aN AWFUL TRUTH. caNt bElievE thAt yOu arE likE dat.didNt xpECt it at aLL. jUdgEd yA wrOngLy.1St tiMe evEr, wROng jUdgEmeNt frM ME. u brOkE thE reCord. cOngrAts. sO wAt nOw? fEel likE KILLIN yOu. oUh wAit, why sHUd i bOthEr? suMonE caN heLp mE kiLL u. in faCT, alOt of GUys wAna kiLL u. sO, YOU, bE prEparEd. gUd lUCk iN liVin'. bAdBye.
u fuGly crEatuRe.
-_ thEre is a BLESSING in evrytInk thAt happEns_-
* 7/21/2007 05:25:00 PM
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hOla! weLL wELL.. tOday.. i foUnd oUt an aWfuL truth abt hIM... weLL.. i reAlly sympAthize wif hiS conditIOn.... i wiSh i cUd heLp... bUT... hMm....
anywAyz... i guEss hE's finAlly tryin tO gEt baCK on traCk.. weLL, fiNally aftA 4 dAys, hE convErsE wif mE agAin... & thAnk gOd aLhamdulilah, i guEss hE's finE nOw... i hOpE hE will stAy tt way.. InsyALLah... hMM... i really hOpE ur aLright & pLs, duN dO thAt anymOre, duN makE mE worried for u anymOre.. wiLL u? hMM....
Ouh...onE mOre thIng...iM in diLemmA..agaiN... gRrrr.. i hAtE diLemmAs...bUt iTs iNevitabLe... weLL.. yeAh... hMM... guEss i gOtta dO aLOT mOre tHinking & reaSoning... hMM...
anyways, thiS sOng...weLL.. suMhow, it says it aLL... sOoo.. weLL, sorry if it sOunds scAry or nOt tO ur kinda gENrE... bUt i likE thiS sOng sO u've gOt nO chOicE but tO liStEN tO it..hAaha.. it's gOthiCroCk by thE wAy.. yEah...weLL, tMr's mOnday, sCH stArts @ 9aM. & dEr's rEhEArsaL for rAciAl hArmOny dAy tMr @ 5pM.. grRrr.. hOpefuLLy evrytHink turns oUt fiNe... yeah.. tiLL hERe, shAi signin oFF!
-_MiSsing?GoNe?Or....aVoidiNg?_-
* 7/16/2007 12:01:00 AM
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Hhmmmmm...
hMMmm....hMMm...hmmmMm.......................
yEs, iM tInkin, tiNkin reAL hArd.............. bUt i duN sEEm tO bE abLe tO fiNd an anSwEr....hMmmmm.......weLL.... shUd i stOp tiNking? & start tO igNorE evrytInk? hMm...is thAt thE beSt sOlutiOn? or iS thAt bein irrEspOnsibLe? iM confUsEd. yEt again....grRrrr.....
-_ wAt iSsit? hMm..wAt happEn nOw?_-
* 7/14/2007 11:48:00 PM
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OKoK.. soOO mAny INTERESTING STUFF happEned tOdAy! sCH-cERtprEsEntAtiOn,CCA-ganda skiLLs & HP datE wif 1/3 oF DX babEs! yAY!! HAf tOtaL fUn & lAfftEr! i lOvE the FOC *(Full Of Craps)girLs! hAahA! :D
anywAy.. yEAh.. wAt zilAh sAid is tRuE... thEsE 7 gUys mUst bEen doIn sUM illEgal gAThErin bEhind my baCk & dEn aLL dEcidEd tO surPrisE mE by cOmin baCk tO my lyfE onE by onE... hAaha! thANks uH ziLAh! 7 sEh! wAlAO! i giF u 5 lAr, i tAkE 2 oni cann? hAaha!
anywAys..wEn i tHot tt i'vE soLved thiS iSsue regArdin rElAtiOnship, anOthEr kips comin in... & in hAvin a 2nd tHot of whEthEr tO aCCEpt thE frENship baCk or juS lEAve it.... GOD, shOw mE soME sIgNs pLS. tHank U..
