yAy! yeSterday hAd diNNer wif HEALER,HUNTER and KNIGHT! wEnt tO siMpang bEdok tO eAt.. dis is oUr 2nd tiMe gOin dEr fOr dinnEr for ME,HUNTER & HEALER.. very dEliciOus fOod! and dis time aroUnd, wE ordEred sum sAtay and itS rEAlly niCE! thE guY whO sErved us wEre aLso kinda cute. hOhoHo.. ok, wE sMiLed at eAch othEr and thAt's aLL. hAaha.. anyway, ME & HUNTER dEcided thAt thE nxt tiMe wE gO dER tO eAt, wE shall sit @ the yeLLow area & try thEir fOod. (so aS tO avOid fAvOuritiSm) hEehe.. and aLL of tHE LUMiNORIAnz MUST be dER during oUr nxt viSit tO thAt makan pLace ok! :D
neXt up, i jUS wAnna exprEss ma concErn abt thiS guyfrEn of mine. wE usEd tO be gOodfrEns and wE rEgArd ourseLves as bro and sis kinda r/ship. aLthough thEre wEre diffErEncial thinking and attitude, we stiLL gOin on fiNe & aLways heLp each othEr in times of nEed coz wE can reLate our expEriences and shAre our stOries. But now, it sEems like thAt spiCe is gOne. we no lOnger taLk or evEn exchAnge sMiLes wen wE sEe eAch othEr. i duno why. iSsit mE or iSsit hiM? or iSsit nAturaL for us huMan tO behAve like strAngers tO our once close bUddies? or iSsit due tO undER some circumstAnces thAt dun allOw us bOth tO gEt baCk as wAt we wEre? If its mE, thEn i wUd wAna express ma sincEre apology bUt i dunO wAt i did wrong. rEally. If its hiM, thEn i wAna say thAt he sHudnt rEAct that wAy juS bcOz hE cUdnt gEt wAt he wAnts. *sigh*
Anyway, i miSs soMe ppL very mUch. Adit is one, it's bEen sOo very a lOng tiMe since wE laSt lepAk @ the SC and do oUr taLkin & teasing. hAaha! i miSs thAt alOt. And nExt is ma cuzzin Hidayah. i hOpe ur doIng gOod cuzz! i sOo wAna mit her & cAtchup on aLot of thiNgs. And Roz, i hOpe ur stAyin strong & hAppy wif hiM.
And tO ma MI mates: Fadzleen, i rEalli miSs u babe! whEr r u noW?wAt r u uptO huh.. hAaha! :D Nelly & ShArifah, will defiNiteLy rEmEmber u gaLs aS part of my freNLy cLaSsmates and mAy u bOth be hAppy wif wat ur dOin in fUture! :D
And just 2 days aFter ma 19th birthday, things get oUt of hAnd. was down wif a rEally rEally bad fLu & sore sore thrOat. 3 days off sCh. laCk of rEviSon. bEd-ridden. wAt happEn? i duNo. ppl say its thE seAson of bEing siCk. bUt thAt sounds rathEr cliChe iSnt it? hMm..lEt's pray for thE bEtter. and thAnks tO aLL of thOse kind hEarted frieNds of minE hu wiShed & prAyed for my spEedy rEcovery! thANks alOt once again! it hElped tO put a smIle on ma face & made me more Disciplined tO tAke ma meds on tiMe & reguLarly so tt i cAn rEcupErate faST. :D
abOut siLat, hMm... thEr's sOo muCh gOin on. i duNo wher tO bgin. anyway, lEt's just taLk abOut mE. i was rEally rEally diSappOinted at maseLf for nOt dOin up tO ma abiLity during thE trg on fri. it is true that our tRainin becoMes mOre intEnsive each day and i dun mind thE high intEnsity driLLs coz it is doNe tO benefit us. However, thE fact tt i cUdnt pUll it off well and thAt i was on mEdicAtion thE whole of laSt wEek makes me fEel like a tOtaL weAkling. i waS dEhydrated, lOw gLucose leveL and laCk of oxygen on laSt friday. Yes. it was thAt bad. that wast the first tiMe ever i cudnt coNtiNue trg. sEriOusLy oUt of fOcus and low eneRgy. i nEarLy fAinted when this angel came and attend tO me iMmediAteLy. She