iM damn tirEd. another wOrd, LETHARGIC.
i HATE, i repeAt, im beginning to HATE MI P.E.! it rEAlly suCks mAn! it's kiLLin us one by oNe. trUst me, Each & evEry oNe of the sPorts peoPle arE bEing tOrtured. it dOesnt mean thAt jUS bcOz wE arE sPorts peoPLe mEans we haf tO dO extrA driLLings right? Even sO, nOt tO suCh a suiCidaL extent lar! sEriOusLy man, im dOin ma very beSt tO endUre. yEAh, by sAyin vuLgar everY tiMe thE p.E. stArts tO tUrn shitty. damMMnn it!! i HATE P.E. nOw. i DAMNED MI P.E.! wher's the gaMe tt u prOmisEd us? whEr's the frEedom tt u proMised us aftEr wE paSsed oUr NapFa teSt? whEr is it?? they are a bunch of LIARS! diSgUsting liArs!! grrrrrr!!
AnothEr thing, abOut sch stUff. it's gEttin tOugher eaCh day. i hAf tO hOld on. And my coMmOn teSt rEsuLts? lEt's nOt taLk abt it yet tiLL evErything is fiNaLised. ANd FRIDAY wiL be thE EMO day. y? cOz, it's oUr H1 A LEVEL reSuLt day! Ma H1 PhysiCs? i duN No. Freak it. it's gOnna be a frEAkin fRidAy. grrrr!
ANd i nOw reaLised, hOw aWfuL it is fOr a girL tO hAf scAr or brUise on hEr hand or arM. it's really aWfuL. i hAd tO cover it. it's really bAd and ugLy! eEee..
_-iM irritAted by mA sChoOL stUff!-_
* 2/27/2008 11:01:00 PM
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Havin reLease the frUstratiOn bits by bits, iM nOw sAtisfiEd. nOthing is bEing soLved yet. bUt at leAst, thE tenSe atmOsphere is fading aWay as days pASsed.
well, fOr the nUisance guy, it waSnt really soLved as in, it iSnt a coNfrOnted thing, bUt i fEel thAt it's nO use hAvin tensiOn wif hiM. It is NO use. And so, i've dEcided tO forgive hiM and things are cOoL nOw btw mE & him. Just being friends dun hUrt. YeAh. And he accEpts it weLL. sO, yeAh, 1 prOblem sOLved.
the othEr stUffs? i duN wAna tink aBt it. they jUst suCks. it hAppEned. And it's bEyOng ma coNtroL. So, why bOther? gRrr!
aNywAy, iM mUCh bEttEr now. as in, nOt sOo streSsed like laSt wEek and da paSt days. BUT, iM tirEd. Thanks tO MI's suiciDe PE periOd. And thE facT thAt iM in da sPorts grp adds up tO the prEssUre. It is tiring and it is kiLLin mE. It's really a sUicide dOin the 4 sEts of sUicide unda the hOt hOt suN jUs nOw. But, dO i hAf a chOice? NO. sO, why coMpLain? grRr!
sOme things cAnt be soLved. soMe injUries cAnt be heaLed. i guess, iM juS tAkin things in ma stride nOw and kip on accEptin the cHAllenges that i had to face everyday. oh well, i shall nOt taLk alOt nOw. Pending tutoriaLs and revisiOns and work. And i nid tO DESTRESS maseLf dis wEekend. SeriOusLy. iF nOt, i wiLL tUrn crAzy. litEraLLy iNsane. grrrr...
btw, i reAlly taLk tOo mUch on wEd's dinner wif the lUmiNoriaNz. i hAd a suMptuOs meaL and a goOd lAughter. Thanks fOr the hAppy dinnEr LuMiNoriAnz! iM gLad.
-_oNe afta anOther. Nvr eNdin._-
* 2/21/2008 06:56:00 PM
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i rEally miSs Nik. i wAnna mit Nik & jUs lEt lOose of maseLf witHout evEn bOthEr wAt ppL tiiNk. They all cAn gO n hAng emseLf fOr aLL i cAre!
and oUh, hAppie birfday tO shEiLa LaLa cute! sOrry cAnt bE dEr cElEbrAtin wif U LaLacutE! May U live lOng and hEaLthy & May luCk n jOy surrounds u aLwAys! Amin.
tOmorrOw is a nEw day. i hOpe fOr rejOice & contEntmEnt. Get mE oUt of dis misEry. pLeAse.
