I've bEen gOne for sOo sOo long. And now, im here again. FInally hAvin suMtime tO bLog.
Been really caught up wif stUdies, tuToriaLs, aSsignments, projeCts, mEetings, cCa trgs, frenLy matCHes... and yes, i hAve NO time for sOciaL life. Not even for maseLf. hMmz..
i duNo wat im dOin.... i need a break. yes. i've been lOsing weight tt im not supposed to. Even ma president thot tt im on diet which im not. i jus cant affOrd proper meals anymore. tht's why. and my frenly matches.. i must say i try to fight like a fighter but it's still not the best yet. can i really do it? even for my A.. i cant tAke it tt time is passin so fast and A lvl is nearing... it seems like im feeling guilty all the time when i dun touch my readings even for 1 day. is tt wat lyfe is all abt?ryte now? at dis stage? i guess so.
and on top of tt, many disasters occuring all over the world resulting in endless deaths & wounded. and eVen our close relatives, sisters & brothers of Islam are retUrnin to their creator one by one. as i've said in my previous entry, Our lives are vulnerable. Anytime, anyday, any moment, we can breathe out our last breath. i really hOpe tt we dun regret it when sumone dear to us leave us in times to come. Whatever u wanna do, watever u wanna say, do it now. if u love sumone, show ur love. if u care for sumone, show ur concern. if u like sumone, tell him/her. Even if u get rejected, at least u noe tht u haf nothing to lose coz u informed tt person ur true feelings and who noes, even if u got rejected, maybe tt he/she appreciate u mOre than before.
Hmm... and der's 2 new beings in ma lyfe. they are siMiLar yet different. one will appear unexpectedly and another one will appear when expected. bOth are cOoL & nicE. but although both are within ma reach, 1 is more observAnt while the other one is slower to nOtice. hMmz..no no, im not in any diLemma here. iM not even hAvin tO chOose. sO dun wori abt tt. iM jus expreSsin what i observe of the 2 in here. it fEels like... intrEsting but perpLexing. hMmz....
And sOOo.. more get attaCh.. and more break up. wAt's wif the wOrld & the ppL livin in it? i duno. & i dun bOther. ppl who got attach now, CONGRATS. ppl who jus brOke up, CHILL & MOVE on WiF LIFE. DUN DO FOOLISH thiNgs jus bcoz of 1 fAilure of HIS test. come on, prove ur worth! aLrights!
ok, if u nOticed, there's no 'hAaha' or 'hEehe' or 'hOho' in this entry. why? coz i dun fEel like lAffing. It's not laffin matter anymore. it's SeriOus. im sick of playin all of dis game. i gOtta be strOng n leave Evrythink bEhind. iM treAtin every sEc like its ma last one. yUpp.
_- iF i haf the chOice, i will choOse. bUt i dun. tt's my stOry. & forever it will be.-_