saved me froM a miShap. thaNk yOu dEarest Siti Aminah. bUt stiL, i fElt like im a wEak persOn afta tt incident. seEms like iM loSing my energy & strEngth slOwLy as days paSsed. it sEems like iM nOt thE oLd stroNg brAve energetic Shai tt i was befOre. whAt happEned? im nOt sure maseLf. thIngs likE very actiVe physical stuff dun usuAlly hinder mE frm anything bUt nOwadays, i fEel like iM lOSing ma grip. iM reaLLy diSappOinted wiF myseLf. *sigh*anyway, prEsident chOse thE coAch, wE agrEed on hiM. But thE teachers arE stiL delibErAting abOut thE approVaL of hiM being our coAch. why sEh?! bytheway, i do lOok up tO thE coAch as his prEsEnce rEally mOtivate us further and his tEachings are like an eye-opEner for us tO back up and gEt sEriOus and coNtiNue moving and never cEase or adMit dEfEat. Thanks tO the coaCh! thE yr 2s attendance nEed tO be bruShed up sEriOusLy. thE yr 1s nEed tO bE rEAlly disCipLined. thE sEnIors nEed tO bE back on trAck & suPport each othEr likE how wE usEd tO if wE wAnna succEed. thAt's aLL i cAn say for nOw abOut siLat. i hoPe thIngs wiLL get bettEr for me & aLL. iNsyALLAh. aMeen.
okayy. another thIng tt bOthers ma mind is this,DLF VS IVP. Both are hapPenin in JUNE. whiCh shud i focus on? i wAnna go for DLF of coUz, dun wAnna miSs pLayin it since i had jOin it since 3 yrs agO. on thE othEr hand, i cAnt miSs IVP. its my laSt yeAr iN this martiaL art tErtiary levEl. i wAnna fight for my sch,my teAm & for myseLf. the bOttom line is, im intEreSted in bOth coMpEtitiOns. BUt, dis yr is a crUcial yEAr & i nOe i cAnt dO all at once. i hAve tO sAcrifice suMthink cOz i nEed tO spEnd tiMe on A levels sbUjects tOo. So.... ShAi!! pLs dECide ASAP!! grrr!
and sO, iM in a diLemma + iM not satiSfied with wAt's hAppEnin tO me and aLso wAt's gOin on around mE. i obServe suM things arnd me and iM quite diSturbed by thE lack of reSpect & mAtUrity tt suM pEople are showing and bLame othErs for their discipLinary aCtiOns & miScOndUct. *sigh*
aLright! yEstErday hAd dinner wif mA belOved LUMINORIANZ!
thE dinnEr wAs sOo cOoL! after oUr littLe jOkes n chAts, thEy prEsEnted me wif a shining bLack & whitewAtCh! wOw!! i waS ovErwhElmed wif jOy! i lOve thE wAtch! its sOO nice! tHANKs buddies! sadLy, i wAs abit siCk during thE idinnEr pLus thE hEavy rAin... it rEally mAde me siCk. and soO... nOw.. iM doWn wif sOrethRoat & fLu.. :(
wAsnt fEelin well... haiz.. caNt go to skOoL.. and jus now, my friEnd accOmPanied me tO the doc. thE polyclinic.wAited for aLmost 2hrs before evrything ends. hAiz. i hate tt pLace aLright. fuLL of siCk oLdies and inEffieCient Nurses... grr! LuckiLy ma fRiend was thEre wif mE and hence we chAtted chAtted & chATted untiL ma turn arrived. And i gOt 2days MC, tt mEAns, cAnt attEnd siLat trg tMr! And im gOna miSs seEin ma frEns tOo! and hiM tOo. and now, i fEel soo wEak. hVn had ma lunch... nO appEtite rEally. anyway, THANKS tO ma dEareSt gentLemAn frIend for ur coMpany! i apprEciAte it. ANd hE soUnds soOo like a dOctor lar.. give mE advices n aLL. hAaha.. fOr thE 1st tiMe ever, i fEel disciPlined. hAhaa. oKayy, nOw i must eAt ma meds & gEt enuff reSt! buT i hAven hAd anything to eAt..nvrmind lar, jus drink suM hOt sOya. hAaha! tiLL here, ciOw!