-_ lEt's hOpe fOr a bEttEr toMorrOw._-
* 2/20/2008 12:51:00 AM
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Ok, it suCkssss! everythink juS suCks ryte nOw. Everyone is irritAting. And soMe even aCt likE sOme mOnkEy shitz. DisGusting!
sOrry if mA entry sounds dEpreSsin tO all mA bLogreAdErs.. i Am distUrbed. PhysicaLLy & emotIonaLLy. i gEt irritAted easiLy dis dAys. No. NOt bcOz of thAt tiMe of da mOnth. iT is dUe tO sEveraL cAuses. iM jUst coNfUsed and pErturbed. And it is excruciAting. I wish, i wiSh, thEse nightmAres wiLL jUst disAppeAr intO thin air. I wISh.
daMn it.
And nOw, dEr's a gUy hU wAna add tO nuisAncE. iM uttErLy disgUsted. and im disAppOinted in maseLf fOr nOt bEing hU i aLwAys was. i wAs a stroNg-wiLLed girL with a pErtinAcioUs opiniOn abOut things tt r hAppEnin arOund mE. But dis tiMe aroUnd, im teLLin u, im lOsin mA grip. Mayb cOz, it's unda an aliEn circuMstAnces? suMtink tt iM nOt famiLiar wif? or iSsit of the fact thAt iM lOsin ma strEngth? nO. iM nOt wEak. i am nEver a wEakling. NEVER. hOwevEr tOugh it mAy gEt, i wil stiLL bE hOldin on. uNtiL ma laSt bReAth. But it is eXcruciating and i maself am nOt suRe hOw lOng mOre i cAn hoLd on. ReScue Me froM thEse predicament. Oh GOD. Thanks fOr ur prAyers mA frEns. May U all bE bLeSsed by the ALMIGHTY abOve. Amin.
-_Numbed or immunEd? i duN nOe._-
* 2/20/2008 12:27:00 AM
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im physically and emotionally hurt. Freaking FROGS! lame shhiT! jUSt shUt uP and gEt oUt of mA wAy u MORONS!
i fEel sOoo lAME ANd stEWpit & usElEss & i DAMNED evryOne fOr it. I damNed evryonE who cAusEd ma pAin. NO. IM nOT lEtting gO of anythiNK. i want REVENGE. YES. I WAN TO
AVENGE for every single tear i shed, evry drop of blood that flows out of ma skin and every seconds of my worry and thoughts that made me confused of maself. VENGEANCE, im FULL of it. U better watch out. FREAKING FREAKOS!
i wAnna KILL HIM. i wanna KILL HER. And then, i will tAke oUt mA heArt and pUt em aWay. Only then, will i find peAce & serenity. LAME SHIT!!! FREAK UH!!
-_Go and eAt ur oWn fLeSh._-
* 2/17/2008 03:06:00 PM
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heyyyyyyaaaa'LL!!
And sO.. yEstErday was ThursDay. or if u wAnna heAr it, it was ValEntiNe's Day. hAaha. And sO, it also mArk the day of my laSt paper fOr commoN teSt! yeAh.. sOo, thiS wEek the whOle wEek bEen bUsy wif eNdLess rEvisioOn and hey, i mUst say the thorough revision and note-taking on my oWn effOrt did pAy off. 1st tiMe ever, the pApers wEre DoabLe. yUpp. Thank GOD. hOwever, i shAll nOt bE over coNfidEnt thAt iM gOna sCore weLL. whAt if i cRap alOt?? hAaha.. but, for me, the most hEadache paper is the last paper LitErature. i gOt a bAd hEAdache dOing thAt papEr. seriOusLy. bUt oh weLL, it's done & over. hMmm..