And onE mOre thIng, thE onli pErsOn iM hOpin fOr has gOne miSsing, bUt thE peOplE thAt i viEwed aS bUMs kip bOtHerin my lifE. wAt thE tOOt..... gRrrrr....hMM.. nOW, mOrE tHinkin hAf tO bE doNE, mOrE quEstiOnin, mOrE reaSonin, mOre gUEsSin & morE... enErgy bEin uSEd uP. oUh weLL, i gUEss i bEttEr rEChargE my ENErgy nOw.. hMm..
-_wOndEr,wOndEr,wOndEr..._-
* 7/14/2007 01:23:00 AM
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HELLoOo reAdErs! weLL, i juS nid 3 miNs of uR tiMe tO heLp mE in my prOjeCt woRk surVey...i wUd really appreciatE it if u cAn heLp tO dO thiS lil sUrvEy.. thAnk yOu vEry muCh fOr ur tiMe! i lOve yA'LL! ;D
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* 7/13/2007 12:03:00 AM
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hMm.... i lOvE escApE! i lOve the INVERTER!! woOoohOO!
oKok... nOw, baCk tO my intEnded entry.... entitLed
'INCOMPLETE & MISSING'
hAf u evEr feEl incOmplEte? incomplEte abt Evrythink, rAnging fRm ur lovE life, family lyfe, urself... weLL, u jUs hAf thE sEnsE of iNcOmplEtE in u, u fEel aS if suMtink is MisSin'...haf u??
weLL, i hAf. & thE maddEnin thIng is thAt, u dUnnO wAt is miSsing. & u duNo hOw tO complEte thAt sEnsE of iMcOmplEtE-nEss in yOu. sO, wAt iS aCtually miSsin in ur lyfE rytE noW? wAt makEs u fEel inComplEtE? iS dEr suMtink miSsing? rEally? wat iSit? hMm... sUmtiMes, u juS dUn fEel sAtiSfiEd wif wAt u've gOt. & hENcE, u fEel likE u wAn mOre of sumtink & thAt makEs u fEel a sEnse of iMcomplEte.... hMm.....
-_Why dO u likE makin mE wonDer?hMM.._-
* 7/10/2007 10:52:00 PM
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hey hey! the awAited diNner & thE aWaited mEetin wAS fiNaLLy dOne!! yAy! :D
heehE.. had a sUMptOus mEaL at bEACh rD juS nOW wif thE 'FRIENDS'! hAAha! i atE a fried ricE & it tASte sUPErdElicious! Amy had dry bEefSTicks whilE fAra & i'in hAd bEefStiCk wif kuAh.. niCE lArh! wAni bOught sAtay whilE mAmAn bOught friEd bEehOon nOodLe! yUMmy! weLL.. duriNg thE diNNEr, wE had sOo muCh lAff! haha! wE hAd a gOod mEaL dOn't wE? hAaha! i lOve 'em!! hMm, aftA thAt wE stOpby thE eSplAnadE & thE bAy..niCE brEeZe.. hAd a hEArt tO heArt taLk wif 'em.. & weLL, thE joke of thE day, by FARA fOr bEliEvin mAman abOut thE mEdiCs hAvin tO rUn thROugh thE lOng strEtch of path tO gEt tO thE mArChing spaCes! hAaha! daMn funny lAr...imAginE thE mEdICs reAlly hAf tO dO that, it's a LOng lOng wAy! hAaha.. i guEss wEn thE mediC finally arrive, the casuaLty wUd hAf erm.. u nOe.. hAaaha! oUh weLL, i reALLy reaLLy enjOyed thE diNnEr! weLL, thAt iS bcOz, i hAd suCH a lOving & cAriNg cOmpAny! i lOvE thE 'FRIENDS'! i reAlly trEasUre thE mOments wE aLL shAred juS nOw! it waS speCiaL & niCe, oncE agaiN, THANKS FRIENDS! i thAnk GOD fOR crEAtin suCh fUn ppL fOr mE tO hAng oUt wif! i trEaSurE our frEnships larh.. weLL, tiLL thE neXt oUtiN, tAkE cArEoOooo MAN,I'IN,RA,NAH,NI! hEehe.. lOves! :D :D :D :D :D :D
*nOt iN piC : NAd! hEehe.. weLL shE cUdnt jOin uS 4 dis dinNer, whiCh is sOO sad! coz i badLy wAna sEe hEr... hVn bEen sEeing hEr sincE thAt iNcident.. anywAyz, wE shaLL mit duriNg sCh & aLso nxt sAturdAy fOr a spEciaL oCcasIOn kAy NAd! hEehe.. lOves! :D
=_Ok, hALf my buRdEn sEttLed!LovE thE FRIENDS!_=
* 7/07/2007 12:09:00 AM
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oUh grEAt! yeAh! thAnkS tO aLL! aarrggghh!!