hAaaha! this is it!~ thE eNd of mA 18 yrs of Lyfe whiLe i weLcomE thE 19th yEAr wiF a wArm smiLe & a hAppy hEArt! :D
This 18yrs hAs bEen sOoo mEaningfuL tO me. i rEally thAnk ALLAH for giVin me suCh a lOng live and allowed me tO xpErience suCh a wOnderfuL life thus fAr. AlHamduLiLah.. Spendin my birfday today on 22nd March 2008 wif ma fAmm has been grEat! DeliciOus chOcoLate cakE wif Bubur Merah Bubur Putih and a suMptOus mEaL prEpAred by my bELoved aLL! THANKS SISTAZ, BroYankEe,Tante & Abah! i lOve u aLL vEry mUch! *mUacks* After thE mEaL @ hoMe, sUrprises of preSents caME one afta thE othEr aNd iM rEAlly ovErwheLmed bu thOse prEzzies! i Love em aLL! yayy! And i fEel sOOo FEMININE tdy! hAaha! wANna nOe why? aSk me pErsoNally & i wiL tell u! hEehe.. :D
aLso, i wAna shOut oUt lOUd, TO ALL MY LOVELY FRENS whO WISHED ME, THANK YOU FOR REMEMBERING! And i thANk u for ur weLL wiShed & prAyers tOo! :D To tHose whO didnt wiSh mE yet, U STILL HAVE ONE YR TO DO SO! hEehe!! :D
To NORAZILAH: thAnk Q sOO muCh for thE sWensEn's coOkies & cREAm! and thAt lEtter, it tOuched mE alot. And thE song, i enjOyed it! THANKS ma BEstFriEnd of 8 yrs & coUnting! I LOVE U LOTS! :D:D:D
TO RIDZMAN: Thanks for tt wOndErfuL 'prEsEnt'! it'S reAlly bEautifuL! :D
And sOOo.. *lOOkin at thE clocK*, its 11.20pM now.. i hAve exActLy 40mIns bEfore my bIrfday ends! aNd sO, i prAy GOD wiL bLesSed me wif all thE gOodness & aLSo bLess ma frEns & faMiLy wif exceLLent heALth & wOnderfuL life ahEaD!
HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO ME, HAPPIEST 19TH BIRTHDAY TO SHAIKAH NURULAIN... HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO ME!! lOTS OF LoVE, -uR shAdowwz, MyStiQz-
_-thE bright fuLL mOon on ma birfdAy, is a sign..-_
ytd, wEnt fOr CIP @ Jamiyah ChiLdren hOme! A very mEmOrabLe & vaLuabLe expErience i mUst say.. i rEally fEel for da kid dEr.. thEy are sOo sOoo adOrabLe & loveLy.. thEy wiLL kol kakak kakak... can u read for me dis book?' hAaha.. and soo.. me & the reSt of ma cLassmates acted like a prEsch tchr and teLL them the stOries of da bOok they chose..it was fun & i tell u, the twins, Akhbar & Afiz were really inqUisitive! espEciaLLy Afiz! hAaaha.. andthey are super cute chinese bOys! And theres another boy whose name is Rohimi. i bET u whEn they grow up, thEy wiLL be gOod lOokin! hAaha! And the girLs, Siti Nur Hazirah love singing and she can jus cLing on me n nvr lEt gO.. hAaha.. Ana is the yOungest bUt aLso thE kid tt othErs coMpLaint to me abt.. hMmz.. and i can say tt she is sumwhat an attention sEeker coz whEnever i read tO d othEr kids, she wiLL coMe tO me and ask me suM wOrds and proNounciations... hAaha.. and pOor me, i had tO take turns to give ma attentiOn tO and get thEM tO stOp bickering wif each other. :D i dO syMpathise with them & the reSt of da kids there. They dO not hAve a hOme wher thEy can live wif their bLood sibLings & biOlogical pArents unLike us who gOt our own roof tO stay and have our faMiLy members wif us to caLL our own sisters n brOthers. i do lEArnt alOt frm ytd's viSit tO the Jamiyah HoMe. i prAy thAt thE kids wiL bE succesfuL in futUre and thus gain hppineSs & lOve tt they cant get frm their parents frM othErs whO care! such a pity that they are sUffering at such a yOung yOung age. Oh God.. haiz... A very big hUg & lOts of lOve tO AKHBAR,AFIZ,HAZIRAH,ROHIMI,SURI,NADIA & ANA and tO the rest of the kids @ the Jamiyah Children HoMe! Kak Shai wiL viSit u gUys again iNsyaLLah! :D