And sO, afta the laSt papEr, met my twO Valentine dates! hAaha.. one is my nEw mAde fRen, the other is my lOver! hOhOho! aCtually, we diDnt cElebrate V' Day lar, wE just wEnt oUt tO hAve luNch aS weLL as to cElebrate the end of cOmmOn teSt! yEstErday waS gOod! wE rEaLLy iNduLge oUrseLves in sinfuL dElights! i had chEesE mUshroOm prAta wif my lOver and Mr V had bEe hOon gorEng daging wif tEh tariks! woOohOo! oh wAit, my lOver drank ice lemon teA. hOmemade. hEhe.. it waSnt niCe. well, tO me lar. coz, i dun like iced lemon tea. haaha. afta the niCE yuMMy lUnch, i gOt tO 'waSh my eyes' on suM ppL who waS at the place tOo! hAaha.. after crappIng, jOkin, eAtin, drinKin, 'waShin eyes', bloWin kiSses (hhAaaha!!), we finaLLy wENt tO coFfEebEan tO hAve our dEssert. MUDPIE CHOC CAKE! it waS wArmed up. vEry thE niCE! vEry chOcolatEy! And, well, i mAde a foOL of maseLf nfroNt of the Coffeebean's manager. hE tOok ma ordEr, thEn aSked if i wanna warm up, den i was blurr. i waS like ' hUh? warm up...' dEn i lOok at my lOver, den my lOver said ' ya ya, wArm it up. haha' hAaha! oh, sO the chOc cake hAd tObe wArmed up sO that the chOc meLts. LoL. i ddidnt nOe that! And the mANager whiCh is this Malay guy, smiLed and damn, i waS reAlly pAiseh. Grrr! But he was kinda cUte though.. hAaha!! den had the dessert.. damn nice lar i tell u. it's really a SINFUL INDULGENT! hAaha!
dEN.. we all fEel kinda tired and sO decided tO heAd hOme. in thE MRT, wAh.. we Crap alot and it waS jUst fUnny and fun! mAkin fuN of pEopLe and aLL.. hAaha!! aftEr sENdin my frEn hOme, i n my lOver wEnt baCk tO our pLacE at thE dEforeStated jungle, CHoa Chu Kang. LoL. alOng the way.. we taLk and taLk n taLk. My lOver was tired of taLkin wif mE. hAhaa! thEre was sOOo mUch tO updatE & talk abOut. NeverthEless, wE rEally enjOyed oUrseLves! Thanks gUys for mAkin thE day an enjOyable onE! LovE u bOth! :D
-And so, our 2nd yr celEbratin V'day! :D-
* 2/15/2008 01:16:00 PM
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hOlaa!!!
oh well oh well! look whAt i've gOt! MY NAPFA TEST RESULT lar seh!! hAaha! let's sEe! :D
STANDING BROAD JUMP
Passing diStance: 165cm
Ma resuLt: 170cm (wOOhooo!)
SIT & REACH
Passing diStance: above 48cm to get 'A'
Ma resuLt: 53cm (wOohOo again!)
Sit Up
Passing: above 35 to get 'A'
Ma resuLt: 43 (yeSssa! ma fAVourite lar! hAaha)
2.4Km RUN
Passing time: 16 mins 20 sec
Ma resuLt: 15mins 4 sec (yEAhhhaaaa!! i ran fOr ma life ok! hAaha!)
Pull Up
Passing: 8
Ma resuLt: 27 ( seriOusLy i duno hw i did it. tO tel u d truth, i really suCk at it! i had problems doin it since pri sch! really! hAaha! gUess HE helped me!)
Shuttle Run
Passing: to get A is 11 sEc
Ma resuLt: 10.08sEc (woW!! i didnt believe it maseLf! i rEally thot iM gona get 12 sec or mayb 11seconds plus due to mA bABats! but again, luck was on ma side i must say! luck is on ma baCkside! hEehe!!)
OveraLL: 4 As, 2 Ds!
yay! iM really prOud of mAseLf for hAvin done thus fAr! it is gOna be my laSt NAPFA teSt ever! sOo yeAh, congrAts Shai N. SR!! yay! And oUh, i muSt thAnk GOD for he grAnted ma wiSh of bEin able tO do well for the physical fitness test! THANK GOD!! And thAnk u sOOo very mUch for aLL ur sUpport and chEers to me while i was dOin the teSts & even b4 the teSts! i lOve all ma friends lOts!! yay! :D :D :D
-_ it's the fiNaL test. i did it! greAt stUff MYstiC! ooOoo!_-
* 2/04/2008 11:04:00 PM
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heyy heyy.. it's bEen a awHile since i bLOg.. well.. kindA cAught up wiF eNdLeSs sCh stUff and soMe sOciaL uPheaving.. well, ok, lets not mAke it soUnd soo bAd. Hmm..
i wud like tO wish HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY TO MA ONE & ONLY BAIHAKKI KHAIZAN!!! ( his bday was on 31 Jan!) i liKE u & i stiLL dO! it'S bEen ! )6yrs nOw dudE! hAhaa
1stLy, skoOL subjeCts. lEts sEe..
