HAH. was pissed off initially wif my sistaz cOz i cudnt get tO wAtch the 'double happiness' on chn8 at 5.30pm... hmmm.... but was okayy soon afta...
oUh welll. gOt back the 2nd draft of PI...( preliminary idea) .. and.. ouhkayy.. i did quite well..bOth drafts ARE meeting expectations.. BUT, im still nOt satisfied. Im not happy. at the mOment. nO. im NOT happy. i dunnoo why... hmm..bEen fEelin kinda.... lost dis few days... i kinda fEel tired n i dAydream aLot.. i dunno why.. i jus fEel thAt im kinda... a disappointment at times.. well at least tO my dad... and... im jUs nOt a goOd frEn at tiMes... i sumtimes encOurage ppl tO do thE wroNg thing, tt mAy deStroy thEir hapiness. But its nOt on purpose. really. i try to help bUt im afraid i cAnt be of any help. im jus fEelin lOw..n lost. yes. im lOst frm the real wOrld. i kip thinking hOw gOod my life will bE if i can sWitch tO live in my fAntaSy. it will be aLOt happier...bUt i nOe, it's only poSsible for me to dreaM, it's IMPOSSIBLE to make that a reality.
i miSss the gOod old dAys... & i miSs sum ppL... i miSs RaM, hE's the guy thAt always flOod my sMs inbox with stewpit patterns and kol me several times jus tO taLk crAp. i lOve talking tO him. oUr conversatiOn will start of wif oUr respective proBs n dEn tO sum jOkes n teAses & den crAp & den sum surprises.. iT's juS wondErfuL... hOw i wiSh... bUt evrythink's sO different Now... well.. juS reminiScing... thAt's all i cAn dOo... :(
aLso... i miSs my bEstie.. this bestie.. thAt i had... bUt bcoz of hEr majOr eGoism & hEr ova limitATiOns tO my highEst tOlerance leveL, i juS cAnt regArd her as my bEstie anymOre.. it's nOt that i wanna stOp it, i tried my vEry beSt tO save it, But it's gOne. and it's u hu causEd it tO happen. Not mE. really. & im sO disappoInted wif u.. well, jUs wanna say thAnks fOr thE frEnship these past short yrs .. i really treaSure 'em. :(
& tO thoSe GUYS are dEr, pLs, have sum cOntroL ova urself. contrOl ur desires & luSt. RESPECT. thAt's the word fOr u aLL tO remEmbEr. & thAt's wAt gaLs wants really. again, it's RESPECT.
i guEss, i better stop reminiScing & evaluating .. it wont bEnefit anyonE.. sori readers. but i've jUS waSted ur tiMe. :(