and tdy, had a soccer game.. quite disappOintin.. lOokin atthe attendance of the pLayers..& the weAther was super super hOt tt we cuDnt kiCk arnd as muCh as we lOve tO. sad sad.. :( However, iM sOoo gLad tt i cUd mit my lOveLy babes tt i sOoo miSsed mUcch again! a shOutoUt tO ERNIE,FALEY,NAKIAH,FIFI,YANTI & ZILAH: i lOve u bABes & hOpe we cAn entEr 2008's DLF as a tEam yEAhz! &to the reSt of DX babes, im miSsin u guys! pLs tUrn up for the nxt trg okayyz! :D
For tt 'him' in ma sCh.. hMmz.. he nvr faiLs tO gif mE a very pLeasant sMiLe & a wAve of 'Hi!' whenever we see each other. iM gLad to know him. And thanks to hiM for his mOtivations. :D
okayy! there is sumtink tt makes me wanna look fOrward to in schooL everyday! hMm...ok, besides miting up ma cLasmates & sch mates & teachers & study, i am lookin forward to see him. yes. hAaha.. And well... he said soMething special to me tt day dUring our convErsation... i was toUched but well.. thats about it! Further updates.. i will pOst sOon! :D
2 guys. one is bEing a big F***Er! anOthEr bEing a big J**K!
i wAnna stAb thEm with a whitE spEar (quoTe frm 10,000 BC movie ok! hEehe) and thEn bEheAd thEm. No. it's nOt thE end yet. i wAna tiE thEm up and rip thEir rib apArt & dEn mince thEir fLeSh and then lEave em in thE jungLe. Let tHE liOns and ElephAnts fEed on thEm! yEs! hAahahaha!! onLy thEn, tHEre will bE pEace. HAaHa!
No no. its not thAt i dun haf mAnners. It's just thAt i hAve a viOlent mAnnEr.. yEAh.. thAT's ryte... hAahaaa! wOoo!
Heyya'LL! wASssuuppp!! hAaha.. yEsssa! jUs caMe baCk frM MeLacca laSt night! yEs! MELACCA! wEnt wif my siLat mAtes fOr suM CuLturaL exchAnge! it waS fUn fun fuN!! sOo.. lEts sEe.
Day 1: ~ BrkfaSft @ Yong Peng ~ Lunch @ TIARA ReStaurant ~ SighsEeing tO Chan Li Poh Well & tEmpLe ~ Dataran Pahlawan Mall ~ Istana Museum ~ Dinner @ a rEstaurant ( wif MELAKA ChENDOL as dEssErt!) ~ Check-in NAZA HOTEL ( sLEpt @ 12 pLus)
Day 2: ~ Morning PT ~ BrkfaSt @ HoteL ( fRied rice, omElette, saUsages,tOastbRead w/kAya & butter & tEa) ~ Brief IntroDuctiOn tO TraditionaL SiLat dEfEnce skiLLs @ baLL roOm ~ LunCh @ stREet wArung ( bOught suM dOnuts & jEmput2, it's NICE!!) ~ Visit tO hisToricaL sites & teMple of Taoism, Buddhism & ConfuniSm ~ Prayers @ MosQue ~ Dinner @ anOthEr rEstAurAnt ~ Visit Datok IsmaiL's kAmpOng ( 1st PracticE @ night on thE muddy gRound! was cOoL! @ had HOmeMade sugar dOnuts & tEa! yUuMmyy! Get tO knOw suM gUys dEr & gEt tO sEe thEir hErOic mOves! Got tO wAtCh ASTRO channEL abt 2 ENgliSh gUys dOin trAdtionaL siLat & thEy pASsed! GEt tO hOld a rEaL agEd PARANG & spEars! And get tO takE piC wif the tOk Guru! Last bUT nOt lEaSt, gEt tO expEriencE thE kAmpOng's night bREeze & fuNny talKs in thE vAn as if we arE forEignErs migrAting by vAn! hAaha..!! ) ~ Left the kampong @ 11.45 & reaCh NAZA hoteL @ 12.45pm! ~ Bathe & Snacking & bitChin untiL 3AM wif ma rOomates AMINAH & FARA!