weLL, sOO mANy thIngs hAppEned ovErnight! whY arE aLL thEsE gUys rEturnin tO my lifE nOw? aLL thE guyS fRM my paSt, whY arE u aLL back nOW??? wAt dO u gUYs wAnt? wHy u aLL bOthEr mE? i duN bOthER anymOre abt u aLL larh OKay?? gET it?? grrrrr! i hAF enuff pROblem larh ok, & noW thAt u aLL arE baCK, AT THE SAME TIME suMorE!!! whhhAaaaaaaat!! waaAaa.. i caNt takE it anymORe mAn, GIF SHAIKAH NURULAIN A BREAK! OK!! A BREAK!!!!!!!
And U, u wOmAN! liStEN uP! whY arE u wAtCHin my evEry mOvE?? WHy arE u sOo kAYpo? wHy u wAnna nOE wAt i dO & whEre i gO? iM irritAtEd by ur aCtiOns & pRobings lArh oK!! ENUFF IS ENUFF! gET it?? i fEeL likE a PRISONER! sEriOusLy lArh... whY cAnt u juS lEt mE dO my tHings & stOp watChin my every mOVe, CAN or NOt? . u Dunid tO stARE at mE likE thAt larh! iM jUS sEarChin my tHings, PERsoNaL bEloNgings. ThAt's aLL. i dunid ur heLp wAt! if i nid dEN i wiLL aSk U larh! grrrrrrr!!! OK, fRm nOw oN, STOP MESSIN aROUND wif my StUffs! OK? CAN? CAN OR NOT? wAAaaaaaaa!
onE aftER anOthEr! wAt shitCrapz is thAt?! & it aLL hAppEn OVERNIGHT! gRrrrr!!!!
=_iM adMittin myseLf iN IMH sOon._=
* 7/06/2007 02:25:00 PM
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why? why arE u doin dis tO mE? wAt's ur mOtivE? why? why arE u mAkin my lifE heLL? why why why why??!! WHY?! WHY?WHY!! WHy?? WHy?! wHy! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY why why why why why why why why?!!!!!???!!!!!!!!!!
whY? why? why?
=_iM loSt,cOnfusEd,mAd,agaiN._=
* 7/05/2007 12:41:00 AM
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WAT DE HELL???!!!!
oKay, i juS foUnd oUt sumtiNk. He jUS dEleted hiS aCCount. wAsSsup sEh?? nOt happy uH? hAaha! fuNny fuNny jOkEr. & hEy dude, u've gOne miSsin fOr 3 days. yeS. 3 days & nytes. waSsup sEh? tK lOgiC! yEAh.. itS sOOoo illoGiCaL. hMm, gOt prob shArE wif mE lar, dun juS gO MIA lar.. alAmaK. thAt onE oSo i nid tO teaCh uH? hAaha.. fuNny funny jOker.
weLL, wAtEver it is, i nOe wat tO dO now. yeAh, i nOe wAt tO dO aLready. i tiNk i cAn sOLve onE of my prOb alreAdy. thAnkS tO thiS fuNny fUnny jOkEr. hAahA. thAnks Uh. thANks aLot! :D & i hOpe ur aLright. yUpp.