-GEOGRAPHY: i fEel thAt i enjOy stUdyin gEog nOwAdays.. thOu itS aLOt of crAp bUt it iS intEreStin, u nOe, disCovEr suMtink nEw evEry day in leSson.. i likE it. yUp.
-ECONOMICS: oUh gOat, i tiNk i've neglECted Econs for sum time nOw.. i dunO maN, the suBj jUS dun soUnds intEreStin anyMore.. hmm.. i sEem tO bE slACkin in ECons. i nOe its bAd bUt well.. i jus dUn likE thE subj nOw. it suCks.
- LITERATURE: woOo.. oK, i mUSt say, im imprOvin hell of alOt for dis sUbject. EspeCiaLLy on the NoveL Pride & Prejudice... tiNkin of Mr. Darcy makes mE drOoL... hAHa.. ok ok, diSguStin. LoL. BUt i yEAh, i mUSt sAy im enjOyin every Lit leSson nOwadays.. hMM..i fEel thAt im mOre invOlved in the leSsons.. well. kiddOs tO me! :D
-GENERAL PAPER: gOat! i've fLung! real bad! weLL, i've diSappOint nOt onli mAseLf bUt my tuTor as weLL. Mr Yew muSt be reAlli disAppOinted in mE for nOt dOin weLL in thE tiMed eSsay aSsignmEnt. oh weLL, i bEttEr dO ma tHing & sCore fOr GP liKe i usEd tO!! grr!
-MANDARIN: well, yEAh, dErs dis Mandarin claSs gOin on in sCH..coz we tOok oUr MT papErs alReady.. hMm.. the leSsons wEre gOod.. pOliShin my mAndarin prOnOunciAtion eaCh wEek..hOwever, i tiNk it's quitE drAggy.. 3 pEriOds? urGh. tOo lOng. shOrtEn it.
Next up, mA sOcial lyfE.
- Got tO kNow a nEw persOn in sCh. well.. everything's cOoL uNtiL rEcEntLy whEn hE stArts expreSSin hiS fEelings tOwArds mE and aLL. wOrSe, mA othEr frEns arE invOlved aS weLL. well.. i appreciAte thE frEnship bUt it sEems likE.. hE's onE coNfuSed aSs. Must tEAch hiM suM stuff. My twin hAd donE suM tEAchin abt girLs perceptiOns to guys bEhAvioUr. Hope he gets it in hiS miNd. The reSt, we'll see hOw it gOes. hMmm... And hE aSked mE tO... well.. hE's wAitin for an ansWer frm mE abOut suMtink.. i diDnt gif him any aNsWer. we'll sEe abt it.
- Oh hOw i miSs My DX darLingS sOo bLArdy mUCh! Those DX bABes hAf bEen mSg-ing mE and wAnts a sOcca trg soOn & mEetings... hMmz.. wE'll hAf DX gathErin soOn ryte gaLs! i'll proMisE thAt!
- i miSs soMe ppL sOo muCh. They arE ZiLah! NakiAh! ErNie! FaLey! im miSsin u babEs hell of alOt!!
- My coUzin Hidayah! My ex claSsmatEs Lynn, Amira Syazliana and all othErs! i hOpe u gUys arE dOin grEat & enjOy lyfE! drOp mE a mSG sOon oKayz? :D
-SEc 2/6 GAthEring..i wana gOo! bUt heck, im hAvin CCA camp on thOse dates! oh well.. i wud lOve tO cAtchups wif u ppL soOn!
- ANd And ANd.. jus 1 fiNaL thing.. i wAnna gEt tO knOw suMoNE bEttEr.. well.. hE's mA MT claSsmates laSt yr.. and thOu he aLways sit behind me.. we dun hAf mUch chAnce tO taLk.. and sOo.. i wud like tO nOe him bEtter.. iNsyALLAH.. :D
FiNaLLy, i wUd wAnna say tO AMY, FARA, NIRWANI,NADIAH,RIDZMAN,SALIHIN..
U gUYs arE loVEd by mE evry single day. thAnks fOr bEing by mA side everyday. i trEaSure u aLL very mUCh. :D
wEll..nOw.. iM fReezin.. its bEen a vEry cold wEek... i tiNk iM gOnA bE siCk tMr.. jUS fEelin thE signs... aarrggh. oUh weLL, tMr iS a nEw day.. U gUys tAke carE of ur heaLth & stay chEerfuL aite! Hope FEBRUARY brings us luck n hAppineSs! :D dAaaa!
-_it's frEezin cOLd..._-
* 2/03/2008 08:04:00 PM
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