Day 3: ~ BrEakfaSt @ NAZA HOTEL ( nicE!! frIEd rice, sAusages, wEdgEs, cornfLakes,hOneystArs & coco CrunCh wif OrAnge juiCE! & i sMiLed @ thE wAitErs..hEehe.. ) ~BriEfing & DiscussiOns & FEedbaCks abOut thE trip in thE baLLrOoM ~ Pack ups & CheCk-oUt of thE Hotel ( sMiLed @ thE wAitErs again! tOok suM cUte piCtuRes w/ tHE spArtans! & thEn bOarded thE buS!) ~ Stops @ strEetside & oUr tOur gUide Mr Arif trEated us tO DURIANS!! '101' DURIANS!! (damnn nicE i tEll u!! wOO!yUmmyyyliciOus!) ~ Crap & hAf a siLat kArAoKe in tHE bUs otw baCk tO S'pore! ~ bEcamE a rEpOrter 4 SiLat AniMal kiNgdoM! ( MERLION,AFRO LION,MONKEY,HORSES & mAny mOree!! HAaha!) ~ REach S'pore tERMinaL @ Tuas & all thE wAy baCk tO MillEniA InStitutE! ~ Alight in sCh, tOilEt, & mEt up wif thE King, QUeen, Healer & Peasant! ( hAd dinnEr & sOurvEnir givinf @ MakanshiOk!) ~ Got bOdygUards tO accoMpany me hOme dUe tO suM occurEncEs. ( BodyGuard 1 Mr Man & BodyGuard 2 Mr Ein sEnt mE hoMe & thEy eNcountEr suM Banana trEe jus bElow ma bLOck.. nOw u guys nOe whAt's wif my unEaSy fEeling gg back hoMe at night...)
aNd hOLA!! im baCk hoME! BOught a maSsager & tShrt & sum othEr stUff for ma faMiLy! i lOve thE trip! i wiLL trEasUre it fOrevEr! mUaaccks!! And tO Fara: tAkE gUd cArE of ur sprAined anKle! And tO Amy: hAf enuff reSt & takE ur fLu mEds! And tO Ein: LoL. :D TO Man, Nir & Nad & ZiLah: I've miSsed U guys! :D:D:D
Everything just suCks ryte nOw. daMn it. tHings diDnt tUrn oUt as hOw i xpEcted.
FirStLy, sum guys arE aCting like ****. taLk to mE abt matters that don't invoLve me. stOp bOthErin me abt all thEsE unnEcesSary stUff lar. GO & GET A LIFE!
2ndLy, ma reSuLts, it suCks. iT tUrns oUt bAd. frEak! why aM i sOo ******!!!
3rdly, i fOund oUt that soMeone wanna rePeat yEar 2. it iS sad. bUt thEn, it sEems like iM conSidErin it tOo. hMm..
so, whAt sHuud i dO nOw? i rEally dunNo. i rEalli hAf nO idEa. shUd i tEar up thE slips? oh well, might as well bUrn it. FREAKS!
-_whAt hAf i done? whAt aM i dOin? whAt shouLd i dO?_-
yay! wEnt oUt tO sEe the DancEwOrk 08 jUs nOw @ viVO! wOOhoo! conGratz tO MI TEAm fOr winnin thE BEST COSTUME!! :D
anyWay, wEnt oUt wiF my gUrLfRen tOday aftA sOOoo long nOt mitiing hEr! oHmagOsh! u sEe, in 2006, wE onLy mEt oncE or twicE & in 2007, wE didnt mEet at aLL and suddEnLy in 2008, dis wEek, shE sMs mE back and hEy, i waS sOo sUrprisEd and quiCkLy made a DatE wif hEr! mAn, it waS reaLLy a niCE oUtin! mEt up wif hEr & wE taLk alOt! lOts of uPdates!of coUrz lar, 2 yrS woRTh of stOry! and stiLL, wE cuDnt finiSh it uP in jus 1 day of courz and sO, wE arE lOokin foRwArd tO anOthEr mEeting! yay!
weLL, tO ma lOveLy GurL, Fatin Arzat: i rEally am thAnkfuL fOr thE mEet up and i did hAf a spLendid tiMe taLkin, bitc.hin, camwh.Orin, reminiScin about thE paSt mEmoRies, shOppin & wAndErin aRoUnd maLLs wif ya! hOpe we cAn gET tO dO it again! dis tiMe, wif mAny othEr girLfrEns! yEs?? hEehe.. lOves! :D