=_So why does your pride make you run and hide?_=
* 7/04/2007 02:09:00 AM
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aLL right! MYE iS ovA! like FINALLY!!
yeAh... sOo.. wAt's nEXt? yEAh, iM gOnna pUt up thE piEcEs of jigsAws aroUnd my life baCk intO a fuLL coMplEte pOrtrAit. yEAh, iM gOnna dO juS thAt. Life hAs bEen a diSturbin & dEprESsin onE foR mE & fOr surE, i did brEakdWn a lil bit. a bAd onE? yEs. i dUn wAnna entangle myseLf back intO thE web of dEprESsion. nEver Ever Again! i hAd enuff in my grOwin up yeArs & i dUn wAn hiStOry tO repEat itseLf. nOt again! DEPRESSION sUCks! reAL bad! bUt it's iNevitaBLe if ur in my shOE. it juS kip cOmin baCk tO u. thE more u rUn aWay, thE more it hAunts u. jUS likE sOmE fAirytaLe: STEPMOM is a wiCked thing on eArth & shE wiLL abUsE u, buLLy u, hit u, bitE u, sCreWed ur life up untiL FINALLY, a priNcE chArmin reScuE u fRm thE heLL of livin wif that wiCked witCh & dEn live happiLy ever aftEr w/o anymOre wiCked/tErriblE thIngs hAppen tO u.
hA hA hA. WAT A FAIRYTALE THAT IS. & wE aLL love thAt, dont we? wE jUS wiSh soOo muCh fOR thAt kinda hAppy ending, yEAh? & hey, bE rEALIStiC. Not aLL STEPPAREnt arE wiCked. soME chiLdren grEW up heaLthily wif thEir stEp-pArent. THey duN complAint mUCh abt it. coz, they arE happy. & that wAs wAt i tHought initiaLLy. They arE nOt wiCked sOuLs thAt thE fairytaLes pOrtrayed thEm aS. & thEy caN giF u lOts of hAppinEss. thEy wiLL carE 4 u, lOve u & pamPEr u juS likE ur biOlogicaL parEnts. tHey LOVE u. hA hA hA hA ha hA ha hA!!!!! wAt aM i doin hEre? iM typin oUt HELLAvaLot of shitcrAps! kAkakakaka! sOrry tO thoSe whO hAf stEp dad or stEpmOm livin wif u. iM nOt tryna mAnipuLatE u or wAtSoever shitz okAy. iM jUs quEStionin thE loGiC bEhind fAirytaLes. of Couz of coUZ, FAIRYTALES arE nOt lOgiCaL. TK LOGIC!! yEAh? hahaA.. oKok, U & U & u thEre,gEt baCk tO wOrk.& if u hAf a stEppArent, kiriM salAm aku pat diE oRg ok? hAahAa.. hAvE a pEaCefuL & bliSsfuL & bLooDyfOoL timE livIn wif ur stEppArEnt okAy! takE reAli gUd carE of urseLf. i sAy, TAKE rEALly GOOD carE of URSELF.
baSiCLy, wAt iM trynA say iS, aftEr diS XM shitz, iM gonnA gEt baCk tO aLL thE otHEr shitz thAt hAppened duRing thEsE pEriOd of my lifE. iM gOnna soLve thEm, 1 by 1. GEt thEm doNE & ovEr wif. aftA that, iM gonA takE suM timE off tOo cOoL myseLf dWn & induLge in suM siNfuL dElights. oUh, nO nO, i duN nid ur cOmpAny. iM bettEr off alOne. yEAh.. thAnks anywAy. U & u & u tHEre, hAf a gREat dAy ahEad. thAnks foR spEndin ur prEcioUs minUtes tO reAd abt my LeMaO enTry. thAnk U.
=_ Ur iN deniaL u arSe. Tk LOgiC!_=
=_ i adMire hiM alOt. yeS. i likE GINO._=
* 7/04/2007 01:27:00 AM
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HELLoOo reAdErs! weLL, i juS nid 3 miNs of uR tiMe tO heLp mE in my prOjeCt woRk surVey...i wUd really appreciatE it if u cAn heLp tO dO thiS lil sUrvEy.. thAnk yOu vEry muCh fOr ur tiMe! i lOve yA'LL! ;D
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* 7/02/2007 11:57:00 AM
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OUh weLL.. iM in DILEMMA. yeS, u sAw it riGht. DILEMMA.
hMm... i duNo wAt aM i sUppoSe tO dO nOw... iM onCE agaiN bEin stRuCk wif UNHAPPY iNcidEnts. yEs, oNce agAin! wAt da heLL iS thiS?? wHy aM i sufFering again?? y iSsit nvr eNdin?? oUh ya, SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING dAd, yeAh... wAtEVer.
