Hah, thEre's no escape for me. iM stiLL sTuck with the sO called 'obLigatiOn' inwhich i woUld rather call a 'hassle' or a 'fOrced to subMit' sitUatiOn' in which i cAn gif soo many excuSes as i've done befOre but i jus chOse not to this tiMe aroUnd. yeAhh, iM just bEing nice. again. wAtever it is, i still cant run away completely wif excuses alone. i hAf to do soMething mOre & it is reAlly gOnna hurt evryoNe if i were tO take actions against it. Yes, and thosE ACTIONS ar the forces that i've beensuppreSsing dEep within mE, inside of mE. i've bEen really pAtient & respectfuL. reAlly. i aM. if i wEre to be myseLf & stand up for the autOnomy i hAf, it wud hAf been mOre chAotic & probably abusive. but Islam teaches us to be patient & forgiving. And i wAnna be a gOod MusLimah. bEing pAtient, tolerAnt and, forgiving. to be pAtient & tolerant is whAt i've bEen dOin bUt to fOrgive & forgEt? im not able to do sO. just yet. & will never wiLL. Allah, i sEek ur heLp. Please, heLp mE. As a buddy once said to me: '' prAy to Allah & believe thAt He wiLL help you whEn the tiMe coMes.'' InsyAllah. Amin.
Yesterdays were 80%. TOday was 85%. Tomorrow wiL be mOre. iM sure, certainly. & i sAw her wif a guy today supposedly hEr boyfriend. U don't stand a chance bUddy. He's more gd lOokin then yOu. I agree tOo. well, sAd for yOu, bUt u chose to like her. so u aSk for it. i dOn't wAnna get involve in ur love affair. once it reAches 100%, ur tOtaLLy out of my concern.