOL. yEAhh, thAt's ciSscccoo for ME! doin othEr ppL's jOb ( those hu skip OT) and i gEtta jot em dwn on my workpLan & get a gd iMpressiOn from the supErvs! And thEn, bEcaMe FoFuLar jus like Patrick! LOLness! :D
* 2/05/2009 12:36:00 AM
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i miSs all my friEnds. :(
iS thEre any gATherings coMing up? i wonder... :(
ANd for once, i fOrgot abt the curse. But luckily or shall i say unfortunately, i remembered it & immediately, i brush thAt thought away. Is it suppOse to be this way? Forever? tiL eternity? yeAhhz, i bElieved sO. Coz its obvious. iM Cursed.
MystiQ
* 2/02/2009 02:50:00 PM
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hEyLo!
iM a Potato.
PMS!
PLease Mash Shaikah.
LoLness.
* 2/02/2009 12:53:00 PM
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