M1 BUGS me & kip aSkin mE abt IT. M3 thiNks iM hAvin lOve/relAtiOnship prObs. My stEpmOm iS shOwin AttitUdEs. My dad iS thrOwin tAntruMs. My fREns arE faCin thEir own probs. my SistErs arE bUsy wif thEir owN lives. & iM suffErin frM thE consequEnces of aLL the abOve stAtEments.
iM juS siCk of hAvin tO tiNk abt oThErs b4 maseLf. why cAnt i juS lEad a hAppy life w/o tOo mUCh wOrries likE my othEr frieNds? aM i madE tO facE aLL thEse nEver-eNdin chAllEngEs? i hAd eNuff oKay. iM tirEd. iM fAtigUe. iM jUs siCk. i dUn wAna tiNk abt anymOre sOlutiOns tO any proBlEms that oCCur. NOT ANYMORE. ENOUGH.
hA hA hA, aS if iTs that siMplE Shaikah. AS IF. u cAnt pOssibLy igNore evrytiNk thAt is hAppEnin aroUnd u, u cant! bCoz, it involvEs YOU. U arE onE of thE mAin prOtagoniSt in ur life story. u cAnt avoid thAT. u cAnt chg thAt. u hAf tO accEpt it. u hAf tO deaL wif it. nO mAttEr wAt. u hAF tO stAnd strOng & prOve thAt u caN lEad a bEtter liFe thAn b4. And u wiLL aSk, ' but hOw? hOw aM i gOnA stAy stRong fOrever?' And u wiLL continUE by sAyin ' iM nOt a rObot. & iM reAlly tireD of aLL thiS shitz.' hA hA hA. tHat's ur bUsinEss shAikAh. fiGure oUt urseLf. i caNt heLp U. iM jUS ur shAdOw. i juS fOllow u whErever u gO & suppoRT u in wAtEvEr u dO. i caNt prOteSt. i cANt oPposE. U decidE evrytiNk shAikah. iM iNvolvE in ur lifE story bUt i cAnt dO anytHing tO heLp u. i jUS dun hAf tHE abiLity toO. u gEt wAt i meAn? iT's u. it's juSt u. MaybE, u caN gEt heLp frOm sumOnE. suMonE thAt is wiLLing tO shArE hiS/hEr lifE wif U. somEonE thAt cAres & loVe u. somEonE thAt iS ablE tO chg ur lifE stOry intO a fAirytaLe wif a HAPPY ENDING. yeS. tt's wat i tiNk. thAT's wat ur shAdOw tiNks. And u will say, ' bUt whO? whO iS thAt pErsOn? or iSsit evEn a huMan?cAn it be any gEniE or a mutAnt or a wiZard? nO onE cAn chg my life, ShadOw. No oNe. iM borN tO livE in thiS coMplicatEd wOrLd & tO faCE aLL thE troUblEs. MOST of thE tiMe, i hAf tO eNdurE thE shitz alOnE. Shadow, ur arE USELESS. stop fOllowin ME. gO drOwn urseLf in thE rEd sEa or suMtink. i dun wAnna sEe u anymOre. gET it? U FREAK. gET oUt of my lifE. ur a jiNx. daMn.'.
So fOr nOw, gO slap urseLf 3 tiMes on eacH sidE & bAng ur heAd 10 tiMes againtS thE waLL. & thEn,u wiLL fEeL bEtter. trUst mE, ur shAdOw. .
& i shAll onCE again deCidE if i wAnna fOlloW ur sUggEstiOn, ShadOw. i wiLL tiNk abOut it.
-_DOUBTFUL behAviOur. MorBit iMaginAtiOns.SupprESsed LIFE._-
* 7/01/2007 01:41:00 AM
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