Im reAlly CONFUSED. yeAHh, Zilah was right. I AM CONFUSED. abt EVeyrthing. And Zu was right tOo. i hAf tO try & bE oPtismistic abt things arnd mE. i gUess, im sOo used tO being pEssimistic that when something happen, i wOuldnt think it as of any benefits tO me. well, i TRIed. i TRIED being chEerfuL & hAppy gO lUCky & think positively abt some incidences.... bUt... i jUst cAnt lure aWay the negative thOughts. Its innate. well... im Born to bE like this, tEmperamental, moOdsWinged, sEnsitive, dEpressed lil kid. i cAn nEver be hAppy & sATisfied wif myseLf. NEVER.
Well, he was nice to rEmember my birfdAy although he got it 1 dAy wrOng. But stiL, im reAlly tOuched by his thoughtfuL gEsture. Thank yoO sOo muCh Buddy. :) And thAnks tO my beloved Zilah Nik & Zu for heAring out some of my troubles. i shUdnt impose on u guys anymore.. bUt i rrAlly do Appreciate ur advices & time. I reAlly reAlly dO. :)
And well, i am nOt as pretty as those miSs uNivErsE. i kNow thAt fact cLeArLy. it's reAlly trOubling me at times. bUt in any cAse, i am tHAnkfuL tO GOD for mAking me fully normaL wif no disabilities. AlhaMduLillah. And i fEel thAt those who ar cAcat angota ar the ones hu ar reAlly bEAutiful. think abOut it. ImmortaL MyStiQ