Warning: This ENTRY IS GONA BE DAMMN LONG & AN EMOTIONAL ONE. IgNORE iF u're in OFFicE or iF u dOn't wAnna spOiL ur mOod tOdayy. tHAnks.

In any case, i wanna comment on thE inDonesian love story thAt i jus wAtched, Love iS CinTa. weLL, i dun usually watch those love stories in the cinemas n stuff & i must admit that this movie is illogical as there is no such thing as a man returning to life after his death using someone else's body. it sounds like crap doesnt it? ouhh yeAhh. BUt, i must sayy that the meSsage behind this movie is a sOund one. The message that the movie is trying to send out to us the viewers is ' express ur true feelings to the person u adore & love & appreciate each & everyone of the beings u care for before it is tOo late'. i must frAnkly admit that i cried watching the movie. not coz of the storyline but, for the intended msg that the producer wants to bring across & bcoz of the scripts written in such a fine wayy that reflects on me myself, my emotions to evryone around me. And regret is the feeling that most ppL feel when they haf lost their loved ones withOut being able to let the former party know how yOu reAlly feel deep inside. sAd? true enuff.

Another movie tht i wanna comment on is another Indonesian Love Movie called Ayat Ayat Cinta. this is no ordinary common teenage love story but it is one incredible movie that encompasses love with the elements of IsLam ( love based in the Islamic way). It is a truelly wonderfuL thumbs up mOvie thAt i cud just let my tears flow even after 3 times watching it. This movie reAlly left an impact on me about Love & Religion, the what-nots & the believe on the diction 'fate' which is associated with 'soulmate'. The girl in the movie named Maria ( a ChriStiAn girL) asked her neighbour, Fahri (a yOung Muslim man) this question, ''Do u believe in SouLMate?'' and she goes on saying, ''I believe that EgYpt & The NiLe RivEr are souLmates''. iT does make sense. Without the NiLe River, Egypt won't be recognised just as such and vice versa. And so, both needs to exist to complement each other. This got me thinking, is Ta'aruf a good way to determine a blessed marriage or finding ur souLmate ur own way the key to a laSting marriage? Well, the interesting part is that, there is a twist in the movie and so, to those who have not got the chance to watch it, do spare 2 hrs for it. it is worth it. :D

And yEAhh, u might be aSkin, wAssup wif Shai typing entries about indonesian movies & taLking about love aLL of a sUdden? well, true enuff i dun reAlly taLk much about my lreaL love life in my blog except for maybe my crAze fAntasies over BaihaKki(previousLy ;) & HaSsan Sunny(current :P). The truth is, i do haf a crush on someone.Initially, i thot it's just the crush that will leave me after probably 2-3 mths but well, it did not. Instead, the infatuation extents up to 8 mths estimated and again, i just treat is as probably a permanent crush & it does not mean that i reAlly LiKe hiM. that was my deniaL as some presumes. buT in thE end, right now, im aWfuLLy in the right state to declare that admiring someone for up to 8 mths has proven to be just another cRush and not true love or as such. of couz, im shocked myself as all this while i had this in mind that admiring someone for 3 mths = crush wile more than 6 mths = loVE, reAL love. And yet, i proved to myseLf thAt my thinking is wrOng. AwfuLLy wrOng. 8 mths can stiLL be = to a cruSh. probabLy a longer crUsh. But stiLL, it's just acruSh. Nothing mORe.

Im fEeling rather anguished & disappOinted wif myseLf. I regret not hAving able to stOp myseLf from Adoring hiM. i mAnaged to control my feelings & i saLute myseLF for thAt. But i faiL to stOp hOping & expeCting. And right now, i dare to sayy thAt i haf succeed in not expecting anymore. But, the hope? it is stiL in me & im trying very hArd to sUppress that hOpe in me. i diD what i cud & he did what he cud. We're both equaLs now. we dun owe each other anymore. And the revelation is quite a heart-wrenching one but it is not as devastating as i expected it to be. What upset me moSt is that for this 2 wks, u gave me the coLd dubious siLence in which i cud not figure if it is due to what i said or it's just u under some circumstances. I shall leave the prints of the shattered pieces of the whole till here for now. I need some resurrection.

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